Neptunyaa

I am weird.
Aren't we all? But then again, I guess few would actually admit that they are. Some may call it the "I'm unlike the other girls" syndrome. But to be honest, we're all different in our own little ways. Some may like shrimp on their pizzas or some like pineapples. Being included in a society where bullshittery is common and being weird is considered as unique, I'd rather not join them.

Oookayy~ Now I'll let you know a bit about me okay? Don't tell others! Some might just be curious and checked my page but I'll consider you guys as listening to my story! hehehe ( = 3 = )

I'm currently 21 years old, a neet and a pretty useless trash. All I do is read manga/webnovels/lightnovels, play and sleep. Though I'd rather work than do all that to keep my mind from wandering too much.

Some might say I'm lucky to be living my life as it is. But I'm not comfortable. I want to do more. But I can't because I'm afraid of other people. I hate interacting with them. Just the thought of having to go out and face countless of unknown faces makes me vomit and panic. I don't know why I started becoming like this. I've been a jack of all trades ever since I was small. All I wanted was to spread art everywhere and let everyone see the joy of creating things. But then people accused me of getting other people's works even though I haven't done anything of the sort. People got jealous that I was at the center of everything. It might seem cliche but it does happen, albeit a lil hidden from normal prying eyes. The slight alteration of facts behind everyone's backs, it made me scared of people. The way others spoke of the subject as if they're the one in it, experiencing it. I hated it. I hated society and I hated living.

Isn't it funny? Communities, industries and the like hates newcomers. As much as newcomers wants to be included, the veterans do anything to eliminate future enemies. I don't want to be in that world. That's why I resolved to just reading things.

I'm set to build my own business in a year or so. I'm stepping into the world again, with the help of some people who wants me to succeed for the future of the people that will rely on me. I just hope I won't be that naive to be controlled into that situation yet again.