He surprised.. since he didn't know about me feels that way toward him.. he told me that he know me stalker around him n he thought it was funny so he let me be.. but he surprised again when I said I love him for 3 years.. he thought it was like 1 years at most..
I told him about me saw him saved the kitten from being run by a motorcycle 3 yrs ago.. he said yeah that thing happened but it was long ago n he didn't realize I was there watched it happened..
I told him about the day when he was working at the bookshop n I meet him face to face for the first time.. I was really shy n all I did is bow down my head n just pay the money without lifting it.. he don't know that it was me.. but he got some impression of it since all the lady around there mostly smile n tease him a lot.. its fresh saw someone like me that day..
And he told me "Thankz for the feelings you have for me but sorry.. I truly love her (his fiance).. I don't know what could happened before but right now I truly love n want to be with her until we're old grannies.. Sorry I only saw you like my sister.. I wish you would found your own true love someday" (╥﹏╥)
At that moment I smile~ I said Thankz for telling me off about it n I smile brightly or so I thought in my mind.. I wish him the best n happy with the person he love..
Yeah.. I felt like the world crash n shattered.. I felt nothing.. I felt like this life is empty now.. I can't stalker him again.. I can't see his smile everytime I pay at the bookshop again.. I felt lost.. (╥﹏╥)
Is this the feeling of the abyss?? Its all dark n I can't see or felt anything at all.. my eyes blurred.. Its hurttttt.. so badddd.. I'm saddddd.. why am I not the one he love?? Why?? I love him for a long time than her.. I saw him first.. but she got the best man I wish I have.. (╥﹏╥)
I know. It must hurt so so so SO SO SO SO bad... Like... It seems so pointless like everything has shattered... Like there is no point in living anymore...
I'm actually proud that you were brave enough to face the rejection. Don't worry, time dulls any kinds of wounds. Someday you would find someone that would fit you better. @Azleyza
Thankz~ (╥﹏╥) I don't know about the future but right now I truly felt the meaning of heart broken to pieces is.. its madd n I felt like crazy.. n I cried n I just lost the will to meet him again.. tomorrow I don't think I can go to the wedding.. let today be the last day O saw him.. (╥﹏╥)
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