To Say, Or Not To Say

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Just yesterday we were having a discussion about online crushes and today @Nyan sempai has even posted a blog warning others of the inevitable and bitter heartbreak associated with it. What she says are true and come from her personal experience, so in a sense, they are wise thoughts.
But I'll say, why not? Must we always try to weigh what we can achieve from being close to another mind and sharing some space together?
I know most of you here will denounce me for advocating fickle, not-so-serious relationships, but honestly, that's not my intention at all. To me, it's important to create memories, bittersweet and cherishable, and what is more memorable than the joy and melancholy of love?
To love someone is a journey towards my own inner world. It's not a means to reach anywhere, it's an end in itself.
No love exists forever. Separation is inevitable at some point of life, be it in death or in this life itself. Still, it's cherishable, like gathering the petals of fallen grapefruit blossoms in the dawn. We know they are already drooping, yet we gather their fleeting fragrance in our palms.
It's like sitting together and looking in awe at the fireworks that light up the sky, rejoicing in their dazzling beauty, even though we know that in a moment the darkness will surge back again.
To admit that you have a crush on someone, be it online or irl, is always like a gamble. You may be accepted, or turned down. Even if you are accepted, it may not work out well. That doesn't mean that we shouldn't try, at least. After all, it's better to try and fail, than not ever trying at all.

P.S. @Lonelycity, surprisingly it turned out to be my answer to your profile post from long ago :D

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    1. Nyann Jul 7, 2019
    2. Phaeous Jul 7, 2019
      There is nothing craven, no evil in seeking joy of any form, any stuff, any quality. What's evil is to proclaim pleasure & desire as shameful, depraved. Each is responsible for their own seeking.
    3. Lonelycity Jul 7, 2019
      This convo and the subsequent discussions aren’t something I am ready for even now~~

      But hmm @Nyan sempai I like your embarrassing honesty, while I shut my eyes and grimace at the sheer cringe factor, I still agree with you.....


      @AliceShiki Wisely said ^_^
      I want to add my two cents to what you said but I fear I’ll have to open up for the same~~~
      And I’ll pass on it XD
    4. UnGrave Jul 7, 2019
      @Nyan sempai Interesting... I suppose I'm likely being hampered in my understanding of these things by my lack of seriousness in any relationship I've had with anyone. I'll just just consider it to be communication between two people who acknowledge romantic interest in the other party, regardless of whether it's possible to progress further. Hopefully I can still come to understand it one of these days if I ever have feelings for another person. For now, I'll just accept my lack of understanding and move on...
    5. AliceShiki Jul 7, 2019
      @UnGrave Well, the fact that you see each other romantically I guess? I mean... I don't play on taking a plane and travel to another country to see if I can live a life with a friend, nor do I wish to meet their parents... I don't make sure to talk to my friends every single day even if we're 12h apart in timezones... And I don't have cybersex with them either I guess~ *giggles*

      Honestly though, it's more about feelings than anything else... If I feel in love and if I want to be in a relationship, then it's not the same as a friendship, that's for sure~


      @Nyan sempai Well, parents have their worries and it's understandable, mine felt the same about my first boyfriend, it was pretty angering to say the least. But by the time I told them about it, the relationship was already over anyways... >.>

      Still, they just wish for your best at the end of the day... Even if they're complete idiots that can't trust you to judge a person you have talked for months or years already, even if they can't understand the obvious fact that if the person is actually pushing you away, they obviously have no ill intentions towards you, otherwise they'd be luring you in instead... Even then, they still are just worried about you.

      The hard part is making them understand they're totally mistaken though... I lost count of how many fights I had with my parents because of how attached I was to people I know online only, it made me go crazy... And them too.

      I actually felt the same as the person you liked tbh... But I had less willpower than they did. I was into an online relationship once and had no intention of falling again... Yet I was pursued, and couldn't say a decisive no, so... Ended up entering another, which was great, but hurt me a lot when it ended.

      Even now, if anyone else ends up trying to get close to me, I'm pretty sure I'll push them away because I don't want another online relationship... But if I fall in love again, I'll probably embrace them anyways.

      I dunno what to tell you, I just wish you the best I guess? Make sure to take care of yourself and prioritize yourself first and foremost~
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    6. Nyann Jul 7, 2019
      @UnGrave difference?

      Can you flirt with your friend? Can you blush at their remark? Do you start taking love songs in depth? Do you get turned on when it gets suggestive? Do you feel like meeting them one day, marrying them and having a family with them? Do you get jealous at the thought of them liking someone else? Maybe yeah... Cause you won't want your friend to get stolen either... (Personal experience)
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    7. Nyann Jul 7, 2019
      @AliceShiki even though I wasn't on a relationship at one point I started sharing everything to that person. What I am doing, what I had done, what I want to do, how do I feel, what is my country and culture like, what is family like. For some reason it felt like there was so much I wanted to let him know, and know about him, and that he was the one who knew me the most...

      Though he was careful of not revealing himself too much to me as he didn't want to lead me on... But he came to comfort me on my every insecurity and listened to my every word. He didn't hate me, he liked me, platonically...

      But after I gave up on him he started doing so on his part as well... As a friend. I came to know he had been concealing his feelings. Regardless, I think it's dangerous if we keep on getting closer...

      Also my parents are strictly against him. They fear if he is someone dangerous and want me to "stay away" not talk to him... Not give him any "information"
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    8. UnGrave Jul 7, 2019
      @AliceShiki so here's what confuses me the most about the whole thing. What's the difference between that, and just being good friends?