As finals come, I know I'm going to stand here, in a slump, asking myself where I want to be years from now. sitting in my room playing all those games I've been playing, or traveling the world as I've always imagined, or maybe fulfilling my dreams of becoming a lecturer? No one knows... Where they will be... But all they know is, That they need to work hard To be where they want to be. Soi have been thinking to myself... Did i work hard enough? What did i ever do lately? Why am i still like this? I WANT TO FLY!! CHASE THE DREAMS!! FOLLOW THE PATH THAT I HAVE CARVE IN MY HEART!!! I need to START NOW!!! NOW damn it! NOW!! | 7 Jan 2015 | Wednesday | 1:34 am | _______________________________________________________________ This is something I wrote 4 years ago... Well, I passed my finals with flying colors that semester... I eventually slowly stop playing games.. Just the pc games tho... I still play some mobile games and my Nintendo switch.. Well, you can't stop entirely all at once of course! I did get my dreams to fly around and travel just as I have wished... But yeah... You can't have it all, all the time right? That is just the reality. Thus, now I'm working on my path of becoming an educator... I surely can tell you it is not an easy path. The path is not as clear as you thought it would be when it comes to career. You can work towards it... But you cannot control the outcome. I don't want it to be just a dream. I want to have a career that I am passionate about. I may not know what it is, but I believe, if I don't give up, I will eventually get what I want in life. I will try my very best in my life so that in the future, when I looked at this post, I will say to myself; "You did great. You did all you have to do and that leads you to who you are today. If you get that career you wanted, congrats. If not, you don't have to be sad or down. Look from another angle, look at what life have to offer and be grateful for it."
My road was full of torns, Pain amounts for many mourns. Everyday, i would shed a tear, Yet madness took away my fear. Where did my road began? When did i walk on this journey? Who did i first believe to face this path? I look back my past, a young me was smiling. Not a person, an animal, but a world of fantasy. A road where not my countrymen would begin his life. A world of animation, drawn for the sake of others. I shed my tears, i remember my life. My hands stained with lead and ink. The curses i say with my hands impaired. I draw, i write, yet my hands never reach. Talentless, hard work, i cursed it all. My jealousy, peak of insanity. My siblings with talent, yet a sneer to me. Encouragement was neigh, a loner me. Darkness envelops, a laugh to sanity. I'm broken, my heart, soul and body. I lost myself, a road to no goal. Living is a suffering, death is just an excuse. Arcadia Blade, a name which journey's with a magic sword.
TRY HARDER You try to be the nicest person in the room, Eventhough you know deep down, you are not good enough. You keep trying. Not for their sake but for your own, You want to be the best version of yourself. But no matter how hard you try, The effort just seems futile as you always messed it up. Never lose hope. Never gives up. Just try harder.