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meow ? >.> Nov 20, 2017 at 4:04 PM

    1. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      meow ? >.>
      1. Kurono and Shem like this.
      2. Kurono
        Kurono
        <.<
        Nov 20, 2017 at 4:14 PM
    2. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      breakfast: ice cream lunch: cake dinner: cake
      1. Shem likes this.
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      3. Matsurika
        Matsurika
        That's worse!
        Nov 14, 2017
      4. Matsurika
        Matsurika
        Hmm make steamed vegetables? It's light~
        Nov 14, 2017
      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        ..... will go nag my cousin.
        Nov 14, 2017
        Matsurika likes this.
    3. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I've come to realize that I use my DISQUS to roast fictional characters .... is this the peak of my adult life ? is this it ?
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        not weak. pale. it is the operative word. please use it properly.

        the world is hot. it's hot. i'd rather sit in my office and read reddit threads abt korean beauty products
        Nov 14, 2017
      3. asriu
        asriu
        ╮(╯▽╰)╭
        get out and stay on library!
        Nov 14, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        .... i curse when i read..... like loudly.... in a strange accent
        Nov 14, 2017
    4. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      LET'S TALK, ANYONE ~
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      3. L4
        L4
        I am shy, why you screaming?
        Nov 9, 2017
      4. Ale Cole
        Ale Cole
        :3 I didn't notice that comment somehow :v and then that's a nice coffee desu~
        Nov 9, 2017
      5. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        \o\ Hey!
        Nov 13, 2017
    5. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      SONGS YOU NEED TO CHECK OUT
      1. Osamaru, Pyoo and Lovely like this.
      2. lavender_drop
        Nov 8, 2017
        nomadgigio and Lovely like this.
      3. lavender_drop
        Nov 8, 2017
        Lovely likes this.
    6. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      WHO HAS TWITTER ??
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      2. nomadgigio
        nomadgigio
        yes. iirc it was blown yesterday
        Nov 8, 2017
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        seriously ~ ??? damn ~
        Nov 8, 2017
      4. nomadgigio
    7. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Today, I lost one of the most glorious things I have ever had. My ceramic water bottle has a long crack and it breaks my heart. RIP my bebe.
      1. JackStone
        JackStone
        Amen
        Nov 8, 2017
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      2. Anon2.0
        Anon2.0
        R.I.P.
        Nov 8, 2017
        lavender_drop likes this.
    8. Pyoo
      Pyoo
      *hugs*
      1. lavender_drop likes this.
      2. Matsurika
        Matsurika
        *rolls*
        Nov 7, 2017
        Lovely likes this.
      3. lavender_drop
        Nov 8, 2017
        Pyoo likes this.
    9. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Guys, guys, no need to worry. 1. I am alive 2. I am well 3. I am just busy af
      1. Osamaru, yuzuki, GonZ555 and 2 others like this.
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      3. Katsono
        Katsono
        You shared it with me
        Nov 3, 2017
      4. Lily Ouryuu
        Lily Ouryuu
        I didn't...
        Nov 3, 2017
      5. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        Nov 8, 2017
    10. Lovely
      Lovely
      *hugs tight*
      *and share love* \o/
      1. lavender_drop and Osamaru like this.
      2. Osamaru
        Oct 27, 2017
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      3. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        *worried*
        Nov 2, 2017
        Lovely likes this.
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *huggles*
        Nov 8, 2017
        Osamaru and Lovely like this.
    11. Osamaru
      Osamaru
      *rolls in and pats @lavender_drop*
      三( ε: )三(.ω.)三( :3 )三('ω')三( ε: )
      Coming into check how you are. Not seen you are Acci around for awhile. Still busy?
      1. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        life is suffereing.
        Oct 22, 2017
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      2. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        ? Really busy?
        Oct 22, 2017
      3. Osamaru
        Oct 22, 2017
    12. Osamaru
      Osamaru
      1. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        Busy and tired.
        Oct 10, 2017
        Osamaru and Accidentally like this.
      2. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        Everyone seems so busy recently *pats* Well I'm cheering you on Lav, keep up the good work, but be sure to get some rest as well. Don't push yourself so hard you burn out, and come back to play soon!

        We'll be waiting for you! \( ̄▽ ̄)/
        Oct 11, 2017
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      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *pray*
        Oct 12, 2017
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    13. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      buried in paper again ~ i hope i find the paper for tomorrow's meeting ~orz ~
      1. Osamaru and Accidentally like this.
      2. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        *hugs*
        Oct 9, 2017
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    14. Osamaru
      Osamaru
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      2. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        orz.... that's not good? how'd you do that? make sure to stay off it for while. My sister would always try and "walk it off" till it swelled to the size of a grapefruit.
        Oct 7, 2017
      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        oh, heels and stairs and a faulty elevator. I am currently being pampered. that is enough.
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. Osamaru
        Osamaru
        Hehehe, nothing wrong with being pampered. Enjoy it! and I'm praying for your quick recovery. ( ( ̄▽ ̄)☕ unless you want to milk it at long as you can, hohohohoho *sips tea)
        Oct 7, 2017
    15. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Yes, I'm a raging beast.
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      2. Shem
        Shem
        Pautang ina~
        Balitang ina
        Oct 7, 2017
      3. Shem
        Shem
        Ever watched bubble gang? That segment is funny as heck
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        i haven't watched that since i was 7 ? my mom likes banana sunday sundae ... idk... ?
        Oct 7, 2017
    16. Skullie
      Skullie
      QAQ You okay Lav??
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      2. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        there is no returning home. i will get pissed drunk in a hotel room. don't worry i never really like drugs.
        Oct 7, 2017
      3. Skullie
        Skullie
        *stare*
        Take care of yourself.......
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. Osamaru
        Oct 7, 2017
    17. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      A ten year old taught me three things my mother never taught me at her age. I'm grateful.
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      3. Hallow Cause
        Hallow Cause
        xD
        Honestly, I'm shit a Tagalog.
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. Hallow Cause
        Hallow Cause
        Cebuano, Waray, Tagalog, and English... So I guess I technically know 4 languages???
        Oct 7, 2017
      5. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        I understand Cebuano, my nanay was Waray so I can speak that, my cousin is teaching me Tagalog rn and I speak English.
        Oct 7, 2017
    18. Accidentally
      Accidentally
      My motto is "enjoy every little things" you know?
    19. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      Today is probably the longest I can be online for a while. I'll be taking care of a 3 month long charity event. Take care, guys ~
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      3. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        Don't overthink it. I just got used to nuf weird pervert.

        Spend times with them for like 2 or 3 months.
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. Nargol
        Nargol
        @Accidentally hey, you know what they say; abstinence is the greatest perversion of them all

        better to be perverted in the open than secretly fucked up I think
        Oct 7, 2017
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      5. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        ^

        Ah. My bestie!
        Oct 7, 2017
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    20. lavender_drop
      lavender_drop
      I'm struggling to concentrate when there are so many videos of corgis online ~hai ~
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      3. lavender_drop
        lavender_drop
        *kisses cheek* hehe ~
        Oct 7, 2017
      4. Accidentally
        Accidentally
        >\\\<

        *kisses back*
        Oct 7, 2017
      5. Twilight Fox
        Twilight Fox
        *Pushes them both into a Love Hotel*
        I wanna see a kid I can corrupt by tomorrow OK!
        Oct 7, 2017
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    " I was blessed to have known your gentle hands
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    If I had a house of my own it would smell like lavender
    There'd be a soft undertone of chamomile
    And it'd always sound of jazz
    Armstrong and Chet Baker
    A little Coltrane and Kenny G on his sax
    It'd be filled with books and paper
    It'd be filled with ideas and hope
    It'd be a place where failure just means renewal
    And all possibilities are welcome
    I think it's hard to imagine the things that I wish it would be without drawing you a picture
    So, I'll tell you everything it isn't
    It isn't alive with the sound of anger nor the sound of despondency
    It isn't writhing in silent agony
    It isn't dead with regret
    There are no broken plates on the floor
    No broken vases
    No thrown flowers
    My house may be of paper and ink but it will be my home
    My house shelters me from the billowing wails of my own fear
    Not enough, it cries from outside my doors
    Not enough
    You are not enough
    You are not worthy
    Failure
    Failure
    Failure
    Useless
    Useless
    My house will block out the noise
    My house will be firm and stand tall
    It may not completely block out the rain but it will be warm
    It will be safe
    It will be home
    Some may ask where I plan to build it
    I have the blueprint right here
    In every crevice of my bone and every hollow of my flesh
    It is in the places I cannot fill that you will be there
    You whose bones will build the structure of my house
    It is your voice that will be the door
    It is your hands that will be the warmth
    I am often asked why I love bones
    Fingers and joints
    It is not the gore nor the death that attracts me
    It is not the reek of what has come to pass but the possibilities at every fingertip
    I am hoping one day to find the flesh to build my house
    I am hoping to find a heart that belongs to me alone
    One to shelter me and hold me safe,
    Someone whose hands I can hold in pride and every day someone to whom I'd say," I'm home."

    Tell me the name of your demons
    And I will tell you the name of your love
    Give to me your darkness and all that you have
    I can give you hope
    It is hope that I have amassed inside me
    It is the hope I have kept dear
    It is the hope countless others have given me
    Without the hope they left, I would never be alive
    I have buried it inside my heart too deep
    Your name
    Your intonation
    Your words
    My hope is to one day give it all back to you
    Hundredfold

    You can count on me to wage war against a tyrant
    My hands that hold the gun will not shake
    My eyes will not blink
    Until he is dead
    You can count on me to exorcise demons
    My heart will not flinch
    My mouth will not close
    Until he goes back to hell
    You can count on me to face your enemies
    Mine is the blade that will plunge their hearts
    I am your hero
    Me
    Just
    Don't ask me to touch my sadness
    That is the monster I cannot shake
    I cannot hold it
    I cannot believe it
    I am a victim of it
    Trapped
    I have long since stopped struggling
    Everyday it consumed more of me
    I am not proud
    I could ask you to stay
    Be a bit more selfish in my ways
    I could ask you to listen
    Be more gentle in my delivery
    I could
    I won't
    I know it will hurt more when I say go
    I know I will leave scars on your body
    My heart is a knife
    Either way
    I will never burden you by asking you to stay
    So please do visit
    But be clear where the door stands
    Because sometimes, I forget you were even there