I Hope that You'll Change (Poems, Long Rant)

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You said you love me
But I know you don't
Because those beautiful eyes of yours
They only shine in front of her

You said you miss me
But I know you don't
Because never once have you tried,
to just take a look on my texts
Then I start to wonder
Have they all rot in your archive?

You said that I'm the only one
But I know I'm not
Those girls are more than just 'classmates'

The movies that you've watched without me
The hotels that you've visited behind my back on the weekends
The restaurants in your Instagram stories
Oh right, you've hidden me from seeing them

My friends have been calling me a fool for years
Maybe they are right
But I'm not ready to face the truth
I'm not ready to let you go

So I bury these screams for another day
As I fake another smile
Maybe....
Maybe you'll change one day?

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I haven't proofread this, so please excuse any faults.
I've heard people complaining about their friends who are blinded by love. The friend will come and complain about her boyfriend being toxic/cheating, but when people tell her to break up she'll refuse to do so on the ground that she still loves him.

Like why? Why? Whyyy.

Reading a part of a novel where a wife got abused but she kept refusing help actually helps me as it opened a new perspective for me.

But whenever someone on the internet asks for an advice because their boyfriend/girlfriend abuse them or cheat them but adding a note to not suggest a break up, it still confuses me.
My boyfriend beat me up again today. He also called me a b///h and s///t. We had a big fight because I found out that he is cheating on me for the Xth time. My face is blue and I don't dare to go home. Does anyone know how to change him?

PS: Don't tell me to break up, I still love him
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NOO GIRL YOU CAN'T CHANGE A MAD PSYCHOPATH LIKE HIM

My boyfriend visited X Hotel with another girl again. He kept yeling at me when I confronted him. He said that he did it because I refuse to sleep with him. He said that I don't love him enough. What should I do? I don't want break up with him. I'm scared of losing him.
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No comments? Because clearly everyone in the reply section would tell you to break up with him asap.
Anyway, some asked for an advice but refuse the actual advice. You can't change someone. You are not his therapist or his doctor. Sigh....
Dear, you are such a precious girl/woman. You are loved and respected. Why must you be tied down to someone who doesn't love you and has zero ounce of respect towards you?

Please reach out to XX (an institution responsible for protecting woman)---]usually this one is only added when it's serious like abuse cases or alike

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    1. Shizukani Mar 19, 2021
      @Jevanka926 Yeah QAQ It's so horrible smh I really hate those types of stories... And they need outside help for sure!
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    2. Jevanka926 Mar 19, 2021
      @Shizukani Yeah... I've heard two stories where the family had to be the one separating the women from their abusers. These abusers don't care that the people they are beating up are also human, smh. I think it's more like denial. After all, people are always kind in the beginning before getting something. After getting what they want, it's another story.

      It's justs whenever I see girls/women posting in social medias about their toxic relationship but refusing the actual advice simply makes me wanna drag them to a psychologist or a psychiatrist and get them helped. Cheating is the most frequent -in the posts-, but for God's sake, unless you have a deal that both of you don't mind about your bf/gf dating other people while they are still dating with you, it's horrible!
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    3. Shizukani Mar 19, 2021
      @Jevanka926 Of course! Also, don't worry, it's for my private collection~

      *nods nods* Sadly yeah :blob_teary: That happens... Maybe it's part of their ego as well the makes them ignore the fact that the person they once loved and the person they chose could become such a monster. Well... I don't know as I am a mere b stander looking from the outside. Who knows what's driving them to that point of ignorance?
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    4. Jevanka926 Mar 19, 2021
      @Shizukani Glad that you like it! Sure, go ahead and save it, but please make sure to save my credit >.<

      What makes some cases interesting is, some of the victims are from 'healthy' families where they receive enough love, affection, money, and such. But -some- people can easily blinded by love and fall for honeyed words. To be honest, I kinda agree with you. People who feel like they aren't loved are more vunerable to abuses since these abusers are very smart in manipulating their victims.

      I once read I Advise You to Like Me and FL was a victim of an abusive father, her mother couldn't break away from her father even though FL had tried her hardest to separate them.

      In one part of the novel, a client was a woman who had suffered from abuses done by her husband. She was an intellegent woman who worked in a great company, she had many friends, and she was well respected. But her husband, he slowly forced her to separate with her family, friends, coworkers, and professor, which made it easier for him to abuse her. Her point of view surely helped me to get another perspective, but I still dislike the fact that some people refuse to acknowledge the truth taht their partner is no longer human,
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    5. Shizukani Mar 19, 2021
      Ah yes~ That's baffling for me too.

      Cheating and abusive relationships.
      Is it love, or is it an unhealthy attachment?
      Is it love, or is it a form of self-sabotage?

      Smh. Even when their relationship is already up in flames, they still hold on onto someone for dear life using those scraps of good memories that they experience. Maybe because that's all that they have. For some people, maybe they subconciously think that this toxic and abusive relationship is what they deserve. sigh It probably stems from their life experiences and most likely from their childhood. But, in short, these people needs to see a psychiatrist, as staying in a clearly abusive relationship where nothing, absolutely nothing, is holding them back (kids, holy matrimony etc.) is a detrimental behavior and self-harming. smh

      Ps: Great poem~ I'm saving it! (with your permission? please? :blobxd:)
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    7. Shrimpy Mar 19, 2021
      Good poem if only u were my poetry teacher lol
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