My last day of being seventeen 24-09-2018

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Cerene

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I wish I forgave myself easily instead of carrying all these frogs around in my satchel as if I know what to do with them. Tomorrow is my first day of being eighteen and there's a well inside me, and sometimes I think the sun (i) am strong enough for it to dry out but the seasons fluctuate, and it feels terrible to wade knee-deep in water. Collectively, I wonder if I've changed. I wonder if I've managed to make a home for myself in myself, or if I've taken the easy way out and settled for a nice mushroom cottage. I'd rather be there than here, and it all gets very unbearable sometimes, like I find half my blanket on the floor in the middle of the night. Like, I think to myself, 'I look so stupid with this bag', like I wake up and wonder if I'll learn how to sew today because that means something more instead of wondering what the point of this home is. nobody said it was easy. Nobody believes in that. The trick is, to learn how to swim. To find your own rhythm. To let your frogs hop from one lily pad to the other. To nurture the ecosystem that lives in you. Today is my last day of being seventeen, and it isn't so extraordinary, but there's still something magical growing inside me. Maybe one day you'll see it too, but I don't need you to.

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    1. Sami11 Jul 19, 2021
      Relatable. In my last hour of being 17, I fapped to a picture of Daisy Duck then proceeded to eat a blueberry (there were no strawberries) cheesecake alone in the middle of the night.
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    2. Cerene Jul 19, 2021
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    3. Cutter Masterson Jul 19, 2021
      Ooh. My sincere apologies. I’ll look forward. In batted breath for the day. Personally I really want to buy you a cake (icon). Lol
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    4. Cerene Jul 19, 2021
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    5. Cutter Masterson Jul 19, 2021
      @Cerene i did see the title, but I also read the bottom too. Which made me confused. Is it September or tomorrow? If it’s tomorrow. I better say happy birthday now, but if I’m wrong. All well. I can just apologize and try to remember to wish you happy birthday then.
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    6. Cerene Jul 19, 2021
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    7. Cutter Masterson Jul 19, 2021
      Some advice. I recommend starting over somewhere faraway. When your done with school. I recommend going to college or getting work at a different city. These words comes sincerely from my heart. I grew up and became a better person when I moved. Being independent has given me so much. The freedom I experienced was amazing. It’s very hard to describe. Also the fear of failing is very detrimental, but the end. I promise you is well worth it. Whatever you decide I’ll be cheering you on.
      Have A Very Happy Birthday Tomorrow!
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