Somewhere, I found a crumpled letter lying on a dirty ground, with no name to address nor name of an author. I don't even know why the hell I am sharing it. But your thoughts are free to be heard.
"You still messaged me and tell me that we could work things out without sacrificing anything in the first place. That you still misses me and thinking of me and just wanting to prove yourself to me. I know.
I know that you'll always gonna be better, that you'll always be a better man, that you'll be willing to work things out for the better...but no matter how much good you tryna put, I won't be the one who'll do the same as you do. I don't have that same feeling that I used to have with you, I don't have that same goal of trying it anymore because you're looking at the girl who used to be in love, who used to love someone like you. but days, weeks and months had gone and it felt different now.
At this age, I have yet to discover where I am, where I wanna go and where I should be. I have yet to to feel that strong desire of committing whether I wanted to settle my life in the future with someone. All I have in my mind was to work things out on my own from now. I don't want to sound selfish but it felt like I am what I am now. I have so many things to wonder all alone that it felt like I don't want to be with someone. There was so much time for everything but your desire feels different to me as I don't want to engage myself of trying to work it out between us when I'm still on the process of trying to work out myself and the life I have.
I don't want you playing around trying to work out by telling me you still wanted me, you misses me, you think of me, stop making it hard for yourself...because I'm not the girl that I used to before.
I don't want you to settle for a girl who might never see herself or is actually deciding of not getting married or even wanting a family in the future.
All I really wish is to stop trying to be better for others and try to be better for yourself. You have so much chances to take, so much people you can mingle with; it's not the end just because I have to end it for the both of us. There are so many things that you could possibly get your mind work out and it's not about trying to work this relationship but the things that would help you get along the way and meet the people that are meant for your life. Believe in yourself and go with the flow. Only time will tell where you are meant to be."
That's it. I don't even know who crumpled the paper, the one who wrote the letter or the one who is meant to read the letter but it seemed that this two might have a long way on their own.
A confession from unknown woman to her lover ( Critics are welcome)
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