Popularity vs Proximity

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Nyann

Nyartist, Female

While I am still on my ambition to break through the list of notable members in likes, it doesn't essentially mean that I am one of the most liked members here.

Friendships are weird. When you are a little too close to someone/ some people, you might as well cut ties with the rest of the world. You start seeing them as "they" and yourselves as "us".

Or the other hand, if you try to mingle with a larger circle of people, you feel like there is no one really that "close" to you... That you can share everything with. Or most of the things with.

Popularity? Pretty sure that puts even more pressure on you and burdens you with social expectations, judgement and whatnot...

At least it's how it has been for me.

I was asked today, to name five nuffians I am closest to. Good question. But should have asked me "which nuffian I am closest to" instead. I cannot name five who are "closest" to me in nuf. It's too much. On the other hand I cannot just name five who are fairly "close" to me...

Also... Well... I was told "At least you have me here" in an ocassion where I was iterating some sad story similar to this. Hmm. I do. Thank you...

I don't know if I should bother of not being in anyone's "closest list"... But its kinda... Sad.

An extract from three days of happiness

I opened the letters of classmates who I didn't remember, not even their faces.
I had completely forgotten until just then that at the end of the letter, there was a column that said: "Who's your best friend?"

You can probably guess where this is going, can't you?
There wasn't a single person who put my name there.

So I see, I nodded to myself.
Even in good old elementary school, this was how it was.

But there was at least one good thing.
My childhood friend, while she didn't name me as her "best friend," did mention me in her letter.
Of course, calling that a good thing is pretty sad.
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A pretty tragic novel with a happy ending and I shouldn't be comparing myself with a novel protagonist but it's kinda relatable... If it would have been the case I would have been sad.

As always, I am too serious... Lol. And my words always end up derailing here and there... Sometimes I myself feel like I am just bitching and asking for pity and love from others... In other words... Cringe

Well well~ the end of tonight's rant.

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Nyann Jul 20, 2019

@FourSeasons yup! I did name two nuffians I am closest to!

@AliceShiki yes it's pretty scary. It's easy to be nice and try to befriend all but its not possible to be "close" to them...

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AliceShiki Jul 20, 2019

Yeah... I honestly couldn't answer that question, I left it blank. It's scary to even try to list who are the closest ones... Closest is easy, but 5 closest ones? That's just scary.

And I totally understand that feeling... Interacting with more people doesn't really make you closer to them... And popularity can sometimes just put pressure on you... It's tough.

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FourSeasons Jul 15, 2019

If you are not comfortable with five, then just mention one. Or as many as what makes you happy. Also if they didn't think you're one of the people they are closest to, who cares. They should be proud you have mentioned them. It just means they are rare that they can make you show them your most real side, that you enjoy being with them, everything what you feel towards your most closest person. Lastly, you chose them to be your closest now, bit you can also drift apart from them someday. And that would be their loss.

Haha~ just a boost to yourself

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Femme Fatale Jul 14, 2019

I have tried to strike a real relationship friendshipwise.....unfortunately my definition if friendship includes trust, honesty and responsibility and most people these days online are everything but. So I've given up. It's okay cuz I have my rl family and friends that stick with me through thick and thin. Life is too short for fake or incomplete friendships. I come here for fun and to let off some steam, seems to be what most people do here so....╮(‵▽′)╭

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Azleyza Jul 13, 2019

I would love to be close with someone in nuf.. but I still try to get to know others so I can't say which one Im close to.. hopefully I could be close to everyone but thats just impossible right??

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orematcha Jul 13, 2019

The saddest part for me would be, that one closest nuffian for me is now not here... while feeling I was close to her, in the end of the day it was easy to part.

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Nyann Jul 13, 2019

@Everlasting Spring perhaps...
Everlasting Spring Jul 13, 2019

A person who tries to make everyone happy,
they often ends up being the loneliest. ♫

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