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『Mrs. Almighty』『His』『Belong to Zu』, Female, from MY GOD'S HEART

My family bought me a dog shaped cake.... I couldn't cut it.... Mar 22, 2017 at 1:52 PM

    1. Pyoo
      Pyoo
      Whew, ambassador of the danmei~
    2. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      *hugs*
      1. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *hugs*
        Mar 25, 2017 at 10:16 AM
    3. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      My family bought me a dog shaped cake.... I couldn't cut it....
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      3. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Why did they do that?
        Mar 22, 2017 at 7:09 PM
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        .... It was tasty tho. My sis took out its face bc she said me just staring at it for an hour was getting annoying.
        Mar 25, 2017 at 10:17 AM
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      5. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        ...
        Mar 25, 2017 at 8:02 PM
    4. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Thank you to everyone who greeted me ! Tho am stuck at work, you guys made me all the more happy !!
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      2. Laksha
        Laksha
        *salutes*
        Mar 22, 2017 at 10:12 AM
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      3. akki
        akki
        You're welcome~
        Mar 22, 2017 at 10:21 AM
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      4. Accidentally
        Mar 22, 2017 at 11:16 AM
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    5. TheMrAzn
      TheMrAzn
      Happy (late??) birthday!
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    6. Mindless-Genius
      Mindless-Genius
      h♥a♥p♥p♥y♥ b♥i♥r♥t♥h♥d♥a♥y♥
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    7. BlancFrost
      BlancFrost
      Happy Birthday Lav~
      Hope you had an enjoyable day~
      *hugs*
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    8. Pyoo
      Pyoo
      Happy belated birthday~ *hugs*
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      3. Risus
        Risus
        This just in, her birthday is on the 22nd, and so, not Belated yet.
        Mar 22, 2017 at 9:07 AM
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      4. Pyoo
        Pyoo
        o7
        Happy not-belated birthday lav~~!
        Mar 22, 2017 at 2:27 PM
      5. Knowledge is power
        Knowledge is power
        Oh...Then, Happy birthday lave~
        Mar 22, 2017 at 3:19 PM
    9. Katsono
      Katsono
      Happy birthday Lava! Have a pineapple as gift.
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        BEST BIRTHDAY GIFT EVER !! Does it come covered in chocolate ??
        Mar 22, 2017 at 1:49 PM
      3. Katsono
        Katsono
        It doesn't ( ._.')
        Mar 22, 2017 at 4:35 PM
    10. Miyuu
      Miyuu
      ⋈‧̍̊·̊‧̥°̩̥˚̩̩̥͙°̩̥‧̥·̊‧̍̊ . ୨୧ ᕼᗩᑭᑭY ☆ ᗷIᖇTᕼᗞᗩY ☆ LᗩVY ୨୧ .‧̍̊·̊‧̥°̩̥˚̩̩̥͙°̩̥‧̥·̊‧̍̊⋈
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ALL HAIL EROTICA !! Someone at work gave me a yaoi life medal and a hentai pin !!
        Mar 22, 2017 at 1:49 PM
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      4. Laksha
        Laksha
        look it happened here xD
        Mar 25, 2017 at 1:17 PM
      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ........ idgaf ...... =-= my name shall only be mentioned in times of Yaoi Calamity
        Mar 25, 2017 at 1:18 PM
    11. regan
      regan
      Happy birthday!
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    12. Nargol
      Nargol
      Happy birthday~
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      2. hachiman hikigaya
        hachiman hikigaya
        Happy birthday
        Mar 21, 2017
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    13. PKitty
      PKitty
      ★ *˛ ˚♥* ✰。˚ ˛˚ ♥ 。✰˚* ˚ ★
      .•°*”˜˜”*°•. ˜”*°• •°*”˜ .•°*”˜˜”*°•.
      .•°*”˜ Happy Birthday !!! ˜”*°•.
      .•°*”˜.•°*”˜.•°*”˜ ˜”*°•.˜”*°•.˜”*°•.
      ★ *˛ ˚♥* ✰。˚˛˚ ♥ 。✰˚* ˚ ★
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      2. Laksha
        Laksha
        *claps at the fabulous firework and cheers for lavender's birthday*
        Mar 21, 2017
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    14. Koalala
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      2. Laksha
        Laksha
        yummy, now I'm hungry
        Mar 21, 2017
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      3. Koalala
        Koalala
        we can eat it later \o/
        Mar 21, 2017
    15. Endofdays42
      Endofdays42
      Happy birthday, may you find all the happiness in the world.
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    16. briose
      briose
      Happy birthday >.< Wish you all the happiness in the world~
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      2. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Happy birthday!
        Mar 22, 2017 at 8:31 AM
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    17. Matsurika
      Matsurika
      Happy birthday lav \o/
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      2. Lovely
        Lovely
        happy birthday \o/
        Mar 21, 2017
      3. akki
        akki
        Happy birthday kouhai~
        Mar 21, 2017
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      4. Manic Josei
        Manic Josei
        Ohh... Happy birthday!
        Mar 21, 2017
    18. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      Happy birthday~ may good things come to your way~
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      3. parthpatel1726
        parthpatel1726
        happy birthday ~~~
        Mar 21, 2017
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      4. CDLevit
        CDLevit
        Happy birthday! Here's still 21...
        Mar 21, 2017
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      5. Linbe
        Linbe
        Happy Birthday....awww zeta was the first one to wish her on nuf
        Mar 22, 2017 at 4:26 AM
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      3. Laksha
        Laksha
        rofl.... >_> I see!
        Mar 20, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        AAAAAAAAH GORG ~
        Mar 21, 2017
      5. Laksha
        Laksha
        rofl you recognize gorg...
        Mar 21, 2017
    20. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      Happy sunday. *hugs*
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *glomps* happy sunday
        Mar 19, 2017
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    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    MY GOD'S HEART
    Occupation:
    I live with the consequences.
    " I was blessed to have known your gentle hands
    Extremely fortunate for your sweet words
    I am blessed to have known you
    I am grateful to have loved you.
    "

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    If I had a house of my own it would smell like lavender
    There'd be a soft undertone of chamomile
    And it'd always sound of jazz
    Armstrong and Chet Baker
    A little Coltrane and Kenny G on his sax
    It'd be filled with books and paper
    It'd be filled with ideas and hope
    It'd be a place where failure just means renewal
    And all possibilities are welcome
    I think it's hard to imagine the things that I wish it would be without drawing you a picture
    So, I'll tell you everything it isn't
    It isn't alive with the sound of anger nor the sound of despondency
    It isn't writhing in silent agony
    It isn't dead with regret
    There are no broken plates on the floor
    No broken vases
    No thrown flowers
    My house may be of paper and ink but it will be my home
    My house shelters me from the billowing wails of my own fear
    Not enough, it cries from outside my doors
    Not enough
    You are not enough
    You are not worthy
    Failure
    Failure
    Failure
    Useless
    Useless
    My house will block out the noise
    My house will be firm and stand tall
    It may not completely block out the rain but it will be warm
    It will be safe
    It will be home
    Some may ask where I plan to build it
    I have the blueprint right here
    In every crevice of my bone and every hollow of my flesh
    It is in the places I cannot fill that you will be there
    You whose bones will build the structure of my house
    It is your voice that will be the door
    It is your hands that will be the warmth
    I am often asked why I love bones
    Fingers and joints
    It is not the gore nor the death that attracts me
    It is not the reek of what has come to pass but the possibilities at every fingertip
    I am hoping one day to find the flesh to build my house
    I am hoping to find a heart that belongs to me alone
    One to shelter me and hold me safe,
    Someone whose hands I can hold in pride and every day someone to whom I'd say," I'm home."

    Tell me the name of your demons
    And I will tell you the name of your love
    Give to me your darkness and all that you have
    I can give you hope
    It is hope that I have amassed inside me
    It is the hope I have kept dear
    It is the hope countless others have given me
    Without the hope they left, I would never be alive
    I have buried it inside my heart too deep
    Your name
    Your intonation
    Your words
    My hope is to one day give it all back to you
    Hundredfold

    You can count on me to wage war against a tyrant
    My hands that hold the gun will not shake
    My eyes will not blink
    Until he is dead
    You can count on me to exorcise demons
    My heart will not flinch
    My mouth will not close
    Until he goes back to hell
    You can count on me to face your enemies
    Mine is the blade that will plunge their hearts
    I am your hero
    Me
    Just
    Don't ask me to touch my sadness
    That is the monster I cannot shake
    I cannot hold it
    I cannot believe it
    I am a victim of it
    Trapped
    I have long since stopped struggling
    Everyday it consumed more of me
    I am not proud
    I could ask you to stay
    Be a bit more selfish in my ways
    I could ask you to listen
    Be more gentle in my delivery
    I could
    I won't
    I know it will hurt more when I say go
    I know I will leave scars on your body
    My heart is a knife
    Either way
    I will never burden you by asking you to stay
    So please do visit
    But be clear where the door stands
    Because sometimes, I forget you were even there