There I was, all alone,
Living life without a care,
Without anyone to depend on,
Without anyone to trust.
No one wanted to talk to me,
Everyone busy with their own things,
No one seeing the pain I was in,
The burden I was under.
Then you came along,
Carrying your own burdens,
Having more experience than me,
Given up on depending on others.
Moving to this new place,
Far away from our past,
Although for limited time,
We arrived in search of freedom.
We had never talked before,
Though seen each other through the screen,
Never tried to know the other,
We met here.
Spending our nights on those walks,
On those long midnight talks,
We tried to know each other,
We tried to help each other,
Unknowingly I started to depend on you,
without seeing if you felt the same.
Unknowingly I tried to help you open up,
without asking if you desired to.
Somewhere along the way,
I mangled what we had,
Maybe I was in the wrong,
Maybe it was dissension.
We didn't talk for some time,
mainly due to your disregard
of my existence as a whole,
without me in the know of it.
Although I tried to elucidate,
Maybe it was ill-timed,
Cause you were still peeved,
It did not go through.
I closed up,
I fell down,
I felt lonely,
I felt.
I had forgotten this feeling,
I had forgotten that people leave,
I had forgotten that people hurt,
I had forgotten.
I am flawed,
unable to lose the people I trust,
unable to forget people valued by me,
people who once valued me.
I'll wait,
I'll try again,
from the beginning,
to be someone.
I had forgotten,
Why I had no one,
why I muted myself,
from myself, from the world.
Thank you,
for reminding me,
of the feeling,
of the pain.
Thank you.