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Emmyy

Kadupul flower* blooms at midnight*dies at dawn, Female
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This blog place seems cool.. I just want to throw some thoughts out into the universe.. How life is so crazy..and happiness seems elusive. .
My friends are hipsters..braniacs.. outdoorsy people. .my roommate is my polar opposite but we have a strange connection..her idea of a good day is retail therapy..mine is roaming the woods or sitting in the sun reading a book.. Everyone is looking for something.. searching..searching..searching..
My roommate is picture perfect but so sad on the inside always trying to fill that void in herself with things.. and more things. Always posting on social media.. where she is, who she is with, what she is wearing,what she's eating.. which is fine if you are happy..but its like she is still always trying to fill that void...
searching.. searching.. searching..
I'm no different I'm looking for something also. I get tired of the pressure I let people put on me, to be smart, pretty, successful, always juggling this and that until I can't catch anything...so I love to ignore it all and laugh..read..escape reality for awhile ignoring it all but that doesn't make it go away.. just psssss everyone off...
I have been having fun on NUF because nobody cares what I say, what I'm wearing, where I'm going, who I'm with...what I think.. what am going to do with my life.. .questions.. questions.. questions..
I like the fact no one will probably read this.. Haha
Student/part time worker 3 jobs.. Research asst.. low pay/ really interesting
Pottery Studio/ low pay/love it
Server/Upscale Restaurant/Great $/HATE
Im like a character in a Kdrama student/partimer/ just need a track suit and a bottle of Soju..
Today was bad in the most ridiculous way.. I felt like s**t cause I had too much fun last night.. but crawled to the upscale restaurant I work at with a smile.. for good tips smile a must..Worked til 3 told hostess I was taking a break.. Usually I will do HW but today I was beat..
Soooo I told her call me on my phone or come get me if you need me..its our really slow time.. Post
Go to the back part of restaurant separated from main area.. decide to lay down in booth.. even pull up a chair for my feet..still not comfortable,take my apron off for a pillow..put in headphones feeling comfy..AHH.. I wake up to the sound of voices and shuffling feet. . Open my eyes to see 8 finely dressed stuffy stiffs staring at me.. laying in the booth like a homeless person.. No words..
I casually kick away the chair my feet were on, stand up,take headphones out. pick up my apron.. and say Hi..can I help you folks..
Did they not see the sign PLEASE WAIT TO BE SEATED.. Where the F**k was the hostess..
I say plz wait I will be right back...
They literally walked the length of the place w/ no one noticing them?
The hostess response:Sorry I didn't see them..ERRRR.. No words..
Needless to say if my Boss gets wind of it I'm f****d.. He's not there on Sunday.. . Stuffy stiffs are the worst..
There goes my moneymaker... I'll be
searching.. searching.. searching for a job

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    1. AliceShiki Mar 19, 2018
      @Emmyy You shouldn't worry too much about this kind of thing.

      Some blogs are more introspective, others are less.

      Some are more personal, others are about more specific things.

      Some are random, others are not... Really, you don't need to worry about it.

      If people give you high ratings, it's because they enjoyed what you wrote! \(^^)/
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    2. Emmyy Mar 19, 2018
      I appreciate the stars.. but I really feel underserving.. I haven't had time to read but a couple and they were amazing.Especially it seems w blogs people are putting their heart out there bare and natural for the Universe to view.. deserves full stars for that alone
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    3. AliceShiki Mar 19, 2018
      I read it I do!!! \(^^)/

      NUF is really nice, isn't it? An anonymous community has a charm no RL one can replicate~ :love::love::love:

      It seems like you have it rough though! Don't give up and keep fighting! Things will definitely get better! Sooner or later they will!
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    4. Clozdark Mar 19, 2018
      At least throwing all the thoughts that clouded your mind help to reduce the pain this is what I believe.
      Ahh and also when you mention a bottle of soju,i want to drink it whenever I remember it.
      the last part... is quite interesting annoying experience
      Good luck (ノ・ω・) /
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