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『Mrs. Almighty』『His』, Female, from MY GOD'S HEART

Work is hard when you work too hard for people who don't value it. Jan 18, 2017 at 10:13 AM

    1. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Work is hard when you work too hard for people who don't value it.
      1. Lovely
        Lovely
        o.o
        q.q
        Jan 18, 2017 at 10:15 AM
      2. lavender_drop
        Jan 18, 2017 at 10:41 AM
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    2. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Why is it hard for others to take people who don't take things seriously seriously
      1. R0ro, Accidentally and CDLevit like this.
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      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Slap them with fact and proof. Slap them hard!
        Jan 17, 2017 at 2:18 PM
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      4. R0ro
        R0ro
        Lol
        Jan 17, 2017 at 2:19 PM
      5. Nargol
        Nargol
        ..because if someone can't treat things with the appropriate gravity, they are hardly deserving of my time.

        there's nothing wrong with being carefree; but I don't particularly like people who refuse to be serious when it is clearly called for
        Jan 17, 2017 at 3:54 PM
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    3. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      3,000 \o/
      1. lavender_drop and Frozen ink like this.
      2. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        not anymore
        >:3
        Jan 15, 2017 at 6:25 AM
      3. Accidentally
        Jan 15, 2017 at 6:31 AM
    4. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      I strums a thousand string to tell you.
      I whisper a words i want to say.
      Wherever, whenever.

      There is no reason, just a simple day after day. carry on day after day.

      Bitter sweet of a piece longing his part, wherever, whenever.

      Lifting a drop of minks into the air, a laughing sunset broke froze one sand castle.

      Reminding, rewinding, replaying one endless paradise.
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    5. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      A beauty lies hopefully on meadow, cast a dark divine glows under my blinding eyes.

      An amaranthine lavender rest on her laps, draw a simple luciferous painting on my blind eyes.

      Created a mistifying desire clamping my heart, known known known by all.

      A beauty lies on holy divine canvas, a painted glass for a lovely averice.
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    6. Lady Luck
      Lady Luck
      Hello
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      2. Lady Luck
        Lady Luck
        *pats*
        eating good foods?
        Jan 14, 2017 at 9:14 PM
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ..... Honestly, I can't hold anything down. My stomach hurts so much.
        Jan 15, 2017 at 11:39 AM
      4. Lady Luck
        Lady Luck
        :(
        You're holding on? *pats* get well soon~
        Jan 16, 2017 at 11:44 AM
    7. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I have been taking a lot of things for granted, lately, like all the latest BL ~ #NOMORE
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      2. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Still, I've had the chance to be the.. one to receive attention from .. one or two homosexuals. It wasn't too diffferent from how girls are courted.
        Jan 12, 2017
      3. JustaReader
        JustaReader
        I just know the basics. I don't go deep into that lav.
        Jan 12, 2017
      4. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        ...Nope, I don't want to become bisexual. No, thank you.

        I prefer to read about bl in a impersonal way, witouth me having to identify with the MC's situation & points of view.
        Jan 12, 2017
    8. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Do not eat suspicious looking cakes. It is not worth it.
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      2. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        shhh everything tastes like weed desu~
        Jan 12, 2017
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ....The weeds in the garden taste like grass
        Jan 12, 2017
      4. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        Jan 12, 2017
    9. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Have you guys tried making 3 word stories ? It helps with the mind block, it seems ~
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        This shall continue
        Jan 11, 2017
      3. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        you already lost !
        Jan 11, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        inked: unfinished suffering
        Jan 11, 2017
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    10. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      "Born; breathed anew"
      1. Accidentally and Dori like this.
    11. selkie
      selkie
      "Thirty three steps i take to uncover the lights.
      Thirty three days i spent on the way.
      Thirty three things i discovered.
      Thirty three way you made my days.
      Thirty three lock you take away.
      Thirty three of expression.
      One two three i fall down to my own."

      --Anonymous Compliment Wall Service
      1. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ..... Hmmm..... Well, thank you for the kind sentiment ~ Whoever sent this ~
        Jan 11, 2017
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    12. miru
      miru
      *Hugs*
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      3. miru
        miru
        Victim?
        *glomps*
        Jan 11, 2017
      4. akki
        akki
        Lol what kind of victim?
        Jan 11, 2017
      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *hugs @miru * Idk. The willing kind ?
        Jan 11, 2017
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    13. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Ah. It's raining hard and I didn't take the car today. *sigh*
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      2. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Ooh. Here, the fish are really easy to be scared. Oh, I think that, if you're aproaching them from the shadows, they won't be able to spot you.. not sure about that. What tips can you recommend me?
        Jan 10, 2017
      3. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        practice lots desu
        its hard to explain but you need to be still desu..

        uhmm animals have better instinct desu
        just think about like a sixth sense desu
        they feel you coming if you let them desu~
        Jan 10, 2017
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      4. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        hm. k.
        Jan 10, 2017
    14. CDLevit
      CDLevit
      ...I like that rooster.
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      2. simdimdim
        simdimdim
        My thoughts exactly.
        Jan 9, 2017
    15. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I never knew too much cake was bad for you >.> Goes to show we learn something knew everyday.
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      3. simdimdim
        simdimdim
        Especailly when.......


        THE CAKE IS A LIE!
        Jan 8, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        no just no kitty.
        Jan 8, 2017
      5. simdimdim
        simdimdim
        Haaai~
        Jan 8, 2017
    16. Jiayou
      Jiayou
      1. CDLevit likes this.
    17. Biasedjudge
      Biasedjudge
      that avi is nice...
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Image google search?
        Jan 7, 2017
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      3. Biasedjudge
        Biasedjudge
        god fucking dammit
        Jan 7, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        Jan 7, 2017
        JustaReader likes this.
    18. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      In anything I do, I tend to think of the end long before I've begun. At times, it seems like a good idea then it pulls at my anxiety.
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      3. Biasedjudge
        Biasedjudge
        stop overthinking and just do it. Works for me. for example when i plan to jump a salto from the 5 meter tower, just do it.
        Jan 7, 2017
      4. Laksha
        Jan 7, 2017
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      5. Biasedjudge
        Biasedjudge
        but the adrenaline rush (considering my fear of hights) is worth it.
        but lets expand your problem (cause i feel your plight).
        I have confidence in myself to do said jump because i was for the longest period of my life a gymnast and know what to do. So actions with less thinking but i have the back up to do it, just like you, more confidence missus!
        Jan 7, 2017
    19. Laksha
      Laksha
      LUL, that message, it reached me hahaha... :D

      you like yaoi?
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      2. Laksha
        Laksha
        ~~ okay~ desu~!
        Jan 7, 2017
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        Good luck ~~
        Jan 7, 2017
      4. Laksha
        Laksha
        ~~ sankyuu~ desu~
        Jan 7, 2017
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    20. simdimdim
      simdimdim
      Good.. Morning?
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *brings Dearie's hand to my lips and kisses the knuckles* :>
        Jan 7, 2017
      4. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *kiss baby hand and lips* we just straightly ignore them huh...
        Jan 7, 2017
      5. Biasedjudge
        Biasedjudge
        yeh no the association is out, no wonder the earlier associate popped LSD into his vodka *fucks off into the nth dimension*
        Jan 7, 2017
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    Gender:
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    March 22
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    MY GOD'S HEART
    Occupation:
    I live with the consequences.
    " I was blessed to have known your gentle hands
    Extremely fortunate for your sweet words
    I am blessed to have known you
    I am grateful to have loved you.
    "

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    If I had a house of my own it would smell like lavender
    There'd be a soft undertone of chamomile
    And it'd always sound of jazz
    Armstrong and Chet Baker
    A little Coltrane and Kenny G on his sax
    It'd be filled with books and paper
    It'd be filled with ideas and hope
    It'd be a place where failure just means renewal
    And all possibilities are welcome
    I think it's hard to imagine the things that I wish it would be without drawing you a picture
    So, I'll tell you everything it isn't
    It isn't alive with the sound of anger nor the sound of despondency
    It isn't writhing in silent agony
    It isn't dead with regret
    There are no broken plates on the floor
    No broken vases
    No thrown flowers
    My house may be of paper and ink but it will be my home
    My house shelters me from the billowing wails of my own fear
    Not enough, it cries from outside my doors
    Not enough
    You are not enough
    You are not worthy
    Failure
    Failure
    Failure
    Useless
    Useless
    My house will block out the noise
    My house will be firm and stand tall
    It may not completely block out the rain but it will be warm
    It will be safe
    It will be home
    Some may ask where I plan to build it
    I have the blueprint right here
    In every crevice of my bone and every hollow of my flesh
    It is in the places I cannot fill that you will be there
    You whose bones will build the structure of my house
    It is your voice that will be the door
    It is your hands that will be the warmth
    I am often asked why I love bones
    Fingers and joints
    It is not the gore nor the death that attracts me
    It is not the reek of what has come to pass but the possibilities at every fingertip
    I am hoping one day to find the flesh to build my house
    I am hoping to find a heart that belongs to me alone
    One to shelter me and hold me safe,
    Someone whose hands I can hold in pride and every day someone to whom I'd say," I'm home."

    Tell me the name of your demons
    And I will tell you the name of your love
    Give to me your darkness and all that you have
    I can give you hope
    It is hope that I have amassed inside me
    It is the hope I have kept dear
    It is the hope countless others have given me
    Without the hope they left, I would never be alive
    I have buried it inside my heart too deep
    Your name
    Your intonation
    Your words
    My hope is to one day give it all back to you
    Hundredfold

    You can count on me to wage war against a tyrant
    My hands that hold the gun will not shake
    My eyes will not blink
    Until he is dead
    You can count on me to exorcise demons
    My heart will not flinch
    My mouth will not close
    Until he goes back to hell
    You can count on me to face your enemies
    Mine is the blade that will plunge their hearts
    I am your hero
    Me
    Just
    Don't ask me to touch my sadness
    That is the monster I cannot shake
    I cannot hold it
    I cannot believe it
    I am a victim of it
    Trapped
    I have long since stopped struggling
    Everyday it consumed more of me
    I am not proud
    I could ask you to stay
    Be a bit more selfish in my ways
    I could ask you to listen
    Be more gentle in my delivery
    I could
    I won't
    I know it will hurt more when I say go
    I know I will leave scars on your body
    My heart is a knife
    Either way
    I will never burden you by asking you to stay
    So please do visit
    But be clear where the door stands
    Because sometimes, I forget you were even there