My Favorite Writer Died.

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AliceShiki

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It was around 7pm, I was having a pretty busy day and was about to leave to visit my mom because she had something important to discuss with me... Whatever that was. Just before leaving I decided to give a quick check in discord and found a poke in one of my game servers...
For those of you that don't know, I have played AQ since 2007, in other words, since I was 11... Suffice to say it was a big part of my childhood and also of my adult life.

This was... Honestly a pretty big blow for me, I didn't have much time to think of it before because I was in a hurry, but now that I sat down and gave it some thought... Damn, it hurts, like...

If Eichiro Oda were to die tomorrow, what would come to my head would just be "Ah... Guess I'll never see the end of One Piece, that kinda sucks", this is not how I feel right now.

I had no relationship with Falerin whatsoever, by the time I became active on AQ forums he was no longer active there, and I never joined his own discord server, so my connection with him was entirely through the game... And damn, this still hurts me a lot.

Falerin was not just a writer to me... He was a role model, an inspiration, an idol of sorts. I grew up with his writings and I'm sure I'd have never gotten interested in writing if it wasn't for his influence, even now lots of what I do is still based on what he did...

Falerin wrote the best pantheon I ever heard of and the only one with good and well-crafted internal politics and rules that I have ever seen, and he made that while we saw that only from the perspective of a mortal and made them actively interact with us without taking the spotlight from us... It was just incredible, I really fell in love with his writings, and it still didn't settle down I'm not going to see it again...

It just hurts... He is someone I never talked to nor met, but I just feel sad for him... For him and for his wife, I honestly wish I could offer her some comfort, but I don't really have anything to say to her aside from how much he inspired me and how much I loved what he did... And well, I don't know her contact information either, so it's not like I even can say anything.

It's unsettling... I wanna do something right now, but not only I don't know what, but I can't even do anything... I wish to pay my respects I guess.

Those are some really bad news to receive I guess... I wish it didn't happen, but it's not like I have any control over this sort of thing...

This hit me far more than I would expect when considering it's technically just the death of a stranger... I really don't feel well right now... This sucks.

God hold his soul, I hope he is in a better place now.

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    1. AliceShiki Jul 25, 2019
      @Arcturus I definitely heard about him, but never read anything from him... This kind of thing is always horrible though... T.T
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    2. Arcturus Jul 24, 2019
      Reminds me of when Terry Pratchett died. I was absolutely devastated. He and his writing have meant so much to me over the years. I still get teary-eyed when I think about it.
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    3. AliceShiki Jul 24, 2019
      *hugs @mir-chan* Thanks, I really appreciate it... And the game still has all his content in it, and the forums of the game also have a backup of everything, so it's fine.
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    4. Novela Jul 24, 2019
      I remember playing AQ as a child o.o)
      Though then it got old ....
    5. amilhs Jul 24, 2019
      Wtf! Why did he die? Why not @Clay. tsk!
      I was a fan of AQ when i was just elem. until hs. sad..
      Rest in Peace.
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    6. Dat_Karma Jul 24, 2019
      Rest in Peace
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    7. SummerForest Jul 24, 2019
      *hugs Alice*
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    8. mir Jul 24, 2019
      *pats*
      Even if it's one sided, you do have a connection. You met the person indirectly through their writing. That's how I've always thought of it. It's one sided but still.
      One of my favorite authors is pretty old now, one whose books I grew up reading. I wonder sometimes what will happen when he passes away. I know I'll feel alot of sadness, and feel similar to what you're feeling now. I'm not looking forward to that at all.... :blobsad:
      I hope you feel better soon. And I think the fact you feel this way despite never meeting in person says something about his work, and your feelings being that strong is a form of respect/honor in and of itself. If that makes sense.

      I don't know how that game works, but if there is a possibility of what he wrote being lost somehow, making a copy to keep safe might be something you could do.
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