are you okay ? i really think you need professional consultation with some psych. from your post alone i can identify several behavior that are considered as dangerous to one self.
I honestly couldn't quite get what the problem was, but, well.... First of all, it seems to me like you are too judgemental. Any kind of relationship takes efforts from both sides, a willingness to open yourself more and to know the other party more. People have different sides they show in their interactions, it is only natural for someone to act one way in front of their friends and another way in front of their parents. It seems to me that you are somewhat thinking low of the people that become interested in your "outside self" because apparently your "inside self" is much different. This thought-process hinders whatever kind of relationship you may hold with another person. It is also odd how you make that whole deal about your outside and your inside being different, yet declares to not judge people without knowing their "true self", at the same time declaring that all you need for determining another person's true self is a simple glance at the person's reactions, way of talking and expressions. You are on a high horse, and I'm not stating this with any personal feelings involved. I am being as neutral as I can. Whether you will get off of it eventually or not, it's up to you.
what's your reason for hating guys? Cause I'm sorry but I can't understand anything with how you wrote it. It's like reading bad MTL(sorry). Also how does god fit into this? I'm so confused! Though I kinda see where you're coming from, I hate my brother sometimes too. But I wouldn't say all guys, because not all guys are the same, you shouldn't label people you don't know. You can even find examples of sweet guys online, so not all guys suck. I even have this guy friend, he's super sweet, nice, smart and just overall awesome. So you can't justify all guys with just a single group of bad apples.
when SJWs shitpost at worst they only get banned. but when other people shit post, they get arrested and sentenced to jail