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『Mrs. Almighty』『His』『Belong to Zu』, Female, from MY GOD'S HEART

I don't know how many times I've re-read the new Skip Beat update ~ #litaf Apr 24, 2017 at 2:47 PM

    1. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      I LOVE YOU!
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    2. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I don't know how many times I've re-read the new Skip Beat update ~ #litaf
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      3. Shem
        Shem
        I don't know too, but I like skip beat XD
        Apr 24, 2017 at 3:00 PM
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      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        The LATEST CHAPTER ~ Ugh.... read it while I was in a meeting ~ I was going kya ~ kya ~
        Apr 24, 2017 at 3:07 PM
      5. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        I've also droped it long ago.. not really sure why I've did that thought.
        Apr 24, 2017 at 8:25 PM
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    3. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      *put book here and start doing my report*
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *brings out book and blanket... starts reading here*
        Apr 24, 2017 at 2:37 PM
      4. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *hugs wifey*
        Apr 24, 2017 at 2:38 PM
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      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *snuggles up*
        Apr 24, 2017 at 2:39 PM
    4. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I promised myself no artificial sugar. Five packs of chocolate later and that's all I have in my veins.
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *check sugar blood*
        Apr 23, 2017 at 1:17 PM
      3. Frozen ink
        Frozen ink
        5 packs of chocolate or bars desu ka?
        cause being what I am I can estimate desu~
        Apr 23, 2017 at 1:19 PM
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        packs of chocolate bars
        Apr 24, 2017 at 2:37 PM
        Accidentally likes this.
    5. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      Miss you *hugs*
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        How many chocolate~?
        Apr 23, 2017 at 1:14 PM
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        >.> enough
        Apr 23, 2017 at 1:15 PM
      4. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Hu-uh. Enough i see.
        Apr 23, 2017 at 1:17 PM
    6. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      *snuggles❤*
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    7. Anon Ymous
      Anon Ymous
      .
      lurking?
      stalking yer husband movement?
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      2. Anon Ymous
        Anon Ymous
        .
        >_>
        watcha talkin about?
        Apr 18, 2017
      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        I have sc~
        Apr 18, 2017
      4. Anon Ymous
        Anon Ymous
        .
        ..............
        .....................
        DAMN IT PKITTY !!!
        Apr 18, 2017
    8. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Sometimes, I blurt out the most embarrassing things while I type.
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ...Is it the part where you tell yourself you do a good job then realize you fucked up ?
        Apr 17, 2017
      4. Shem
        Shem
        Awww we are the same XD
        Apr 17, 2017
      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        I just hope no one searches assorted flavored lube, nearest stores out loud in their offices. That'd be sad. >.>
        Apr 17, 2017
    9. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      Happy sunday dear *hugs*
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    10. Koalala
      Koalala
      Hello lav ♥
      Let me formally introduce myself as one of the biggest psycho.
      You can even think of me as your eyes in the server.
      I will give you all the insiders that you need. lol
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        >.>



        =-=

        nope. you treat me like a kid !
        Apr 11, 2017
      4. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        I want to give a kiss tho~
        Apr 11, 2017
      5. Vex
        Vex
        Solo...why was I summoned? O_o
        Apr 12, 2017
    11. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I hand paint all the easter eggs and make each one a portrait of an animal in fancy clothes. It's crazy.
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Hm~ i will think about it. ^o^) ...later.
        Apr 11, 2017
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        >-> sorry abt him
        Apr 11, 2017
      4. Accidentally
        Apr 11, 2017
    12. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Someone suggest something interesting you've been reading !? Please ??
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        Mr. Panda ?!
        Apr 11, 2017
      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Mrs.almighty~
        Apr 11, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ohhhh >///<
        Apr 11, 2017
    13. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Am getting sleepy.
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      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        I am a man -_-
        Apr 7, 2017
      3. Anon Ymous
        Apr 7, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        Apr 8, 2017
    14. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Dear Pain Killers, you make me doubt everything. Thank you.
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      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        It's a leech. Male one at that =-=

        Mooch off my room for one month (i usually goes out at night at the time)
        Apr 6, 2017
      4. Nargol
        Nargol
        @Accidentally what a loser

        I would never leech off of a friend.

        Only people I love! A man has to have principles!
        Apr 6, 2017
      5. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        ...fair enuf.
        Apr 6, 2017
    15. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      My side win :>

      62,43% :>

      Now i am free~! \o/

      *glomps*
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      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        o7 aye aye ma'am
        Apr 6, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        =-= hmph.
        Apr 6, 2017
      5. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *glomps*
        Apr 6, 2017
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    16. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I wonder abt my life a lot more lately
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      2. Arcadia Blade
        Arcadia Blade
        I wondered how have i not killed myself already when i have so many dark history that god have already made a library out of my dark history...
        Apr 6, 2017
      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *rubs head*
        Apr 6, 2017
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      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        .... The past/history is part of our lives.... we must accept it (sadly) and move on....
        Apr 6, 2017
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    17. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      *huggles~* recharging~❤
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *kisses cheek* ~
        Apr 2, 2017
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      3. Accidentally
        Apr 3, 2017
    18. BlancFrost
      BlancFrost
      Ah Lav *hugs*
      I saw the poems in your signature~ Never noticed them until the birdy pointed it out~
      Hope you have been well and taking care of yourself~<3
      1. Accidentally, CDLevit and VOLX98 like this.
      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        Thank you ! I've been taking care of myself (my cousin is) and I've not been drinking ~
        Apr 2, 2017
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      3. BlancFrost
        BlancFrost
        As long as someone is that is all good~ <3
        It's good to know you are taking care of your health~
        Apr 2, 2017
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      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ^^ Thank you ~ <3
        Apr 3, 2017
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    19. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Just so everyone knows, I do like to lurk in your posts and F5 on your wall when I get bored.
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ... I want him to have a social life ~
        Mar 31, 2017
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      4. Koalala
        Koalala
        can I at least know if I was one of them .. >.>
        Mar 31, 2017
      5. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Good luck! Take care! Enjoy life!
        Mar 31, 2017
    20. Pyoo
      Pyoo
      I never realized you have poems in your signature! How have you been?
      1. Accidentally and Shem like this.
      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        Oh, okay. Less drunk but am currently stuffed with too much ice cream that my stomach hurts. Besides that, this one will survive ~ How about you ???
        Mar 31, 2017
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      3. Pyoo
        Pyoo
        Ice cream is good~
        I've been tired much but things are looking better (?) I've decided things in my life, and now I just need to do them one by one~
        Apr 2, 2017
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    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    MY GOD'S HEART
    Occupation:
    I live with the consequences.
    " I was blessed to have known your gentle hands
    Extremely fortunate for your sweet words
    I am blessed to have known you
    I am grateful to have loved you.
    "

    ~out of habit ~

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    If I had a house of my own it would smell like lavender
    There'd be a soft undertone of chamomile
    And it'd always sound of jazz
    Armstrong and Chet Baker
    A little Coltrane and Kenny G on his sax
    It'd be filled with books and paper
    It'd be filled with ideas and hope
    It'd be a place where failure just means renewal
    And all possibilities are welcome
    I think it's hard to imagine the things that I wish it would be without drawing you a picture
    So, I'll tell you everything it isn't
    It isn't alive with the sound of anger nor the sound of despondency
    It isn't writhing in silent agony
    It isn't dead with regret
    There are no broken plates on the floor
    No broken vases
    No thrown flowers
    My house may be of paper and ink but it will be my home
    My house shelters me from the billowing wails of my own fear
    Not enough, it cries from outside my doors
    Not enough
    You are not enough
    You are not worthy
    Failure
    Failure
    Failure
    Useless
    Useless
    My house will block out the noise
    My house will be firm and stand tall
    It may not completely block out the rain but it will be warm
    It will be safe
    It will be home
    Some may ask where I plan to build it
    I have the blueprint right here
    In every crevice of my bone and every hollow of my flesh
    It is in the places I cannot fill that you will be there
    You whose bones will build the structure of my house
    It is your voice that will be the door
    It is your hands that will be the warmth
    I am often asked why I love bones
    Fingers and joints
    It is not the gore nor the death that attracts me
    It is not the reek of what has come to pass but the possibilities at every fingertip
    I am hoping one day to find the flesh to build my house
    I am hoping to find a heart that belongs to me alone
    One to shelter me and hold me safe,
    Someone whose hands I can hold in pride and every day someone to whom I'd say," I'm home."

    Tell me the name of your demons
    And I will tell you the name of your love
    Give to me your darkness and all that you have
    I can give you hope
    It is hope that I have amassed inside me
    It is the hope I have kept dear
    It is the hope countless others have given me
    Without the hope they left, I would never be alive
    I have buried it inside my heart too deep
    Your name
    Your intonation
    Your words
    My hope is to one day give it all back to you
    Hundredfold

    You can count on me to wage war against a tyrant
    My hands that hold the gun will not shake
    My eyes will not blink
    Until he is dead
    You can count on me to exorcise demons
    My heart will not flinch
    My mouth will not close
    Until he goes back to hell
    You can count on me to face your enemies
    Mine is the blade that will plunge their hearts
    I am your hero
    Me
    Just
    Don't ask me to touch my sadness
    That is the monster I cannot shake
    I cannot hold it
    I cannot believe it
    I am a victim of it
    Trapped
    I have long since stopped struggling
    Everyday it consumed more of me
    I am not proud
    I could ask you to stay
    Be a bit more selfish in my ways
    I could ask you to listen
    Be more gentle in my delivery
    I could
    I won't
    I know it will hurt more when I say go
    I know I will leave scars on your body
    My heart is a knife
    Either way
    I will never burden you by asking you to stay
    So please do visit
    But be clear where the door stands
    Because sometimes, I forget you were even there