Outside the Box - #7- Barriers and Distance

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Osamaru

『Shem's Best Pal ✧ Lexi's Ani ✧ Hamster's Keeper』, Male
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Have you ever felt like there is a glass wall between you and other? a thin sheet separating your world from theirs? You can see each other, smile and talk. But no matter how hard you try, you can never really touch them?
No matter how thin it gets, it's still there, separating you, keeping you from making that real connection. No matter how you try to desperately break it down, it remains. Then you start to wonder, who was it really that put up the wall? Are they keeping you away, or is it you're just afraid?

I've felt a wall like that, recently. and I don't really know why. Like there is something keeping me away. Maybe it's just me?
I makes me ashamed to admit, but I just can't seem to trust people; even if someone says they are serious, there is always that nagging in the back of my head that says "No, your not as close as you think", "Look how close they are to others", "They'll forget about you If you're gone for anytime, just a blip on life's road".
Even if your head knows different, the heart always doubts.

It's like a poison, that slowly seeps in and twists the things you see and hear. Makes you question every action you do or ever word you say. Thinking to yourself "did it really make a difference?" or was it just blowing hot air and putting on a play? empty thoughts that in the end, will fade from memory.

But, I've learned even if you can't see the end of a valley, it always comes. Maybe it takes some time. Maybe it takes some effort. But it always comes to an end.

So, I'll keep on walking. Because I know if I don't. then the end of the valley won't come. And I don't want to stay where I am now. always doubting, always questioning. Maybe it's foolish to think its as simple as "keep on keeping on", but that's the only thing I know how to do.

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    1. yuzuki Aug 24, 2017
      I realized I liked this a while ago and never commented even though I wanted to then......

      I think my feelings about the glass walls are that different people are different! Some people put up more of a barrier than others, and sometimes it may even be yourself who has that barrier.

      In either case though, I don't think it's very productive to compare your relationship with someone to others. Looks can be deceiving!
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    2. Hotato Aug 22, 2017
      *sigh* everyone have type of barrier they build up around themself..and I admit, I do too. It's more of a protective mechanism in place against mistrust. As for how they willing to put down the barrier or you enter the barrier yourself, you don't know, but still keep trying, little by little, you'll gain the person trust.
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    3. Willheim Aug 22, 2017
      Mmm i kinda can relate to that feeling, but i feel mostly like an observer, they talk about themselves of stuff of their lives but evrything they do seems so distant or i myself feel like that and the i forget what they say or maybe its just not so important in the bck of my head
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    4. SoShy Aug 22, 2017
      For me, I myself am the one who builds up that wall and I'm quite comfortable behind it. Never felt the need to break it apart. I would be really uncomfortable if it was broken because I think it's safe for me to have that. I makes me feel secured. I like that feeling.
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    5. Osamaru Aug 21, 2017
      *pats @Flumya* more just in my head, trying to make strong rope out of tissues paper.
      But nothing to do about it than Keep on walking. Keep on Smiling.
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    6. Flumya Aug 21, 2017
      *sigh* I have a similar experience, but in my case I'm the one who usually builds the walls. I never stayed in the same place for a long time, so it is hard to make connections knowing that I'll most likely never see these people again. But when it's the time, you'll find those people who will genuinely care about you.
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