To ship or not to ship?

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I am a lot more casual about shipping BL and GL ships in NUF with those who are straight. Reason? It's unlikely they will get serious.

But there are some ships that I actually do want to ship in here. I just find them cute.

So... Yes. I was not even in an online ship. But tbh the reaction against my "love" was so bad by the fact that it was online, that I even am on the point of regretting it.

But ofc, I am still depended on my parents, it could have been a different case if I was an adult and self dependent. But then, my mom said never in my life to chase that person again no matter how old and well to do I am... Ok fine mom. *Gives up*

He was in a online ship before as well. But it didn't work out. That's why he didn't want to be in another one anymore. I kinda wished his earlier ship didn't exist, and he said yes to me, so that I had a little moment of joy instead of just crying and crying and crying like a bitch. Oh well... But falling for him was sweet and joyful at the same time painful nontheless.

But then I realized it's not about that. Even if he said yes, still then my parents would have disagreed to it, and maybe taken even more violent steps. It would have got broken. And he would have been left heartbroken again. And my life would have become hell. Reality is always harsh no matter what, he knew that, and he turned me down. Well... When your life is sailing smoothly, you won't want a storm right?

That's why... I am sorry. But it will most likely not work out for you either, unless you live close enough for a meet up RL. I probably should stop shipping users in nuf seriously. But then I don't want to dishearten them either. But it is unlikely that it will work out... Don't get your hopes too high like me. It will only hurt like a bitch. Crushes in nuf? Stay away from them. Look at them from far away. Don't get close to them. Don't fall in love so much that it hurts.

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    1. in_awe Jul 7, 2019
      Hehe, I have almost no emotions
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    2. Nyann Jul 7, 2019
      @Osamaru when you're "high in love" all your "reasons" get down in the dust. I had those kinda deep beliefs about it as well but then *shrug*

      Well I gave up though.
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    3. Osamaru Jul 7, 2019
      @AliceShiki orz... That's an understatement, at least you've had bites XD BWHAHAHAHA!
      In all seriousness though, well said.

      @Nyan sempai All in all, When it comes down to things like this, what you have to remember is that Its not something you'll learn all at once. I don't want to sound rude, but you're not "an adult" just because you're 18. What I mean by that is You'll Still keep learning even years from now, you'll slowly come to understand not only what real Love is, but what you actually want out of that love. Its not something that can be rushed.
      Some people like to compare Love to a Firework or flame, suddenly and unexpectedly appearing, then slowly fading over time. I say its more like a Temple. Something you build up, brick by brick, over time, until you've created something Beautiful and lasting.
    4. susanty.smile Jul 7, 2019
      @Nyan sempai i don't know if i had feel strongly like you or not...but internet crushes are heart wrecking. i prefer being the one who chase tbh, so the fact that we didn't even live in the same country was already a no go for me...so i never give hope for this crushes.

      my situation is also the same as yours, as in still depended on my parents....well..actually, still live with my parents, so their rules still apply to me no matter how old i am...therefore, chasing a crush from diff country is not only difficult but also near impossible.

      i'm a bit of a introvert, as in i like to stay at home. this is why i never have boyfriends (only have 1 so far...already ended). with the purpose of marriage, looking for a partner in life is best to start with friends or acquaintances...
      therefore, the need to go out and making friends are strongly recommend....

      with that thought, last year i joined my church community, well...i'm not in college anymore...so if church's it is...
      i don't know if i could find my marriageable partner here...but at least it got me off with internet crushes
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    5. AliceShiki Jul 7, 2019
      *hugs Nyan-chan* Yeah... It's a pretty harsh situation to be in... Ganbatte though! Things will definitely get better for you! >.<
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    6. Nyann Jul 7, 2019
      @AliceShiki I was least interested in romance in general... I didn't search for him, I just found him...
    7. AliceShiki Jul 7, 2019
      Well, IMO, it's fine to fall in love and let yourself fall in love, like... Really, it's not a lie when I say the time I was in my last relationship was the best time in my life, I really felt like so.

      At the same time, the pain of breaking up hurt me lots and it took me months to recover... Or rather, I'm still recovering, and it's been over 1/2 an year since it ended. A broken heart is not easy to fix... Honestly, if they asked me out again even now I'd definitely say yes on the spot, that's how much it mattered for me.

      What I would advise against though, is searching for love online... It's too hard, too harsh, and you'll probably have a better time meeting someone offline...
      But if you do find love online though, not search; find, I think it's okay to let yourself fall in love... Regardless of what happens afterwards, love is a wonderful feeling and you'll probably enjoy your time together... Well, there is always the possibility of rejection though, and it's chance is a lot higher than the chances of success tbh.

      Still, whoever said that there is plenty of fish in the sea is an idiot, if there was plenty of fish in the sea for me out there, I'd be married and with children by now, because I totally wanted to be like that already. Don't be afraid to latch upon someone you fell in love with if you found them.

      That's how I feel on the matter at least~
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    8. Femme Fatale Jul 7, 2019
      @Nyan sempai that is a natural response to your experience. Just focus on living life and new adventures.
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