FBI: Open up!

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SoulZer0

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Me: You see, lately I've been so busy with work and had almost no time to spare. I returned home, take a bath, and I actually wanted to read novels/manga or watch anime. But I was assaulted with drowsiness and felt asleep almost instantly. I was tired. Tired of living a mundane life, tired of being an adult. I wanted to be a kid. I don't understand how there are people who could do this for decades. I wanted to have fun, this isn't fun. I actually had seriously considered suicide once, but the thought of my mom being sad stopped me. What should I do to regain my happiness, spirit and motivation? What should I do?

I don't know what to think or what to feel. I have stopped giving fucks and all I feel is absolute nothingness. It kills me from inside. I'm a shell of who I used to be. I was once a teenager who was always happy. Did I use up my happy points? How do I farm these points. Watching anime and reading novels/manga? I don't have time for that anymore and I'm losing interest in it. What should I do? Please tell me FBI-san. Please come in and shoot me to death already.

FBI: the fuck?

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Comments

    1. Femme Fatale May 29, 2019
      Hey Hey...it sounds to me like you are growing up and on the verge of leveling up. Maybe it's time to find new friends or interests. Do something slightly out of your comfort zone. I don't know you very well, but I'm here if you want to talk about this more.
    2. Suton May 27, 2019
      if you give up on happiness and learn to enjoy emptiness, life should be a breeze! fight on brudda~
    3. AMissingLinguist May 26, 2019
      Don't worry too much, my fellow Nuffian. Life is full of ups and downs. To address your concerns, I suggest talking and socializing with friends and family. Letting stuff like this out is good now and then, and your family and friends can also help you find some happiness for the future. :blobhug::blobpats::bloblove:
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    4. Clozdark May 25, 2019
      you won't find fun by just reading manga or watching anime
      first you must understand your own taste or preference
      and then find another hobby that's fit that description
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    5. Kysil May 24, 2019
      Ehh... Too tired from everyday work/school that even reading and watching is luxury. I feel you bro... Most of the time I come back home from work, I just straight up go to sleep
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    6. Zennie_613 May 24, 2019
      Hello, reading your story I too sometimes felt that way. Being tired of repeating my living cycle. Until now, I still don't know what my purpose is or what should I do. I also sometimes doubt myself and blame myself for the smallest mistakes. I feel what you're experiencing right now is like a bottleneck in life. I'm just the same as you, and I don't know what is the whole situation around you but if this words can help a little bit to regain your happiness, why don't you start appreciating small things? Try to be positive, if you feel that you're feeling down do some things that will distract you. Better yet take some walk, do some outdoor activities. It's those little things that will make you forget tiredness of living. Maybe by doing those things would lead you to a bigger happiness don't you think so? :blobsmilehappy:
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