RAGNAROK X

I am playing Ragnarok X: Next Generation and have a merchant class. At this time 1:37 in the afternoon I am regretting that I chose merchant class for my greed of earning money in game lmao. I'm at level 42 now and my loadouts are not that awesome where my Hp is low and can't be a tank or fighter that my Str is below wizard I can't even kill on Mvp or Mini's event and have a weak weapon. As I go around the the world all I can see is the players with a beautiful costume, rare equipments, what was ridiculous was some of them are lot of levels below me but already have rare equipmnts. I can't top up on games because it cost a lot of money but now I am thinking of buying Vip cards on it so that my strength will boost too lol

I am just a little sad because I don't have a party to play with for farming and quests. My guild members already formed a party to do those things and I am excluded lol maybe because I am not that strong haha well whatver