You feel that uneasiness.
You don't know what it is,
You don't want to think, No, you don't want to,
You already have so much to do, why think too much,
You take a breath and close your eyes, and decide not to think,
It was a long day, phew, you imagine yourself as a poor little me,
I'm okay, you tell yourself,
I'm okay...
I'm oka...
I'm ok...
Your eyes fill up,
Weird.
You convince yourself it might be something else,
Yes, yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes no...
Yes, you decided.
Another long breath.
This time you would sleep, you made the resolution.
I'm okay, I'm okay... You repeat it again for yourself.
I'm okay,
I'm okay... Your mind feels muddy,
You want to cry, but you don't know the reason, or you do?
No more, You whisper.
No more, this time louder.
You get up,
You feel the desire to go to the balcony,
Yes, to the balcony...
As if you can't breathe without going there, you go on...
Heart feels heavy,
Don't cry please, you whisper to yourself.
"But...", you hear.
Just there, just there.
You reach the balcony and lookup.
You see a beautiful full moon, playing hide and seek with you.
It whispers to you, "I have been waiting for you".
You open your mouth for saying something,
words betray you,
you feel like you will break.
"Let it out,
You have had enough.
It's okay, let it out."
You start weeping,
You still don't know why.
You feel your insides crying too,
and,
Each one of them embraces you in warmth and say,
"You are not okay..."