When you are down and feeling cold you try to grasp onto anything Whoever can give me this warmth I will give you my everything Where are you God Why should I even care If that warmth is just a lie When a lie is better Then this feeling of emptiness God I need you I thought you gave me this light to give me hope I took that light into my tiny heart I enjoy the warmth and I have hope again I feel alive for the first time Thank you, God You tease me with that warmth, with that light You know that light is my everything BUT You took it away and did not care you know it hurts worst without that hope Why you do this God As if the emptiness was not cold enough As if the torture was not cruel enough As if the trials were not hard enough As if the torment was not long enough Why are you so cruel God Taking away my everything Robbing me of hope and happiness Breaking my fractured heart again Just take my life o you tyrant God
edited. and added a BUT the line: you know it hurts worst without that hope i wanted to change to: you know it hurts worse after you give me hope and to response to that last one: The ember of my life have long gone Taken and stolen from me by the devil herself Just when I thought hope comes back It's the God turn to took it away what can a mere mortal do? when both devil and god conspire against you? sometimes I would prefer if light didn't exist so I know I'm not the only one alone in this darkness loneliness won't kill me but the emptiness of heart will