First step

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Nyann

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*types something*
....

*hits backspace*

....

*Types something*

....

*Hits backspace*

....

*Types something*
*Sends*
....
*No replies*
*Feels awkward*
*Types something and edits it*
...

*Deletes it*

*Tosses the phone aside*

Sigh...

*Checks inbox again to see if there's any messages*
Sighs again...
None. Blank.


The feeling when a simply sentence or even and emote started to raise so many questions. What if i seem too noisy? What if i am found to be annoying? Wait. What if i am not cared for at all?

Silly thoughts. Be gone.

*Types something*

*Hits send*

*Brightens up at the replies*

Yup. That's what I want! Its just my imagination! The conversation has always been two way!

Also funny. If only you could edit/delete the words you say irl. But the hesitation of saying out something and thinking what would people think, still exists. That's why probably i am more awkward IRL ...

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    1. LoveYou59seconds Jul 28, 2019
      For me, it is so much easier to have a conversation in real life than typing. In short, I am really weirdly talkative but at the same time I always resign back to my personal space to rejuvenate because too much interaction tires me a bit.

      But when it comes with typing, I feel I have to put too much effort and thought about it. I know I am just average when it comes to grammar. But still I always feel the cringe everytime I type. In the end, the words I wanted to say/type towards the person makes my brain freeze. I ended up either slow or no response.

      I kinda feel frustrated about my inadequacy to express the words I wanted to say. But sometimes when I am extremely triggered (ex: talking about the things I am truly excited) that I'm like, 'YOLO!!! GRAMMAR NAZI KILL ME NOW I DONT CARE!'. I type faster than I ever did just to express how I sincerely feel, hoping that others can feel the thrill and excitement I feel :)
      Nyann likes this.
    2. Fossil Jul 27, 2019
      You can always bug me~ I don’t guarantee an immediate response, but I’ll definitely respond when I get around to it!

      Well, if it’s more than an emoji that is.... I struggle with how to respond to those.
    3. Naruin Jul 27, 2019
      same reason for my slow response.. if i'm on my right mind... *nods*
      *pats nyan*

      this is sent after editing more than 3x. T^T
    4. Cutter Masterson Jul 27, 2019
      This has been true since the written word was created. In fact it may even date back even further. Writing a letter, email or text you now have the ability of high sign. You can play out multiple scenarios even before the first word is spoken. It’s not easy anticipating your opponent, but the rewards are worth the risk. Regret is a weight you need not bear. Believe me the what if’s are worse than the rejection. They linger, while the rejection burn quicker and leave. The whole thing about being nervous, fear or hope are normal. But keep one thing in mind be confident and add a little humor along away. In the end you’ll do find. I’m rooting for you.
      Nyann, boogeronthewall and Naruin like this.
    5. Evil_Ginger Jul 27, 2019
      "...um what?"

      "Oh, hold on, let me try that again."

      *hits the load button and selects a different prompt*
      Cutter Masterson likes this.
    6. TheAce485 Jul 27, 2019
      Such is life, with people I have decided to keep in my life I have just let all pretenses down and do all kinds of shit and say all kinds of shit, and they cool. I am a better version of myself online though because I have time to think of my responses properly.
    7. Negiomi Jul 27, 2019
      *pat pat*
      This is the reason that I almost never talk unless talked to in real life, huuuu...

      Buuuut... If anyone posts something to me, there is a really big chance that I'm just trying to find the right Kaomoji to respond with instead of ignoring it...
      Naruin, Daisydacrazy and Nyann like this.
    8. Osamaru Jul 27, 2019
      *pat pat pat pat pat pat*
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