It's natural for people to want to love and be loved.
I've never loved or been loved in a romantic way. I don't think many people have, or few people have, compared to how many people there are.
It's complicated and difficult, not only love, but people and relationships, and life. Things get in the way, but before that, there often isn't one - a meeting of the souls.
Like, I mean, well, how often do you meet someone you like. And I don't mean that, oh they're very attractive, I could see how someone could be attracted to them, and so of course I am as well. But you know, it's the, uh, well, uh, that thing that you see in them that no one else has. It's unexplainable.
And understandable if you've never felt it before or know what it feels like.
Like I feel as if I've only felt it once, and may have felt it again, but that second time, I'm not sure, but it's closer than any other other time, I think.
People have been attracted to me, but I don't think they really see me, like really really see me. Just the idea of me or how I project myself to the world, how I want the world to see me. And I was attracted to them back, but more so in a reciprocatory or obligational way. Like when someone else is sad you feel sad too, or when someone's upset and you become very gentle and unobtrusive. Or maybe I'm just sensitive. I didn't really like them, though I wanted to - though I wanted to return their feelings.
It's just so rare - to really really like someone. And you can meet someone for a moment, and then the next, they're gone, and you never see them again.
And that entire time they're gone - you realize what was missing - you realize what's gone, and it's maddening.
I just... I just wish I knew what I'd be missing the moment I met her, if I didn't grab her right on the spot and tell her how I felt. I should've... But I couldn't. I was way too young to see, to understand the gravity of the situation.
And I'll probably never see her again. Or anyone like her.
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