It's weird (´-ω-｀)

Most of the time, I have a large appetite. But it feels very difficult to swallow food when I was outside eating with certain circle of friends.

Hm.

You could say, I have two circle of friends. The first one is my group of friends I have been hanging out with a lot few years ago.

And I have another circle of friends I've been hanging out these years. To be more precise, they are my friends from college.

I'd like to compare the two.

Whenever I'm with my first circle of friends, my appetite for food was just right. I ate moderately without difficulty.

And when I ate with my college friends, It was also just right. But I've developed a habit of not eating too much due to the diet pills I've been taking at that time. So I left a lot of uneaten food.

Then, the pandemic hit us and online classes are adapted by schools even ours. And I stopped taking diet pills.

Now we're going back to what I mentioned at the introduction. Many months have already passed by and we decided to schedule a hangout. We had a meal. And I found out that I lost my appetite. The food was very hard to swallow even tho, there's nothing wrong with it.

So once again, I had a lot of leftover on my plate. (It kinda sucks. I've paid for it but can't eat it. =w=)

So the reason why I've typed this down is because I had a meal with my mom outside awhile ago. And I had a large appetite, meaning I was eating fine. So there's no issues on having a meal outside.

Then it left me wondering, why is that whenever I ate with my college friends, I'm losing my appetite?

Is it really related to what I'm thinking of?

Am I in reality, developed social anxiety against these people I've trusted? (´-ω-｀)

-Eru101