Why am I still such an insecure person?
Why do I need to think thoughts like "I should be befriending those who come after me not those whom I go after"??? Why can't I just simply make a profile post without thinking ulterior things?
How do I ask someone "Am I a friend to you?" "Did you miss me?" The answer is more likely to be positive regardless of the truth. Because you wouldn't want to break my expectations, because you will just go with the flow. I have been told "I missed you Nyan" by some peeps several times, but I wondered if they were just empty words or meaningful... Well yes, I do choose to believe some are while some are not. But am I believing in the words which is not meant actually? Sometimes I just wish it wasn't just me... And there are times I do feel it isn't just me but... It's so confusing... I feel the need to talk but I can't... Also it's better if I don't overthink things again. And just take it lightly...
This is ofc another talk to self...