Well, this blog thing is more like a stress reliever for me, so I’m not necessarily doing this for replies or anything, but.. continuation of my second and first blog.
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At first, when I met them 5-4 years ago, they were kind. The good friends who’d always have your back when someone insulted you, and gave you answers when the teacher called on you. They’d call you pretty, and you could tell they meant it. Fast forward a year after I met them. They were still kind to me, but not to others. They physically abused a mentally ill student until he moved away because he couldn’t take it anymore.. where was I in all this? Nowhere.. I did not know this was going on. Two years later, they started ignoring me for the ‘better’ friends in the friend group. They’d push me aside to talk to the friend I was talking to, because apparently I wasn’t someone interesting to talk to, and that that friend was better than me in any way. I think they made that clear to me on purpose. They also called me out on my appearance. They’d laugh at me.. and nobody would apologize when I cried because of it. They’d just.. stare at me. Three years later, everything is the same as last year. I’m the ‘inferior’ friend of the group, the one you could replace at any time.. the one you made feel worse so you could make yourself feel better. Four years, they started making it obvious they thought they were better than me. They would always put me down, and I’d say nothing or laugh it off.. because they were my friends, right? Fast forward to when I confronted them. They did not apologize for all the wrongdoings they did to me, even when I struggled to even speak it because of they way they taught me I had no voice. They completely ignored me and replied to my other friend who they were trying to butter up to. They got mad.. but what could they even get mad about? Me and my four other friends, we endured your verbal abuse for all those years, and you think you have the right to get mad? I bet you’re mad that you don’t have anyone to trample over anymore. That’s good, because I don’t want to be trampled over anymore either. But now.. as in my last post, my closest friend wants to be friends with them again...
Describing how they became toxic
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