I always feel like I am alone. No one wants me. I have no home. Or is it the darkness calling out to me again. Maybe it wants to take me into the abyss.
I don't believe in god. It may sound controversial but I don't want to argue about faith and what I believe in.
Home is wherever you decide it to be. If no one wants you, you can always want yourself and with that, it can't be taken away from you. People forget that we don't need to depend on other people to complete us. Let's try to stay at the present and value ourselves if no one would, love ourselves if no one would, care for ourselves, live and be happy for ourselves. Self-help books are nice reads. Listening to audiobook by Eckhart Tolle, Neville Goddard, and Joseph Murphy might help.
Kid, give me your family's number, it's time I talk with them ʕ º ᴥ ºʔ Well I can't, unless you are an orphan—
You're not alone. Many people feel and have felt that way, including me. So cheer up, bud. If I can make it through, you can too. Believe in yourself, and believe in love. If the world truly hates you, then love yourself or else no one will. Only when you begin loving yourself will you understand that no one is truly alone in this because we all go through similar struggles in life. Forgive yourself for the things you're insecure or uncertain about, love yourself when feel like the world hates you, and believe in love because why not? Maybe someday you'd meet your destined partner for life. There may be pain along the way, but that's just how life goes. Push through, bud. I know you can do it. Well, this was just what I think, anyway. Hope you feel better soon.