I am kind of person who is always afraid of being judged by others.
"Only if you didn't eat so much and had a flat belly you would have looked much prettier!" Says my roommate. I realised. Idgaf. I looked at the mirror and I let the crop top expose a part of my belly till the high waist jeans. I thought I looked gorgeous. What she thought didn't really change my perception.
Why should I have a flat belly just to meet the beauty standards of the society? I will do what I love doing. Like eating tasty food, and wearing pretty clothes. As long I am happy other's opinions don't fucking matter to me. Though I felt bad for her. She has been skipping meals and quitting all sorts of food to get "slim" (totally unnecessary as she is already normal built and flat on the chest) . Well her problem. She is jealous that I can eat food and wear these clothes shamelessly~
Have you watched the video of the song How Do You Sleep by Sam Smith? I envy him. How could he pull of such a diva out of himself? How could he move his hips so nicely? Without giving a damn of what the society says? I think the dance was beautiful. I wanted to do it too...
But I was afraid of being judged. What would others say. Something like "That dance doesn't suit a girl without a flat belly"? Lol. I just wanted to groove! The song and the dance steps of the song were really catchy.
"You just need to learn the art of not giving a fuck". My friend. And you can explore every other forms of art by yourself! Like dancing~ Singing~ Dressing up~ Being happy ~