Therapist K #3

Q. Can that be considered a failure _____ ?
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: Win and lose ; these two are the results of a competition but what happens when you experience it for the first time in your life?

Win; Rejoice , proud , able.
Lose?

Today we be talking about one such experience...
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That night I saw her breaking down....
Slept for barely 3 hours, she sat up dragging her half-dead body. Wrapping herself with a blanket , making herself believe that she can do it, yet.....she broke down again, tears non-stop coming out from her dark-circled eyes of exhaustion.

Even the people surrounding her couldn't saw her breaking down...making sure she was not seen in this state..being desperate she called her dear ones but cut the calls mid line thinking her situation....they will be worried.

Lastly, out of frustration and exhaustion, she broke down infront of her friends...crying, hugging them. Atleast she was not alone anymore.

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Let's introduce K about her experience~

∅ What actually happened K?

» It was actually the day of my exam....I went prepared....I really went prepared but but....I went infront of my teacher, we all went like a group of 5 altogether...the start was good idk what happened middle-hand my went blank...I went just freaking blank!
The teacher was asking me questions but everytime I tried to open my mouth, nonsense was all it came....
I failed....I failed....she told me I failed, I was dumb...why did I not answered it correctly even after knowing the correct answer???? Am I not dumb...after coming out from the teacher's room, everyone of one came asking what happened to me? Why didn't I answered it correctly...they didn't even believed me that I actually got scolded and got a fail!


∅ How were you feeling?

» ......empty tbh I didn't felt anything...I got numb of what I had done inside...

∅ You mentioned you were given a chance to mend your mistakes?

» She gave me the on the next day to prepare well for the exam again...


∅ Then why were you upset?

» I was an average student from the start, never had I ever failed any taste except the number I had during my 12th grade but it was on mathematics that also it was my substitution.
So the "scenario" inside did gave me a big push...
All what I wanted ever was a position among the top third on the lists....to make them proud...


∅ You have never gotten a fail?

» yes...

∅ What happened after that?

» Its quiet embarrassing to say....I cried infront of my seniors and friends later that day in the evening...
Luckily they consoled me, even tho it made quiet a lot of time for me to get back myself stable...
It's fine to have people supporting you and understanding you besides ownself.


∅ How do you feel now?

» Considering how it was the first time I had such experience, it quiet had an effect on me...
I got traumatized of the teacher tbh...now to think about it now...it's quiet funny...

The pressure I gave myself to do the utter best...it got cracked that day...


∅ You mentioned one interaction you found funny even during that dire situation?


» .....oh....
So the conversation of me and my friends went like...

I went running through the stairs to the fourth floor , the room they usually study...
I knocked on their door while crying—

K:- *crying* You guys....why do you guys live so far from me....even while crying I had to go through these set of stairs...

Them:- *speechless* You— pfffffttttttt hahahaha


....and then they started laughing ;(


∅ Pfffftttt— ahem Anything you learnt from this lesson?

» life is all about experiences, we gotta face both bad and good situations, that's how you grow up.
Crying is fine but breaking down to the extend where you can't stand up....never!

Luckily, I had enough people surrounding me to extend their hand towards me....
I am quiet thankful to them... sincerely.

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♪ Thanks to K for sharing her story with us.

As said by K, life is all about those up and downs , we will stumble upon those obstacles one by one , we will fall, have some scars but the one who still continues to move forward is the real winner of life. Did you got it, dear readers?

Never ever think one failure, one mistake is the end of everything. It's a proof you worked hard, you grew and molded yourself to who you are today. A better person today and much more better tomorrow! *Nods*
Mmh~ I am proud of you <333


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*Behind the scenes*


Esha:- Nah that's funny! Ahahahahha how come you walked all the way crying at their door ahahahahhaa..... *Wheezing*

K:- ......stop it....I just wanted to lighten up the situation... People rarely saw me crying okay? I was freaking depressed...

Esha:- What did others told you when they saw you crying?

K:- For fucksake! Just because I don't express my sadness , disapproval that people think it's impossible for me to cry... Like fuck you! I am a human too! Do you fucking even know what I feel behind the closed doors? You fucking only saw what I let you fucking allow you to.....

Esha:- *nods* I don't like those type of people.
Great minds think alike don't you think? *Wiggles eyebrows*

K:- .......shut— *cuts off K*

Alright thanks to K again for letting us have the honor to hear her out~
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Dear readers, you are doing great!


Regards,
esha 2022~