I wish to discuss this case in the general chat thread but I know that my sister will read this post if I post it there, so I use blog in order to avoid her from knowing further things about my recent activities in NUF..
If she saw this post in the general chat, she will laugh of satisfaction and will think that she won the game..NO, she's wrong!! I post them here cause I'd nobody to tell it to, you guys may not know me so I bet it's the best thing to tell you guys rather than telling people who I know (cause I had a hard time to trust people nowadays, I don't trust people whoever they're to me)
My older brother and older sister (child no.1 and no.2) are overreacting and overdoing things over small fights...I know that they intend to bully me without me realizing it but I know them well that's why I know that they're bullying me...
For example like this:My sister may not be here but I know that her accomplice (my brother) is the one who did the job cause they're very close and I know everything...Look at what he did. It's impossible for the others to did this cause they're innocent..First thought, I suspected two people but after the second incident, I know there is only one suspect..
I was very mad, very² mad about this but I pretended not too cause I know their motive to bully me is to piss me off..Aren't they feel shame for doing so? I mean like they're older than me and they should know that I'm a stupid childish brat and they should just forgive my mistakes as an adult...
I dislike them so much because of what they had done to me..My brother is a clergyman and how can he just say yes to everything she say?! He didn't even respect us(his family), how can a person like him become a clergyman!!??? He always insult me that I didn't want to talk to him anymore..
I pretended to ignore their activities cause I'm tired, tired of everything that I wish to cry but I want to stay strong..They're overdoing it they're the one who started it (my sister'S the one who started it to be precise was when I started to provoke her and told her how pathetic her actions were and her words were as pitiful as ever and my brother just follow her and so and so)..
I told my sister bout how pathetic she was this was because she always told me that father always demotivated people but she did as what her words said that's why she is pathetic..I even told her that I annoyed her to reflect her PATHETIC actions, she's pitiful..I even told her that I was mad because I couldn't accept the feelings of being betrayed by the person who I loved and trusted the most (me and my sister used to be very close cause I'm better than my second sister [I like my 2nd sister a lot cause she was kind even though she may appear the opposite and we're the same, not interested])..
I'm enough of this, I'm tired of bullies, I'm tired of everything even though I'm not interested but non-stop bullies for more than a month is unbearable..Why can't just they understand it, of course I won't ask for forgiveness cause they'd cross my line and reach my climax..
They just wish to piss me off, yes, I'm 100% sure cause I can read them through..I know what they'll do in the future, so I sometimes bait them with dirty tricks and reverse-psychology (so I won't doubt about my guts but they didn't realize it and now I don't want to keep update about them cause I'm not interested)
I'm tired, enough of this, I'm not interested plus their games didn't entertain me that I just ignore what had just happen. I grew sick of it and bored the more I think about it (that's why I spend my times drawing and post some threads and comics to this site)...but do you think they're wrong? I'm doubtful about this, I don't really say they're wrong but just annoyed by what they're doing...
Thank you for reading this stupid post anyway..
*May be talking about now and the past in one sentences or explanation
Realize the bullies but pretend to ignore
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