I cannot express it easily or word it right, but what is it in your every day experience made you believe this is all real? What made you accept that all situations you went through is the sum of your total reality? When in your point of life did you realize, "Shit, this is real. I'm not dreaming.". I don't feel like I'm living in the same "reality" as everyone else is. I'm likely delusional at this point, believing everything is rerun of so many failures and successes I've gone through in so many a time.
The moment you believe everything could get for the better tomorrow and there is nothing you could do unless moving forward. Staying in place or being depressed about it would make everything worse. I also learn how to enjoy what life brings you, instead of only taking what you want. thats it.
I think with me it has always either been a choice about "face reality or get stuck even further." I've never had a good life, but that was also the case with everyone around me. Everyone was a piece of shit that came from shit and stayed as shit (lol). It was a place with people and things that made people numb and even sneer at most horrid of things because that is their "reality." Let me tell you one thing, cynicism is another form of naivety. I didn't want to be like the people around me and be defined purely based on how I grew up. More importantly, I did not want to define myself based on those things either. So I decided to create my new reality by moving on with my life (both literally and figuratively). I think in your case, you just need to find something that makes you happy or at least a little more optimistic towards yourself (even if it is just forgiving yourself, which you certainly need to do with the amount of self-deprecation I am sensing from your comment). Be persistent in this, but also be patient with it. No one's perfect, and that's okay. Here's a thing about life, it keeps going with or without you. As long as you are willing, no matter how long it takes, you can re-make "your reality" (which is really just your cognition, but that is further proof that it can be changed). You have more control over your life than you think you do, you just have to find it with time and effort. It's not all easy though, I'll give you that.
Tbh I still haven’t. But I think I’m half way there. When I look back on the life I’ve lived and the opportunities I’ve missed I realize that life does not care about what you think or do. Whether you are there or not does not is inconsequential, reality moves forwards. Then when I make decisions that have lasting impact and real implications on not only myself but those around me I realize my actions have substance. My moves, or lack thereof impacts the world around me. I also have the sentiment that moving forwards lends a sense of reality
Is it air you're breathing? Welp my own personal thoughts, Are we living? maybe Am I real? maybe Is this reality? maybe Should I think this further? Definitely not, real or not, I'm gonna wake up today, tomorrow or day after tomorrow in this world until I'll no more. I'm stuck, so lets just not stray too far from my personal objective, Worship Laziness!. This is a reality until it is not a reality for you anymore, maybe there is a different plane maybe there isn't. Nothing comes out of cycling thoughts. Live the moment as if this is a reality that will fail to be your reality the next moment. Savior every moment of the reality that is reality to you. My wish is to enjoy and never forget to enjoy the moment w/e reality I'm in. After all it's not like another plane, existent or non existent, will open up for me if I keep cycling my thoughts on the topic if Im living in reality or not. And whut is reality anywhay? Numbers are non-existent, money is imagination, soul the driving power of us is merely a concept, heck even the time told by clock is just a work of friction that is constantly being updated by scientists and we know nothing how or when they remove or add milliseconds or seconds in it. So the question again, is it air you're breathing? Remember scientists still don't understand atoms. While trying to magnify atoms, they discovered electrons, protons and neutrons. They discovered quarks while further trying to magnify the by-products and have theorized that most of the atom is empty, who knows if even the quarks they discovered are filled with something or actually empty. Hence the question again, is it air you're breathing? or is it just nothingness that you're breathing?
In a non-angsty way, suffering does. It's kinda cliche honestly. But pain does help you stay focused on one thing. Trying to make it stop. TLDR: Get fucking tinnitus and hence stay in a perpetual state of suffering which will let you stay fixated in reality. Stonks dude.
coming to terms that stupidity is more common then I thought, and when majority rules minority in a democracy it was very infuriating to know that it doesn't matter whether an issue is simple or not, the general mass get to decide... Something I learnt recently... Democracy's biggest flaw is in its people's ignorance to judge logically. It was always nagging behind my head how is it even possible?, can something idiotic be praised as truth? Why are people like this?... The whole world needs a revamp on education system... We are already adjusting with the views of older generation just cause of their existence, not having a good education system would only increase the number of generations with gullible and ignorant population. You would think this doesn't effect individuals hugely, but it is so wrong. Everyday one has to fight for their right to live freely, everything about one's life is decided how the public will view it... Not being able to do something freely cause society sees it as wrong is something everyone of us have experienced. Some accepted it, some deviated and shortened their social circle... Either way, this a solution for individuals, not for the public... This point changed how I perceive people. But I see hope in that the present generation will soon get into power, some already are... One day, when I'm old and grumpy the world will be how I wanted it to be.. But a world just like the present hated by young.
Personally, i'm not sure whether all this is real or if i'm just hallucinating all day long and am actually mad and making up this whole world (or being in the matrix if you prefer). So i try to adapt every day to this world, trying to get anything out of this, and since the only thing I think may last if i woke up from this unending dream is my mind, i try to cultivate it as much as possible for an eventual waking up.
when I’m not as talented or as smart as I thought and need to humble myself and learn again. And that the average people have terrible household thus they repeat their parents mistakes.
What is with the depressing undertone here? I was just asking is what cemented your footholds on the grounds and decided to live as a resident of this world. Nurture vs. nature kind of thing, and not this pill discussion. Thanks for the advice, anyway?