I don't even know...

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This thought just came randomly today,
basically I was having dinner and my dad came from work and I commented on how I woke up early at 6am (which is pretty early for me) everyday to workout and then study for my exams and test. He joked that I was just watching and reading on my laptop and pretending to study.

Although the rational side of me was like yeah his just joking, I shouldn't take it seriously. Yet for some reason as he continued to say this it really hurt, like my efforts weren't seen, like all my hard work was ignored.

Ironically, jokes that seem harmless and just fun, really do get painful after some time. Like I was pretty chubby before and so I started to workout and get healthier, only to be called fat by family again. Once again it was a joke, but because they said that so many times to me, to the extent of calling me 'fatty' when calling for me, I started to believe it. And after a small breakdown and talking to my mum about this, it only ended it her brushing it off saying that they were just joking and that I shouldn't take it seriously...

Which by the way fucking hurt.

anyways, that was me ranting so sorry if you read that...

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    1. Silver Snake Nov 21, 2019
      My dad's an asshole who keeps on trying to emotionally break me/get me to beg for his help by threatening me and calling me a liar. So yeah, there's that. We've all got our problems I guess.
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    2. Emmyy Nov 21, 2019
      I don't know your family so I have no idea what they are thinking but the things you do and accomplish that make you feel good about yourself don't let anyone diminish the effort you put into it ! Build your own self confidence up so their teasing doesn't bother you.

      Honestly I know a handsome very fit Hispanic guy about 20yrs old. I have known since him Middle School he has never been overweight and all his brothers call him 'Gordo' which in Spanish means fat... In High School I asked him one time "You have a perfect body better looking than all your brothers why do they call you 'Gordo'" he said cause when he was little he was chubby.
      I had to laugh... ridiculous ! why don't you tell them stop calling you that.. He said who cares...look at me ( a little vain haha) do I need to worry about what my stupid brothers call me...
      I had to laugh...true..:p
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