my friend, do not fear, you are merely reaching Enlightenment, and as most of us know, you can't describe such things in actual words.
Well... Words only really give levels of description... Perhaps you want to try relating it to other common experiences that most people may have... First time I rode a bike... First hunting experience... Getting lovestruck first the first time... Its like running 10 miles and then taking that first sip of cold water after the long trek along... Like watching your favorite movie for the first time all over again, except 10 times the feeling of that....
You also can add the word "fucking" in front of it. Not to mention it makes it to become more than a word, it also greatly emphasizes the following word. I'm just saying.
Maybe it's a smell or a taste, maybe a feeling. Many of the words said so far are close, but not exactly what I'm looking for. Maybe every experience I'm describing are actually different feelings. I'm sorry for being so unclear. As I said I'm at a loss on what this is. I want to thank you guys for your help though.
Sounds like you're describing feelings of complacency and awe at the same time. Which there obviously isn't a word for.