First time getting angry...

It's been a while since I posted something...

Well... As you can see from the title...


This happened last week...

We have this research paper due 5 pm last Friday...

My groupmate sent me her part on the paper in the morning...
So I spent the entire day editing it, adding some insights, filling up what's missing and all...

Then I searched up the references...
I was almost done !

But when I searched it up–

I saw the same paragraph on some study posted online...
I can't unlock it so I asked some friends who has access to it...
I opened that paper...

And saw that the pepper which my groupmate gave me...

Was entirely Copy-pasted...

...

I got angry...

But a silent one...

I didn't burst out... I didn't go on a rampage...

But I felt really stuffy...

I can't breathe but surprisingly my mind is calm...

I wanted to cry that time cause I can't let it out...

I just kept telling my friends, “I'm angry”...

They maybe gave a little laugh saying “You're amazing when you're angry”...

Well I think so too...

But I'm telling you I didn't feel really comfortable...

It's my first time getting angry over something as I always use reasoning and have good control over emotions...
But I quite enjoyed the feeling...

It was out of my control...

But it also made me realize that my mind and heart don't quite go together...

I was clearheaded all the time aside from that mild discomfort...

....

So in the end...

Because I was really uncomfortable...

I deleted the entire thing... And-

- didn't submit the paper...

May our adviser have mercy and accept my our overdue paper...

Especially since I was the only one who did it as apparently, my groupmates are too busy to...

But am fine nao~