And So I Did

What's wrong with the current me?
I feel so tired.
My mind runs away frequently.
I'm fearful of facing people.
I'm frightened of making decisions.
I don't want to make a decision.
Because what I want
Is to stop functioning.
Just stop.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop...
Stop acting.
Stop smiling.
Stop studying.
Stop living.
Stop everything...
I want to run away.
To the depths of the forest.
Anywhere really.
Just somewhere far.
Where the only thing happening
Is a day to day monotony...

(J4.18)​