Maybe it's the rainy season, it's raining for weeks now, I guess. I just feel so lonely, scared, panicked, nothing at most. I don't know what's wrong but I just feel like these. I even have to stopped reading in the middle for minutes because I'm thinking. I don't wanna see my parents die in old age. They're still in their 40s but it's scary. I don't wanna grow up. I'm scared that I'm gonna be someone who just leeches of their parents. I'm lazy af (in house chores). I want to work even though I have no experience. But I want security that I won't be a good for nothing person. However, no one's hiring now. I can't work bec I'm not sure if I can balance it with the major courses on my 3rd year. I'm scared that I won't finish my degree bec it has a high chance that they shave off students who aren't good. And I don't know if I can pass the board exam. I'm scared that I won't find a job. My cousin told me before that he can put me in the HR but I'm scared. Also, I'm considering whether to go for the air traffic control job that my friend's mom told us. That job always took test everyday. High pay but also shaves off those who didn't passed. I'm super scared. I'm just so lost. That I just wish tht I die rn. Always make me think the painless way to die. I'm so scared. It keeps ringing on my head. To die. I don't wa t to become a burden. I can't enjoy reading. I wish I stop breathing now.
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