I feel pretty sad when people disappear on me... When the people I wanted to be close to no longer remain with me. When they just go away and go on with their own life, leaving me behind...
So I can't help feeling weird when I start disappearing myself. It was something that started happening recently, but I definitely noticed how much I started... Caring less maybe? Or just not being as addicted as before.
I have been on NUF for nearly 2 years now, and for the most part I have been a pretty big addict... Somehow though, this is not the case anymore. I wonder what happened.
There wasn't any particular changing point that made me want to go away, but I know I have considered leaving for good more than once by now... I know the reason behind those, but I can't quite get what I feel now... The reason is people.
People come and go, they disappear, they leave us... One after another, they just keep going away... I miss so many... There are so many people that just... Aren't here anymore.
I think it might be this again... Maybe I just don't see much point in remaining anymore... Maybe I just feel like I'm isolated between some not-as-close friends and barely active or disappeared friends...
NUF just doesn't pull me in as it once did... The addiction isn't there anymore... It's just... A place. One more place, with people I like for sure, but... There are other places with people I like I guess.
I wonder if I'll disappear for good later on... I don't know, it's hard to be sure... I won't go away without saying goodbye at least, but I certainly am not as confident as I was in the past that I would forever remain here... Haa... Sometimes I really wish I was forever locked in the past, back when things were easier and my life was simpler... I love the present too though, there are many wonderful things even in a terrible present.
Disappearance
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AliceShiki
『Ms. Tree』『Magical Girl of Love and Justice』, Female
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