Please reccommend me some. Raw or translated novels are both good. Thank you!! I've read these: - Muted - Boss’s Death Guide - 杉重水覆[重生]
These kinda fit? https://www.novelupdates.com/series/gaze-at-the-scenes-of-debauchery/ https://www.novelupdates.com/series/spring-trees-and-sunset-clouds/
Spring Trees and Sunset Clouds - MC does not have any suicidal thoughts or so but he has given up on life. Translation completed.