Never
I’ll never get to see your precious face;
or whisper words to make you feel safe
I’ll never get to hold you tight
when you can’t sleep at night
I’ll never get to sing to you a sweet lullaby,
to calm you down when you cry
I’ll never get to fall asleep with you in my arms,
all bundled in a blanket to keep you warm
I’ll never get to hear you laugh and giggle
or see you little toes wiggle
There are many things I will never get to do,
but the hardest is not being with you.
K. Fugleberg
The pregnancy app never deleted because I am still in denial. Today, you should be 18 weeks. 154 days to go. Maybe there will be a day when I stop being in denial.
My first child, my forever loved, my star, my baby, my greatest pain, my beautiful memory.