Abandonment

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AliceShiki

『Ms. Tree』『Magical Girl of Love and Justice』, Female
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The annoying thing about the internet, it's that it's really easy to lose contact with people.

At one day you're there, talking together, having fun... And on the next one... Poof, they're gone. You think nothing of it because not everyone logs in every day... Then a week passes, 2 weeks, a month, 3 months, a year... At one point you just miss the person... You just... Want to be together, yet they never come back, they never answer your calls.

It hurts, but there isn't much that can be done... But if there is one thing that hurts more though, is to find them again.

I say find, because they didn't come back... They just appeared at another place, a place with a somewhat similar community, that somewhat shared a group of people, that had the same idea behind it and... And they're a fucking mod!? Ah, gods fucking damn it.

I thought you were busy damn it. I thought RL caught you! I thought you didn't even have time to log-in due to how buried in work you were! And now you have enough time to be a fucking mod!? Seriously!? God damn it...

It hurts... I was worried... I was scared something might have happened... I missed you... I needed help at times... You were one of the few people I could open my heart to... And then you disappear without even saying bye... You didn't even say you were back, you just... Went somewhere else and left me behind... It hurts. It just... Hurts.

I don't get it... Was I worth this little in your eyes? Not even worth saying bye to? Not even worth saying you were back? You had my contact, I didn't have yours... It didn't hurt to say hi, did it?

I understand people disappearing... It happens... But to come back like this? It just hurts... I feel like I was the only one that cared...

Haa... Been a long time since I felt this... Angry. Angry at what though? Me? Because I know it's not at you... I don't even know... I'm sad though, this much I can tell at least... Haaaaaa...

Comments

    1. AMissingLinguist Mar 4, 2019
      Reminds me of those people who miss their old friends on XBox. :blob_teary::blob_teary::blob_teary::blob_teary::blob_teary::blob_teary: Have a cookie. :cookie::blobpats:
      Osamaru likes this.
    2. Osamaru Feb 27, 2019
      *hugs Lily*
      <.< I know that feeling, had it happen before too, in similar ways. It might seem cliche to hear, but time does heal all wounds. You find after a time that it stings a little less, the memory is a little less bitter. That's just Life.
      But what is REALLY important isn't "moving on" or "forgetting about it". Its HOW it heals.
      Did the wound heal cleanly and neatly? or did it close up jagged and full of pus?
      I don't know who you're talking about or what the circumstances are, but If I've ever learned anything in these kinds of things, its that you have to make sure you clean these things out, even if that means opening it back up a bit.
      Bad Storm likes this.
    3. AliceShiki Feb 17, 2019
      *hugs Ohko-chan back* Yeah... It's pretty complicated... I just have a hard time letting go once I do get attached I guess... So it hurts when this kind of thing happens...
      otokonoko likes this.
    4. ohko Feb 17, 2019
      *hugs* yeah..... the internet is a difficult space to stay connected with people in.

      :blobcry: I think a little bit about myself too since I tend to move around with the ebb and flow of waves. I've definitely left some people behind in the past... and I know where to find them... but I'm not always sure how I feel about going back to them. It's been 4-5 years now, right? And a lot of people change a lot in that amount of time. I've changed a lot too. I miss them every once in a while, and maybe they miss me, but I'm not totally sure what it would be like to just go back.

      Yeah... :blobpensive:
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    5. Arexio Feb 17, 2019
      BRB. Going to cry in a corner.
    6. Raneday Feb 16, 2019
      *looks around*

      Raneday was here
    7. Kubera Feb 15, 2019
      That's the virtual life is not everyone you meet online will really care and yeah it's like you get stroke by lightning when you find out they just ignored your existence like you never was a close friend ONLINE , but it's fine bcz we were strangers from the beginning and the moment we thought we are friends is just a wishful fantasy
      Ruyue likes this.
    8. Clozdark Feb 15, 2019
      :sushi_peak::sushi_hide:
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