The link I posted was for a story made by a different author, it's more like a fanfiction of the original. Oh! I actually didn't read it, mostly because I didn't like the reason behind the novel. Yes, it's from a different author.
Actually, ML technically was never good to MC. Yes it seems like we are hating on ML for his cheating scum ways in past four years and praise his fidelity in initial ten years, but ML made MC swallow a very bitter life. First was MC abandoning his dreams to go to college and become a doctor, running away from to Beijing drifting along trying to get work. They were so poor, with ML feeling frustrated, and MC soothing him. ML defended MC once against a lecher probably because he didn’t want anyone touching his belonging, like when he got pissed he saw the orchid or got a ride from AZY. Even the current company ML is head of? It was due to the meticulous efforts of MC. MC inherited it. He even was the one who got most of the initial contracts, soothing relationships. What did ML ever do for MC? MC wanted to travel, but they didn’t. Even when company got better probably around 2-3rd year if the first ten, ML always said no. MC has never left Beijing since he went there because of ML! He didn’t even go to the funeral of his own parents! Because of ML! So ML says he made life bitter for MC. It wasn’t bitter just the last four years, it was everything since MC followed ML to Beijing. ML mostly thinks the last four years was the bitter pill because he was at least faithful for first ten. But during first ten bitter hardship of trying to make it in Beijing, ML was constantly relying on MC and swearing to make up for it. He compensated those hard ten years with four years of brazen cheating. ML has always been scum to MC, but MC was too in love to care because he believed in ML’s love and was willing to work hard for both of them. ML said he wanted to work hard for both of them, but we see what he really ended up doing.
That's why, it's better if in the next life, they dont meet and fall in love again. They have bitter life by each other doing in the end. Let's just say, they have mismacthed fate entangle in this life, and was a bad choice for both sides. If so called redemption can be done with many ways, not with couple love, maybe with other way. Also, even if ML and MC dont meet, they each have met other that love them. That's my take with this novel. Sad really.
That is a really touching way interpretation! While I have secondary ML syndrome, I think the way the author handled how MC treated AZY was very touching. He knows that with his limited time and exhausted mentality, even he cannot say that he loves AZY. But if he could have met AZY instead of ML, he would not have been mistreated (although who knows in reality since AZY said he only cleaned up his act because his parents kind of forced him to stop being immature). Hence why MC told AZY said in next life, they can be together as husband and wife without any of the problems of homosexuality. It is sad that he has to add that qualifier, but it made it more real because it shows how MC was seriously thinking of the possibility. I'm really grateful for this spoiler thread for introducing this novel to me.
@lailai *nodnod* Yeah, I agree with you, on how MC treats AZY. In this life, MC fate is already sealed... one way or another. I think MC likes AZY unconsciously, or maybe it's gratitude and admiration, either way, if MC only thinks of his own happiness, it's easier to accept AZY in his short time. It's a sad conclusion for both. Regarding, be a wife/woman in next life.......Well, tbh....gay love is a hard road unless the world view hasnt changed about it. And MC already lived his love life, he knows how hard and difficult that life, and in the end he doesnt get his happy ending. Maybe he doesnt want to experience it again, maybe he wants to have parents acceptance, love, and friends. And maybe he doesnt want to repeat the heartache and pull AZY into it too. Haaaaaahhhhhhh......really a sad story.......Whoever can read it and not cry over it every chapters is a winner, I guess. I know I cannot, I will cry in every chapters, and it will just make me depressed, so I'm fine with summaries.
Jiang Wenxu must be the worst person among BL novels. Only wish MC and Ai Ziyu could be together. Did anyone think something will change if MC talks about his condition sooner with Jiang Wenxu?
I’ crying rivers reading the spoilers, I don’t think I can handle the actual novel. ML is the worst. He showed his real colors when he became someone and started to cheat on MC. Love? Maybe, but who cares? Only love is not enough to sustain a relationship, even less a toxic love like this. There’s absolutely no respect here. Where is the quick transmigration when we need it?
I swear I don’t think I hated a ML more than this Jiang bastard. Honestly, how many times does a donkey have to kick you in the head for you to defend this guy and wish him a happy ending? Some people compared this to Gazes at the Scenes of Debauchery, but if you hated the ML in that story then you’ll want to skin the ML in this one. I really want the author to write an extra or something for this story with Zhishu and Dr Ai being reborn or reincarnating and having a good life together. I think Dr Ai, maybe even more than the MC, deserves to have a good end. This poor guy fell in love with someone with a terminal illness, and despite knowing that there would be no results from their love he was always there for the MC but to the very end he kinda never got the love he deserves. Then he’s off to spend the rest of his life pining after someone who was maybe grateful to, but not really in love with him. While I feel bad for the MC, part of me feels like he kind of brought it on himself for never leaving that scumbag bastard. Not after Jiang-shthead cheated on him for four yrs and acted like Zhishu was a bother. Not when that bastard lost their ring and forgot about it. Not even after being beaten and raped, the MC just clung on to someone who treated him worse than sht. Don’t try to give me bs about how Jiang cared about MC before. Did he really? Because Zhishu had to abandon his family and dreams, he lived a life catering to Jiang’s preferences (no pets, no travelling, no nothing) and Jiang was quick to fck young btches when he got powerful. Jiang’s position is thanks to the MC. The company was the MC’s inheritance from his old boss, the MC was also there to slave for the first ten yrs until the company became huge. Zhishu suffered all of the hard work and yet once they became rich Jiang didn’t hesitate to betray him. He even taunted Zhishu that his shares and assets were all under Jiang’s name so if Zhishu wants to leave then he can fck off with the clothes on his back. How can this scumbag deserve pity? He deserves every horrible thing to befall onto his life. He fell into depression after MC’s death? GOOD. He oughta be reborn and this time has to see the MC fall in love with someone decent.
Totally agree. I don't think that Jiang was ever good to MC, and it was the worst thing to happen to him.
The ending is bad for everyone. Actually, most BL stories are happy when the boys first got together. However, as time goes by, what happened is not depicted in other novels, but in this one, though from a pessimistic view. After the uke died of cancer, the seme died four years afterwards in deep guilt. The boy who had affairs with the seme was abandoned and died of a car accident. Basically, I think that the uke should not have let go of his job in his own company. If the uke and the seme continue to work together and strive for better future, there might be a better ending for both of them. Another bad thing in this book is that the bone marrow available for the uke's treatment was given to the lover of a man in power (they are a BL couple as well). Hence, the uke was treated with neither chemotherapy nor bone marrow replacement, and eventually died of late stage leukemia in the hug of the doctor.
I wouldn’t fully believe that the bone marrow transplant would have worked. The person’s who had it ended up rejecting it and died anyway. This is another precaution. At first sounded like his chance at life was snatched, but and was latch’s don’t as a cure. But it is possible that even if it did work, his quality of life might be so bad or may not fully cure from it. Or just reject and die. So this story is truly no good endings, but just a way to seek final peace for those living. And if they cannot live on, then suicide. I actually can’t help but wonder if the author was purposely writing it this way, or there is hidden message about losing yourself to love.
I need I story where MC and AZY got together!! MC didn’t need to be a girl. Just make a MPreg story hahaha It’s not that I don’t like slag man rebirth type of story. But I have second male lead syndrome~ why do you choose slag man when there’s a perfect second male lead? I don’t give a damn about feeling hohoho
Wtf, I'm a lost kid. Why did I got lost here? Huhuhu my heart. I can never handle cheating. That is just so disgusting, how could someone even swallow that?! Sht why did I stumble with this Gong? Argh argh my heart is dying, I can't. Should have tortured him more in the story!!!!
Whenever bl ends in a bad note. It reminds me of all the bl movies that often have bad endings on purpose. Like hey, being gay is bad message or like tat xd
I accidentally ready this manhua, it did a good job made me cried so much in the middle of night i mean i have my wishful thinking that uke would get healed and be with doctor but fckn hell i read it and read it and he died i want to cursed the world arghhh.. he deserve better why would he met that kind of bastard, why did he still together with him until the mistress come to him even though he know that he has a lot of mistresses, why is this story so cruel, gahh my fragile heart shattered then again it's all because i didn't read the synopsis or spoiler the doctor is such a kind man and yet he couldn't be together with his loved one
Wow you just opened my eyes. You are right that one of the tragedy's message is that being gay is bad. MC's mother said that at least with a woman there is a child, but with a man there is nothing holding the affection. (Which is a load of crap because even in a heterosexual couple either party can cheat regardless of children!) And MC while he misses the young Jiang, he also feels like he shouldn't have been gay because it caused him to be unfilial to his parents. He even tells Doctor Ai that in the next life when Doctor Ai wants to be together with him, MC wants to be a woman so their relationship won't have the doomed tragedy of a homosexual one. Even the other couple of the Mayor's son and his leukemia boyfriend also ended up an unhappy ending, wherein the transplant didn't work but prolonged suffering such that the boyfriend of the mayor's son died. And Zui Shen died. Even Jiang's doctor friend (forgot his last name, Zhang?) ended up with some issues because of illness in his wife's side that was causing stress in what should have been a happy occasion of getting married. Damn this novel is sad.