My first crush wasn't the prettiest girl or the most handsome guy on the school. He was just the ordinary supporting student character A (lol). He was funny and a bit mischievous, maybe more than a little. But he really was normal on the looks. In fact I didn't even notice him till the 8th grade, when he and another couple of boys were forced into my group by the teacher, as punishment because he pulled an unecessary prank on girls. (8th grade mean 13 y.o. in our country and students were assigned in to 3 girl groups and 4 boy groups at my class back then). Apparently he knew me before, because we were also on the same class at 7th grade too. But I never noticed him till half way through 8th grade. (^^; )
I remember he being really good at math. Strangly enough, I also used to love math back then and was quite good at it. We were both always competing with each other on fastest to solve the hardest math problems. And most of the time, it ended up on a tie because we both get stuck at some point. He used to tease me alot too. Which, I used to hate alot at the time. Dense idiot of a girl I was back then failed to recognize that particular behavior he held towards me. XD
Eventually he confessed to me, through his best friend and my best friend. We were such an awkward and shy bunch of little kids at that time. Can't blame him for choosing such a roundabout way. (^^; )
And my reply was to be expected, which was rejection. The reason being my fear of being found out by my brother who was two years older than me also attended to the same school.
I was actually quite surprised at his confession till then I wasn't aware that I had a crush on him too. But I sure did realize afterwards. XD
Denial was pretty normal for me in that certain situation. But I still remember being unable to surpress my smile when my friends used to teased me with 4 number sneeze, always picking up numbers which added upto 12 since his name started with L.
His confession ruined our friendship in lot of ways though, we were really good friends before and because of that, it was awfully awkward to hold a normal conversation afterwards. Eventually we stopped talking at all. Add to that, there was an event that made me have a bad impression of him at the 9th grade. Apparently he got a girlfriend in his class and I also almost forgot about him and this little crush by the time we were on 9th grade. It happened near the end of the school year, when I went to his class on an errand. He was assigned to a different class at 9th and it was located on a different section building. Bunch boys there started cornering me with petty insults on the corridor leading to the class and starting up some nasty rumours about me. Even though he wasn't on the group at that time, couple of his clique was there. I got really mad and placed full blame on him (immature lol). For some unknown reason, I also became somewhat happy for not deciding to go out him when he asked year ago.
And this bad impression became worse when we got to 10th grade. His best friend, whom I was on quite good terms after his confession at the 8th grade, also suddenly confessed to me out of nowhere. It really hit me by surprise but I rejected him because I didn't really think of him that way. But we never stopped talking to each other or stopped being friends unlike him. But then he started trying force couple me and his best friend. Making unnecessary kinky jokes at us everytime he saw us together talking or passing by each other and pulling stupid pranks etc. It really irked me into almost starting to hate him. Such situations never gave us a chance to be friends again. He had couple more or so girlfriends when we got to senior years. But we never met face-to-face on A/Ls. (Advanced Level classes).
Yester year I met him at a highschool reunion. Things were still the same and awkwardness was just the same too. We just smiled and passed by each other, I still talk to his friend but not him. I can't seem to talk to him for whatever the reason, be it awkwardness or my cowardice. I suppose he's the same too.
My first crush.
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