Preety sad and frustrated but there's nothing i can do. Phone broke but i saw hope, hope in the fact that i was gonna get 100€ from my school the next day or two and could repair mx phone or maybe find a better cheap used one. Welp came home today and mom's like "sorry but i only have 65€ left and that's for food and fuel for the next 2 weeks, and there's no way that's gonna be enough for those things either". *sigh* 400€ internet debt and she couldn't pay a single cent this month AGAIN so my already slow internet will get shut off in the next 2 weeks or so, will have to go to the supermarket next to my house since they have a Café there where they let you use their internet for 1 hour daily so i'll be able to download some epubs for the tablet at least, here's hoping the internet provider doesn't straight up tell us to fuck off but i wouldn't be surprised. Bunch of other debts but not listing them since they've been there forever... My mom is also hoping to save 2k€ so we can do something for christmas since we haven't really had a party for anything in the last 7 years, but seeing how she cant even pay her normal monthly debts not to mention the 10k of other stuff no way she can save anything for christmas, honestly holidays hold no meaning to me including my birthday, best thing i got in my life was my samsung s4 that i got 3.5 years, she wanted to pay monthly but failed after 3 months and has 800€ debt there. The pc i currently have i got over a year ago from my friend for 100€, i had to sell my lil bros 3ds (he got a new one later) And also add in some of my own money, and by my own money i mean money mom gave me for food because she left for 2 weeks. Speaking of food in the past years or so there are days where i ate a lot and 2-3 days in a row where i ate literally nothing. In the past few months ive been having 1 meal a day usually bread but sometimes mom cooks something, when we have ingredients to cook with. Man, i know my family situation, but i was really excited for that 100€, at first to maybe buy a wifi usb for my pc for 25€ so i wouldnt have to use usb tethering to have internet in my phone but phone broke and had to repair it. But then mom takes the money, and with how things are going next months and the month after that will get taken as well. I know my family situation, and i understand why she took it. That doesn't however stop me from feeling sad and frustrated, using my lil bros tablet atm but can only do that for a few hours since he wants it when hes home. Can't find some kind of job either. Monday and friday i have school, tuesday-thursday i work, i work for free and its required in my school, the 100€ are for school expenses and train tickets but i drive without a ticket, its 68€ monthly and fuck that. I start work at 10 or 11 and end at 18 or 19, sounds like nice times except when you realise i have no time for myself those 3 days. When i come back at 18 or 19 im dead tired and fall asleep at 20, the place i picked is a supermarket. Usually its fine except they very much enjoy dumping all the really heavy labor on the kid that works for free. And then i sleep till 3 or 4 am but obv cant get up at that time so i fall asleep again till 8 then have to go to work in 2 hours, essentially tuesday-thursday i only have around 3 to 4 hours per day where im free. And because school is only twice per week monday and friday i have a shit ton i need to learn so those days are taken to. Maybe i could find some work on the weekend but at that point i would have no free time and what's the point of living when you can't even spare some time to enjoy life? So i'm not doing that. *sigh* So frustrsted and annoyed at, well, everything i suppose. Nothing i can do about it tho, at least life isn't as bad as that time when we were living in a strangers house for a few months because we had no money. Oh btw the 3ds my bro got and the tablet ain't from mom. Its from his dad, my stepdad, my lil sis has contact with him through his friends (mom is fairly mad about this). And he sends them gifts sometimes, and by sends i mean he sends one of his friends to place the gifts at our doorstep. Mom and the police are looking for him tho since he owes mom like 40k by now or something, well whatever. Point is all the "nice" things my lil siblings have are from their runaway dad. Tho my mom sold a lot of stuff already and is gonna sell my lil bros hoverboard. *sigh* Well, i know there are people with worse lifes then me so hey. I just hope maybe life will get better in the next few months. If not i at least want to repair my phone so i can continue to escape reality in my free time. Speaking of escaping reality, been catching up on god of slaughter recently, know anything like it? Basically a novel with a mc that gives no fucks, enjoys killing and if possible is 18+ for *cough* reasons *cough*.
The way my school works is its half school half work. Name a place where they would accept someone that has literally straight F's on his certificate and that is easier to work at than a supermarket.
that s some strong mom you have ( i usually do some sport in the morning when i am in desperate state it help you refresh your body and mind )
Mmmmm its good to come to complain, at least your worries and frustrations are grounded and you're not hating the world or anything! Wich means that sooner or later you'll have the chance to see an oportunity to get your everyday life a little better. About that novel i think god of slaugther meets the criteria
Wth why does school gives an Mandatory jobs for free.... i would quit that kind of school cause we work to eat and live so i wont ever work for free when my life isn't stable yet... the future must have something better for you Stay strong buddy
Quit school? And do what clean the streets for a living? This is the only school that would accept a dropout like me i have nowhere else to go.
Well you need to take school seriously even if it is not treated as cool. Every problem has a solution. Focus on one problem and fix one at a time. Like your phone problem. You can get a Chinese smartphone for about 50 Euros. That saves you 50 to use to fix another problem. Work online. Even MTLs make extra cash online. You can even from making epubs. When it comes to money pride should be thrown out of the window. Don't do anything illegal though. Talk to a counselor or therapist. You need to realise that you cannot solve all your problems alone. You others, you need to socialize, network. I used to have a severe stutter but became the most popular guy in school. I was actually infamous rather than famous but that's another story. Two heads are better than one
do your friend homework for few bucks? or something else? or just do what u can to lessen the load of ur mom
I kinda relate a little bit with your life. Right now I'm in England and I have to work while going to university as well. So I work 5 days per week and 2 I study at University. And when I arrive home I have to study as well every day. So I have basically no free time at all! Btw now I'm at work! Good luck!
Dude try X-ray Is More Than I Thought Anyway I feel you. Here I am stuck with a HTC One M7 with a dead mouth piece while trying get into a public university.