Some What ifs

If only I were able to be reborn,
I'd be myself just one more time.
To try to live without making any mistakes nor regrets.
But would that still be really me?
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This is the first song I listened from Amazarashi which made me a big fan of him. It has another title, Tarareba. Another old song and I couldn't believe it has been almost 4 years since then.

Back then when I listened to this song, I was attracted to its intro. Just like what's written in the title of this blog, the song started from what ifs.

Basically, I was attracted to 'desires'. *giggles*

But this desire is not like indulging to entertainment. Instead, Amazarashi talked about desires that can prove one's significance as an individual. He started from wanting to be talented, to a king, to a kind-hearted man, to a confident speaker, to a doctor, and then to a god.

It's just a song about desire to change. And it hit me deep. I thought it was just about useless what ifs. To make me think of my wishes and the things I cannot do.

And it's funny. When I was listening to this song for the very first time, I didn't think that much. And I was only indulging on my own pain after listening to it. I didn't realize that what I felt back then was just a feeling of wanting to change myself.

Anyways, I thought that the reason why I cried before was purely because of helplessness and worthlessness. And that, I should try again to become a better person. That's it. *shrugs* which utterly failed btw. lol

I just never have thought all this time, what Amazarashi wanted to say is that, without mistakes, there are no desire to change, and there's no such thing as 'me' who tries to work hard 'till this day.

And now listening to it again, it's still the same. I still cried.

And thought of the piled up work that I need to do. ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ‸இﾟ)ﾟ｡

*sniffs*

Anyways, I just like to share my love for Amazarashi. His songs are usually criticized as pessimistic. But if they just listened to it more and till the end, it isn't like that at all, bastards. 눈_눈

*coughs*

Here's the link. There's already an English subtitle for it. I suggest for you to try. It's really such a nice song. c:



Btw, do you have any what ifs like what Amazarashi just said?

If it's me... I'd only like to be competent in my future profession and just earn some money to spend for my bois in 2D. lol

Such a satisfying life indeed. *nods*

-Eru101