Talking to Myself

It's a bit of a weird feeling when you talk and nobody replies, feels like I'm just talking to myself at those points... I tend to get a bit reflexive when things go like that.

I feel like this is happening pretty often on LCDs for example, maybe it's because I just read a lot of unpopular novels, but I can't help feeling a bit lonely when I see a quintuple post of mine... Simply because nobody replied to my last 5 ones.

At the same time, it's fun to put my own thoughts on the novel, to reflect on what is happening and getting curious on what will happen next... It's particularly interesting with a novel like Majo no Tabitabi, as there isn't much one can expect on an episodic series like that one... But this is what makes it so interesting to reflect on it I guess, as one can't really know what will happen next.


Well, I didn't make this blog post just to advertise a series I like and to rant about lack of activity on LCDs though, I was more thinking about talking to myself in general.

I mean, I don't usually talk to myself, but I end up lost in thought a lot... Like, there are some days I spent some good 20h on bed, simply because I kept on losing myself in thought, wanting to stay there, thinking about random things... Creating things.

On that note, creating a story is a big exercize of talking to yourself.

I mean, there is only you there. No matter how different from you each character is, they are all a part of you, they are all "you" in a different way... And as they interact, you are actually interacting with yourself... It's a weird feeling, but by no means a bad one.

I just wonder at times... Should I really just keep on talking to myself? Is it okay like this?

I like it, I like having this time for myself, it's pretty good for me... But it feels like such a wasted time. "I could have translated", "I could have prepared a new thing for AG", "I could have written something", thoughts like those keep on fluttering through my mind, wasted time is one of the things that annoy me the most, because I really like to make myself useful.

But... Well, is it really useless? I mean, I enjoyed this time, didn't I? So isn't it alright?

I get these conflicts, and I don't really have an answer... But well, I think I don't need one. I just want to spend this time in a way I enjoy... Rather I wish to enjoy each day somehow, but I also need to do what is necessary to enjoy my future days, so I need to find a balance between it all.


Hmmmmmmm... I feel like I barely talked about talking to myself and ended up becoming really phylosophical about some really pointless stuff... But well, is there something to be said about talking to myself in the first place?

I think it's a nice experience that everyone should have every now and then though, even if it is a huge waste of time... Just stay there, in the bed, with you and yourself only, thinking about things, anything, whatever you want... Talk to yourself, you don't need to say a single word, but enjoy your time with you and you only. Maybe you'll find something that can help you... Or maybe not, maybe I'm just spouting some bunch of nonsense, hard to tell.

I don't know what I wanted with this blog post... But again, I rarely do.

I guess I just wanted to talk about something, and talking is what I did~