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This is the first time I am writing something like this online, but I feel like at least someone is listening if I say it here.

Tomorrow another person that is very close to me is leaving. For me it’s nothing new now. I mean except for close friends and some related people there aren’t that many people who are close to me.but those ‘close friends’ all ended up leaving me. I always thought that they won’t leave forever and we would still stay in touch.

Later I found out the some of them only pretended to be friends with me and talked behind my back and the others completely ignored and forgot about me. I wonder if that’s just normal or am I annoying and they don’t like my personality? It makes me think that something is wrong with me and so the people close to me or people that I think are close in the end up leaving me or talking behind my back. I practically think about this every night before I sleep, I don’t really have anyone that I can tell all of this to so if always stays in my head and I can’t really get over it.

The reason I don’t have anyone to talk about all this stufff is because I don’t have any close friends that I can actually talk to about this and my parents and I only got close just recently. They were always busy with work so we were pretty distant, just recently we talked and started actually knowing each other. But it isn’t to the point were I can tell them all of this.

Anyway sorry this kind of turned into a rant but it feels good to get at least some of it off.

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    1. Clozdark Jan 16, 2019
      " Well you need a blue sky holiday
      The point is they laugh at what you say
      And I don't need no carrying on "
      Daniel Powter - Bad Day
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    2. Bad Storm Jan 15, 2019
      It's not right to blame yourself for others' misgivings. If they like talking behind people's back repeatedly, then there's something wrong with them. IMO they're shitty for doing that.

      As for true friends. It might be hard to find them, but when you do, it's totally worth it. So don't be so pessimistic about relationships with people.

      Lastly, if you were to change yourself, don't just do it because of other people; first and foremost, do it for yourself. To be the person you wanted to be.

      I wish you luck. Maybe 2019 is the charm xD
      *gives a cookie for luck*