Inequivalent existence

I woke up when i heard the rain
Someone whispered inside my brain
It's not fair
It's not fair

The thought that hard to leave my lips
Today where I wouldn't able to do anything right
It so frustrating
It so frustrating

I am looking reason to cry
I am looking reason to smile
Although I closed my eyes
Although I am a little bit closer to being myself
I could tell it wouldn't going well

Everything didn't change but everyone change
That's why I am trying to forfeit
That's why I am trying to live
That's why I am so fragile