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Silver Snake

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So I like to play the game. It's a MOBA, a multiplayer online battle arena. There are teams of five on each side, and roles each players usually has to fulfill for each side. Like how in WOW, you need tank, dps, and healer. And I love the game, I really do.

But I'm the kinda guy that likes to play solo. I don't go out of my way to look for people to play with. One, the skill levels may differ greatly, and while it can still be fun to play with someone like that, it's usually dangerous to downright malicious to play that way in a competitive environment/game mode. Two, people generally play a game for different reasons; they have different definitions of fun. And I have no patience for losers. I know that sounds harsh, but I just don't get along with people who don't have the same mindset as me. I'm sure that that's the same for everyone else. And lastly, it's a drag waiting on people or trying to find people to play with.

So I'm a semi-competitive player that like to play solo for the micro/mechanical fun of the game, dodging attacks, predicting enemy movements, and just playing a character I think is fun.

I don't think I'm in the minority in this. That is to say, I think most people who play the game think the same way. So what's the point of this post? Well, it's that people are generally awful.

I who played solo was constantly fucked by my team. That would be a great title for a web novel. In recent months I've tried to get in the game again. But every fucking time I get asshole team mates that intentionally try to lose the game. Now I can understand trolls in like 10% of games, but not 100. I think it's fucking malicious, that people have it out for me specifically. Now I know I sound crazy, and maybe a little bit paranoid. But - WHO ARE YOU CALLING PARANOID!?

*cough cough* And it's not just that. I recall years past, when I was moving on from my humble silver beginnings, to the next rank, gold. And I abused the frick out of a character/champion who played so well in that low rank. And I can still remember, that one game, that game that decided whether I would move on to gold or not, it had one asshole twitch player (a rat character/champion in the game) who fucken refused to cooperate unless I virtually begged and pleaded. Now I had no fucken problem with that. I have no sense of self-importance or dignity (I know I don't count as shit on the scale that decides the value of humanity as a whole), but the thing that pissed me off was how that player expected me to have some fucking problem with him. How they assume they knew me so fucken well, that it would be so difficult for me, or that they would enrage me so. Fucken assholes man.

I RECALL ANOTHER TIME, where this fucker challenged me to a one v one and then said gg to me as if he were teaching me some grand life lesson. It was a fucking one v one, it didn't mean shit whether I won or loss, it had zero definition on my value as a person or a player.

I fucking hate people who assume they're fucking helping me, when all they're actually doing is making themselves look like assholes. Like jesus fucking christ, how can people be so fucking entitled, assuming they know what they don't. It pisses me right off.

Oh, yeah, that game that got me to gold, the one with that twitch. I'm the kind of person that values competition, the kind that would never cheat since that defeats the entire purpose of the match, I have at least the flimsiest sense of honor. So what would you do in that situation? Where you try to play a game for competition, where you try to perform to the best of your ability, but it doesn't matter at all since some entitled fucker could ruin it all just because they're trying to "help" you. Doesn't that defeat the meaning or purpose of it all? Like why play a competitive game if there's no competition; it's just about pleasing some random asshole on the internet. I'd rather be a fucking cam girl (not that I physically could be), at least that way I would get paid for virtually sucking dick.

Man, that's quite gratuitous. I would apologize, but I'm in such a mood that I don't even care.

So I had quit the game for a couple years after I made it to gold. I had lost that competitive fire, knowing that it didn't matter whether I played well or not. And recently I've been trying to get back in. And I keep getting inters (inentional losers) who keep on trying to teach me the lesson of "I need people". I FUCKING KNOW THAT! I JUST DON"T LIKE YOU SPECIFICALLY, YOU FUCKING ENTITLED ASSHOLES WHO ASSUME YOU KNOW WHO THE FUCK I AM OR WHAT I FUCKING BELIEVE!

I mean, I like people as much as the next guy, but if you're annoying, then of course I'm not going to like you, I'm pretty sure everyone else is the same on that regard. I think there was just a gigantic misunderstanding, and some head honcho idiot asshole assumed the worst and spread the word. Now, I'm not saying we should crucify that guy, but let's leave the option open is all I'm saying.

Fuck me, man, I mean, honestly, the nerve of some people. This is why I don't like (some) people. They try to help me, but they don't understand that they're getting in my way. All a bunch of fucking idiots. Oh, but not you of course, you're great.

What was my point? Honestly, I just wanted to vent. And perhaps, maybe, that network of players that are against me will read this and stop inting when they're on my team? Hopefully. I know it's a long shot, but I really fucking want to play that game. I mean, it's not fair, is it? That I shouldn't be allowed to play when everyone else is, right?

And so, I pray to god, or whatever divine being that rules over all of us to please, please get those idiot assholes to stop.

Comments

    1. Silver Snake Oct 7, 2019
      @Naruin It's not the game; it's the people, and they'll never change, no matter how hard I try. They blindly assume I am the one in need of changing, they judge me without even knowing. They call me coward without knowing my reasoning or my desire. They say I need to be punished, to be taught a lesson. They think themselves god. It is not the game I hate; it is the people.

      I don't ignore people because they offend me, I ignore them because they have nothing to offer me. They keep on trying to give me something, they keep on trying to make me happy, they keep on trying to prove themselves to me. They keep on trying to repay my kindness, but I'm not capable of being happy. At least not by someone else. Only I can make myself happy. Only I can obtain what I truly want. The only thing I want is peace, the only thing I want is to do what I want to do. And what I want isn't what they want. They want me, but I'm tired of giving, I'm tired of being kind. I just want to be happy. But what they want isn't what I want. They want me to care about them. But the only thing I want to do is what I want to do.

      I'm not a good person. I don't care about people. I don't want to be kind, I have to be kind. If I had a choice I would be selfish. But this is the only way. Everything is predetermined. They are mistaken for thinking I feel the same as them, for thinking I am kind. I'm only doing what I'm supposed to do, not what I want to do. I hate being kind, it enrages me. I feel like a devil chained to a fence. I would be so much happier if I were evil.
    2. Naruin Oct 7, 2019
      well.. all i noticed in ur blog is how you seem so mad at your shitty teammates though.. and some certain people though.. *headtilts*
      if as you say that the spirit of the game is dead, then shouldnt it be how both ur 'enemies' and ur teammates plays? not just ur teammate?
      and u shud like uhmm.. include a general trend? like "fudge! why cant i find another decent player. everyone now plays as if this game is just a joke or something?
      btw.. i do heard that LoL now pales in comparison to dota.. sry.. *pats you* though im not playing either of those.. (just ml..)

      if u want a competitive match, why not play a new game?
      i kinda understand if LoL have some sentimental values to u but, since it seems like ur just waiting for it to die down, why not have a change of environment so u wont see those people who angers you any more?
      you can just grieve for that game after.. coz i think its better if u retain ur memory of the game when it was still glorious that when its slowly falling from its grace..
      oh well.. if what i said somehow offends you, then im sorry.. just ignore me.. ^^"
    3. Silver Snake Oct 7, 2019
      @Naruin The spirit of the game is dead. It's like if the final grand tournament of a game was fixed. There's no point in playing because people don't care about having fun. Or their version of fun is counter intuitive to the ideal. People don't care about the game. So I shouldn't either. It's like playing pretend instead of actually doing something, the end is predetermined so there's no point in playing. The only thing I can do is hope it stops one day, meaning I can't do anything about it.

      It's not about their skill, it's about what they want. They want what is bad, and I want what is good - a fair, honest match.
      I could be the best player in the world and it would still change nothing; that's my point. It doesn't matter who I am.

      And maybe if it was just one guy, then, yeah, sure, I could fight against it, but it's not just one guy, it's everyone.

      No one cares about what's right; they just care about what they want. The only thing I can do is leave and find a place where I can have what I want without taking away what someone else wants.
    4. Naruin Oct 7, 2019
      i feel you bro.. its irritating and annoying but.. my uncle who can watch pro players train once told me.. to be a good gamer, u need to be calm and patient.. like.. no matter how trashy ur team mates are, dont entirely blame them and easily give up on a match.. u shud still try to cooperate.. or if its not possible, hone ur skills so u alone can bring victory to the whole team or atleast be the team's pillar..
      still, keep playing! *prays for ur luck*