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buttonssyu · Jun 2, 2022

Please send it to me as well. I’ve been wanting to read this for a while.

serena9660 · Jun 4, 2022

buttonssyu said: ↑

Please send it to me as well. I’ve been wanting to read this for a while.
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Me tooooo

Jajachin · Jun 4, 2022

Me too.. would like to have a translation for this book

kieranfortier · Jun 5, 2022

What?? So unfair that Lyle only get pregnant in the AU extra.

I mean, Omegaverse always confuse me, because I’ve read quite a few where alphas can get pregnant (just rare to happen) and many others where alphas can’t get pregnant at all. Im never sure which is the case.

anyway, someone knows the novel x manhwa equivalent? Season 1 ends where in the novel (before the break up?)

and what about Ash knotting :O?

catsforz · Jun 9, 2022

buttonssyu said: ↑

Please send it to me as well. I’ve been wanting to read this for a while.
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Hello, if you were able to get the novel, please share with me

kieranfortier said: ↑

What?? So unfair that Lyle only get pregnant in the AU extra.

I mean, Omegaverse always confuse me, because I’ve read quite a few where alphas can get pregnant (just rare to happen) and many others where alphas can’t get pregnant at all. Im never sure which is the case.

anyway, someone knows the novel x manhwa equivalent? Season 1 ends where in the novel (before the break up?)

and what about Ash knotting :O?
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Chapter 12 of the novel corresponds to chapters 14-15 of the manhwa

MochiBird · Jun 10, 2022

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btw this happened at the engagement party when lyle was engaged to an elite omega after their break up

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First, I wanted to ask after you. Ever since I heard that I cried, I've been worried about that face. I also wanted to ask if he had eaten properly or if he was very upset. And he said he wanted to define a relationship that had been twisted from the beginning.….

……Carlyle?

With so many thoughts rushing up, Ash found a familiar face. I could see the sharp profile at a glance. The shoes stopped in place. My eyes opened wide. The heart that had stopped for a moment, soon began to beat at a frightening speed.

Carlisle was clear.

Blood circulated throughout the body with the heart that started beating painfully fast. The shoes scratched the floor. Carlyle turned her head as she took a step to move.

Calm gray eyes stared straight at Ash. Eyes are crossed. Carlyle's face was seen at a glance even though it was quite a long distance. I felt nauseous as if something I had pressed down on was exploding. Sad longing and unbearable joy were mixed at the same time.

"Carl……."

My lips are open. The name, which was wandering around without finding its owner, met the other person. Laughter permeated without even knowing if he was laughing. But Ash couldn't call Carlyle's name to the end.

This is because the eyes that I had encountered were cut off.

Carlisle, who looked at Ash with a dull, cold eye, turned away. Like you didn't see anything. There was no change in facial expression, as there was in the air.

Carlyle, who turned her head, turned her body just as it was. He continued to talk to the woman he was talking to and started walking outside the party hall. Perhaps a party planner.

Not understanding for a moment what happened in front of her eyes, Ash blinked.

Oh…….

My hair is white. I didn't think of this reaction. More painful than finding Carlisle's empty mansion, it was burning inside.

With a smiling face, Ash raised her hand. The hand that was smoothing his lips swept down his neck.

"Ash?"

Nick, who came from the phone, called him from behind. But I couldn't hear it properly. Ash, who managed to come up with something to say, said Nick without looking back.

"Nick, excuse me."

Before hearing the answer, Ash began to walk. The slow-moving bridge soon increased its speed.

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My thighs are tense. His long legs widened the stride by clenching and loosening his fists.

At once across the banquet hall, Ash walked like a leap in the direction Carlyle disappeared. He chased the man in a hasty and nervous move. Otherwise, I thought I'd lose it.

Carlisle didn't go far. The woman next to him came back and passed by Ash. The glance at his face was also not caught by Ash's eyes. Only Carlisle was seen.

The whole body, unconscious, missed Carlisle.

The new look on Carlyle's back made it obvious. Carlyle's image was engraved on his mind without even realizing it. He missed the neat back of walking while texting him. I missed the past when I could approach him casually and hug him. I didn't know how much of a privilege it was to be able to reach a man like that.

Now, I wish I could do that.

Feeling about to cry, Ash stopped. Then he opened his mouth.

"Carlyle."

Ash's voice rang in the only long hallway. Without looking back, the man walking quietly stopped.

The sound of shoes that used to ring at regular intervals also stopped. The last few seconds passed. In a stifling silence, Carlisle turned slowly.

No different than before, I could see a blank face.

"Carlyle."

I called his name again. My throat is clogged. My throat ached and suffocated as if I had stuck something dry in my throat. Words that I thought were nothing but white volatilized.

It was hard to say a word, contrary to expectations. It didn't fit in with Ash Jones at all. It was hard to see him as a man who was always skilled and relaxed.

"Long time no see."

Carlyle's eyes stared indifferently at him at the slowly leaking horse. It's only three steps. Even though it was only that distance, Carlyle looked very far away.

Once again, there was a heavy silence. I couldn't even hear my breath. Inorganic gray eyes, unknown to what he was thinking, stared straight at Ash. After a long silence, Carlisle finally opened his mouth.

"Long time no see, Mr. Jones."

It was a hard and cold voice. The title, which indicates a clear distance from formal words, was painfully embedded in my ear. Ash laughed.

When I was asked to call my name, I remembered a voice that was awkward but finally corrected the name. I barely finished two months before I called your name.

It hurt.

"How have you been?”

In a soft voice, Ash asked. I took a step towards Carlisle, who was not moving. Carlyle's gaze stopped at his shoes and returned to its original place.

"What brings you here?"

Carlyle did not reply to a question of regards. The expression was still the same. It seemed to be blocked by a wall. With a businesslike tone, Ash chose a horse for a momentarily. I'm heartbroken.

There's no way to know what Carlyle was like. But if that's Carlisle's attitude toward others, it's clear that Ash has been receiving special treatment. I didn't know it was so precious.

"I'm here to tell you something."

Ash said calmly. With a sad smile on his face, he took another step toward Carlyle. Now the distance between the two is one step away. Carlisle lowered his gaze again. Carlyle, who was looking at the distance just before he reached, struck Ash with a dry voice.

"I'm sorry."

Words ensued.

"I don't think I'll have time to listen.”

In an apparent voice, Carlisle backed down. One step, and one step again. The sound of hard heels rang. Carlyle, who stepped back as much as Ash had walked, spoke to end the conversation.

"Then, get home safely."

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Carlyle turned around without asking any more questions. Looking at his cold back, Ash unwittingly reached out. Just like when running, mistaking the back of someone who didn't even know his name for Carlisle, his hand reached out urgently.

My fingers touched my wrist, which was shaking quietly. Weakly, but desperately grasped the wrist. The cool heat that was coming from it spread throughout the body. I even felt that my thirst, which was drying up, was relieved.

"Just a few seconds."

I could see Carlisle's eyes pausing. Still expressionless, Ash went straight on.

"That day, what were you going to say?”

Without giving him time to answer, Ash said again.

"I've been thinking about it. You said you wanted to tell me something. That's what he wanted to say when he came to pick me up."

I looked straight in the eye. Smiling hidden beneath a blank face, Ash spoke in a calm yet convincing voice.

"I don't think that was meant to end the meeting. I think it's the other way around."

With painful eyes, Ash laughed. He whispered apologistically, feeling sorry, guilt and affection.

"Did I make a mistake that day?”

What I said, did it hurt you? Then how many times have I hurt you?

"So……."

"Mr. Jones."

Carlisle, who seemed to leave him alone, slowly opened his mouth. The voice was still the same. With a cold voice, Ash's hand touched the back of his cold voice.

Slowly reaching out, one by one, took Ash's fingers off. The fingers that held my wrist slowly came off. After removing the index finger that had reached the end, Carlyle lowered her hand. Ash's hand, which held his wrist, fell into the air.

"You're wasting my time."

As if it was not worth listening to anymore, it was a firm voice. This horse hurt a little more painful. It was hard to do smiling eyes.

I couldn't see Carlyle's innermost thoughts. Then I felt distant. I felt as if there was no answer as if there was a wall everywhere. Has it ever been this difficult? Have you ever had such a hard time understanding someone's feelings?

But Ash soon recalled a painting in Kyle's hand. I remembered a blindingly dark blue and purple, and a smiling figure hidden by shadows. It also occurred to me that it was Carlisle who saved the painting.

I don't think anyone who has been looking for my mother's relics with such sincerity would have forgotten me so easily.

There will be people like that. Sometimes some love burns like fire, burns the soul, quickly ashes and runs out. Ash has also done so.

But for those who don't even date, the man in front of him who spent so much time searching for the painting, opened his mind very slowly. It took me two months to see a smile. It took a long time to be named. So I wanted to believe it.

The man still cares about Ash Jones.

With his sinking eyes, Ash shook his head. I erased my laughter.

"I'm sorry to disturb you."

It doesn't matter what mistakes either made to each other, or whether Ash tried to be considerate of him, it doesn'

"But I can't help it.”

The important thing was one emotion that he became convinced of.

"A person in love, often becomes a fool."

Because Ash Jones loves Carlisle,

"Don't you remember? There's only one time left, we'll meet."

Any wounds Carlyle would give, I'm ready to take.

"A contract is a contract. I don't think Carlisle is the one who doesn't do that for sure, do you?"

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sorry for the shitty spoiler titles, i literally dk how else to title them

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He was the eldest son of the countess who chose him for his engagement. Omega Joel Stewart was three years younger than Carlisle.

The Stuart family, who have been producing politicians and working for the munitions industry for generations, was determined to help his family, which had relatively few politicians.

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My eyelashes trembled. A breath torn into thousands of branches squeezed through the cracks in his lips. My head was tingling. I felt dizzy. I couldn't understand what was happening before my eyes. A series of things that happened in a matter of minutes was all in question.

Why is Ash Jones here?

Carlisle kept his mouth shut at the spilling sentences without giving him time to list them properly. The wrist that was caught was burning like an invisible fire. It was like boiling oil, not blood, flowing through the veins. It hurt that much.

Are you sure…… is it real?

Carlisle laughed inwardly at the first eye contact. Too much delusion has developed into a pathogen and you're hallucinating. It was clear that the image of the man on the retina under the eyelids was now drawn in a different way.

Carlisle turned his eyes and tried to continue the conversation again. But I couldn't hear a single party planner recalling the last order of today's banquet.

Moving from place to place, Carlisle tried to forget the frightening vivid hallucinations he had just witnessed. But I couldn't. Hallucination was soon followed him by the auditory hallucinations. The name was called. With such a vivid voice, Carlisle ended up looking back. Pathetically.

Ash in the delusion was both very real and false. Carlyle once again reacted pitifully when asked how he was doing. It was obvious that others would treat him strangely if they saw him. Talking to the air.

But the conversation really continued. Ash replied to Carlyle's words. Furthermore, he continued to talk to Carlisle, who was not answering. My face gradually got closer. Ash's scent, which will never be forgotten in death, has grown. The cool and friendly scent that he had missed even in his dream gently wrapped around him.

Why?

Why is Ash looking for him now? The man who said he wasn't in any relationship didn't catch him. He didn't answer the phone. I haven't seen him in a month. It did not follow or ask why. And now I ask him again about the day.

My heart quickly collapsed. The support piled up with sand repeatedly broke down and broke down as if it were collapsing. I felt like my feet were turning off. All kinds of emotions swirled and shook Carlisle vigorously.

With a first look on his face, Carlyle even felt the urge to kneel when he saw Ash asking if he had made a mistake. I just wanted to hold Ash and collapse. But I had to put up with it.

It's a day for the engagement. His fate was set anyway. Carlyle's head came up with numerous reasons to reject Ash.

I don't know why or how a man came to visit him, but he probably doesn't feel the same way as Carlisle. If so, I wouldn't have left Carlisle this long.

Carlyle was a far cry from Ash in the first place. But in fact, there was something else that scared Carlisle the most.

Carlyle never had the power to endure this terrible pain again.

What if you accept Ash and meet him, and break up? What if Ash gets sick of him again? What if you get tired of my boring, blunt self and leave me?

How much will it hurt then?

I couldn't even guess. It was a pain that I couldn' You may want to die then. It was such a deep and foolish love. I didn't feel like I could love anyone other than Ash in my life.

If you look around him, he's always been the only one around him. Kyle, his mother, loved only one person in her life. To the extent that it feels like a curse to the name Frost, his family has only one person.

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I loved you.

And Carlyle foolishly chose Ash Jones as the object of love that would only exist once.

Ash would have had many loved ones. But Carlisle wasn't like that. Carlyle was certain to be unable to bear Ash's loss twice if she tried to release her pent-up emotions again and let it occupy her soul. I had such a hunch.

So I had to refuse. Ash may not be Carlisle, but Carlisle was not. There was tension all over the body.

With a little carelessness, it's clear that longing and affection will run away, and Carlisle pressed himself hard and hardened his face. I said something hurtful.

Carlyle felt the pain of dying when he told Ash that he was wasting his time.

Looking at his sorely bent eyes and smiling face, Carlisle felt that he had become the most ruthless man in the world.

But Ash didn't back off.

"We didn't spend the last weekend together, Carlisle."

I felt awkward when I didn't smile. His desperate voice was unfamiliar. Carlisle blankly remembered that one of Ash's earlier words was the word "love." What does it mean to say that a person in love often becomes a fool?

"What Carlisle wanted to say, you don't have to say it if you don't want to."

Ash narrowed the streets again. He walked three steps beyond two steps back. I could see eyes looking down at him right in front of me. There was some emotion in the sunken gray eyes and blue eyes.

Ash has never seen Carlisle like that before. My heart started beating as if it would stop because I didn't understand the situation. I wanted to raise my hand and press down on my ribs.

"I'll tell you. I want to say something."

A ridiculous assumption came to mind. Ash, maybe...….

"Carlyle, you...….”

Carlisle shook his head. He raised his hand and pushed Ash's shoulder away. He intercepted the words with a determined expression that he would not listen. You can't take that horse in. I almost misunderstood again. What was the end of the illusion? Wasn't it woefully empty?

"I don't know if you know."

I don't want to let Ash talk. Foolishly enough, Ash's words will leave him unable to fulfill his duty. I'll give you my heart again without a plan for the future that I'm going to break up.

"Today, I'm meeting someone who's going to be my soulmate."

He stood straight up with strength on his leg that almost stumbled. Straightened up to the point of arrogance and looked at Ash. He looked up slightly, but continued with a cold look.

"So I don't want you to embarrass me anymore."

You shouldn't be here. Looking at Ash's hurtful eyes, Carlisle felt like he had ruined everything.

"Go back, Mr. Jones."

There is no turning back. Carlisle gave up, creating his own worst. He was an idiot who didn't know how to build a relationship, and he wasn't as resistant to overcoming pain and wounds as others. After listening to Ash, I chose to push him away because I was not confident of enduring future pain rather than finding happiness right away.

I don't know why you're looking for Carlisle now, but I don't know what he's thinking...….

Ash will be fine. There will be many people who will love him.

Carlisle turned around without giving Ash a chance to hold on. I squeezed my lips, urging my wrist not to get stuck. Carlyle left, stinging and ignoring the pain rising.

poor lyle my heart hurts so much for him. give this baby a break already

Carlyle reached out her hand as she made eye contact with Joel Stewart, who followed.

I felt a fragrant and sweet smell. It was the scent of Omega that seduced Alpha. Perhaps his scent feels similar to Joel's.

However, Carlyle felt unbearable pain as soon as she smelled the scent. The future has been drawn. His future is to caress Joel with all his heart, mix up to satisfy him, give birth to children and belong faithfully to the family to connect generations.

Something that supported reason and thought was mixed randomly in my head. Panic is here. The pressure and inflammation that I felt every time I hugged Omega dug my brain like a piece of cake.

I wasn't confident of hugging Joel. I didn't have the confidence to mix with someone I didn't love. Can't do it.

Carlyle managed to guide them to the banquet hall, keeping a smiling face. You can't show yourself in front of a guest. It'll be fine if you buy time somehow.

Carlyle asked for understanding that she would leave her seat for a while, pressing down on the pressure that soared to her throat. I didn't even notice Alice and Jonathan's eyes touching my back.

The complexion turned white. The whole body became cold as if the blood were not circulating. Carlyle crossed the corridor, covering her mouth with her hands. My body trembled and soon I broke out in a cold sweat.

My stomach ached like a squeeze. Carlyle eventually stopped walking due to the pain of digging in the gut, which is different from breaking bones or wounding wounds.

I groped with my trembling hands and pressed down under my ribs. Carlyle bent over, swallowing what almost leaked. I felt dizzy. My legs are weak.

Wait a minute, if I take a break...….

Carlyle reached to the side to find something to supportive. The hand stirred in the air. The shaky body soon collapsed.

At the same time, someone called Carlisle from behind. Something solid supported him from behind. At the same time as several voices were heard, Carlyle felt her vision turning. My eyes are closed.

The view blinked as if light were coming into the light bulb. The memory of being cut off flooded in at once. I managed to open my heavy eyelids. The bitterness came from the inside, but it wasn't unbearable.

Carlisle turned his eyes for a moment to figure out the situation. Slowly exhaled and turned his head. He was in the room. It was a drawing room. I turned around and found myself lying on the sofa.

"Carlyle."

A friendly voice called out the name. A shadow cast over the body. In the midst of dizziness, Carlyle noticed who the opponent was at once. It was Ash. It was hard to grasp the situation at once. I felt unbearable pain. Unbelievably, he seemed to have fainted.

Carlyle, as reticent as he was, was quite gifted at persevering. I was ashamed that I lost my mind because I couldn't manage my stress properly, which was not a serious illness.

But the blame didn't last long. The fact that Ash was in this room embarrassed him. I remember someone supporting him. Is it Ash? Then I should have thanked you. Even if I tried to push him away at a distance.

I heard the sound of shoes. I saw a long leg, and Ash reached out and pulled the chair. Ash sat on the chair in a calm motion. I blinked.

The view became a little clearer. Admitting that it was a vague situation to avoid the position immediately gave rise to faint greed. I wanted to keep Ash's face in my eyes, which I couldn't even look at because I was in a hurry. Before I let him go.

"Do you come to your senses?”

Ash asked quietly. I could see a subdued expression. The eyes that didn't smile looked sad somehow. Come to think of it, Ash was wearing a suit.

I've never seen such a costume before. The black suit was as elegant as it was made for Ash, and the one wearing it was very beautiful. However, my hair was a little messy.

The subtle pheromone soothed the stomach. Apart from the complexity in my head, my body gradually began to calm down. His long-lost body welcomed his opponent regardless of being Alpha's pheromone.

As his senses slowly returned, Carlyle heard a whisper outside the door. I could hear my mother's voice and Luther's voice.

How long has it been? Gradually, the mind returned to reality. What's going on with the banquet, what's going on with the Stuart family, who's seen it fall...….

Then my stomach hurt again. Carlisle frowned faintly. Ash did it.

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I noticed it quickly.

"Are you sick?"

He sounded embarrassed and at a loss. My heart sank. The heart beat before reason could control it. The nape of my neck tickled.

"…That's fine."

In a subdued voice, Carlisle replied. Ash breathed out a small sigh at the first return answer. The look on the cheek was so sweet that Carlyle closed her mouth.

As soon as the tension was unintentionally relieved, everything Carlyle achieved craved Ash. Carlyle forced reality to take hold of his weakness.

"Can you tell me how unconscious I am?"

"Half an hour."

Ash said without taking his eyes off Carlyle's face. I could see the fingers on my knees flinching. Before Carlyle could speak again, Ash brought it up first.

"Does it happen often?"

Carlisle was silent. There is no obligation to answer Ash. But being hard on Ash caused him a lot of pain, which immediately led to physical pain. Carlisle answered briefly because his stomach tightened again.

"No, I'm sorry.”

Ash was still sweet. It was as usual. It was Carlisle who was always lacking, even though he made a harsh remark earlier. A sense of despondency and shame poured in. I was tired. I didn't want to think about anything.

"In my absence...…Don't get sick."

But then, at Ash's words, it became impossible to think nothing. My head went blank for a moment. The word "a person in love acts foolish" came to mind again. Ash, who said he wanted to say something, and Ash, who opened his mouth as if to confess to him.

"I just hope it doesn't hurt. It really breaks my heart."

Ash's hand, which had been on his lap, reached out to him. His hand that stopped in front of his face flinched as if he would bite his cheek. Ash asked Carlyle with tearful eyes.

"Can I touch you?”

Carlisle felt like something was going up in the air at the voice asking for permission. I felt like I was going to cry. It was a desperate voice. My eyes hurt.

"Just once, let me touch you."

Why is he doing this?

Why, now... The airway tightened. My throat is clogged. What I wanted to reach was Carlisle. Ash's hand missed touching his waist. Cheeks, hands touching the face, arms tightening the upper body, soft lips...….

Carlyle's face, unanswered, drew closer. Carlyle was bitten back in the street just before she reached it. I thought I'd rather be at ease on the crazy side. Resisting the bitter temptation, Carlisle shook his head. It was clear that Ash would collapse the moment he touched it.

Ash raised his hand with a painful smile. Carlyle asked, suppressing the urge to kiss her neat, rounded nails and long fingers.

"Why are you doing this?”

He asked, barely calming his face. Instead of not being able to reach Carlisle, Ash quietly raised his hand on the sofa where he lay still saw him.

"Are you going to listen?”

His voice was very deep. Yeah, I admit it. Maybe Ash...….

"That's, I...….”

Maybe…….

"Because I love Carlisle.”

I breathed in steeply. The expression collapsed. Carlyle crumpled her eyes and bit her lips like a prickly prick. It wasn't an illusion. Believe it or not Ash was saying he loved him.

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As soon as I understood it, all sorts of emotions sprang up. The first thing that struck Carlisle was joy. For some, the word "I love you" was just a greeting, and for Carlyle it was a precious word that would never be again.

But soon there was sadness. The situation made him sad. Carlisle expressed his intention to proceed with the engagement. I had no shame to bother my family and do things for his love only. That wasn't the only one. A faint resentment sprang up. Why now?

Without knowing anything, Carlisle would have laughed at Ash's confession if it had been a month ago when he had foolishly swelled up in his sweet dreams of love. I couldn't hide my overwhelming and bursting joy, and I would have laughed like I did then.

But now Carlisle knows the pain of loss. I haven't changed my mind. His love was too variable. Ash is a popular person and is actually too much for him. Breakups always come at unexpected moments. The weight of the pain that didn't even come was already felt far away.

I needed to be certain. Whether Ash loves him, just as he loves Ash. I know. He just heard a confession. And just like Ash's behavior...I could see.

The same goes for Carlyle's eyes, who don't know much about love. Of course you don't know. In the first place, Carlyle had a myriad of misconceptions about Ash's small favor. So he may have misjudged.

But even though Ash was telling the truth, Carlyle didn't feel that Ash loved me the way he loved him.

Ash's behavior to him was disturbing. I wondered why you didn't answer the phone. There was a lot of questions about why they said they were not on a relationship, and why they were suddenly doing this a month later.

"If you need someone to enjoy for a while…….”

It's a ridiculous guess, but maybe it's because you slept with him well. It's a possibility. Ash seemed incredibly ambitious about Carlisle.

"I'll tell you, I'm not the right person."

"Carlyle is not that kind of person."

Ash said with hurtful eyes. Carlisle flinched and shut up with a sick voice. I put up with the fact that I almost said I'm sorry. With desperation from the man who ruined everything, Carlyle hoped Ash would rather have fallen out of love with him.

"I think it can be hard to believe. But, Carlisle."

But Ash didn't leave his seat.

"I love Carlisle with all my heart."

Carlisle closed his eyes. It was pathetic that I just couldn't accept this answer. For the first time, resentment for my life soared. I envied a life where I could accept Ash's love casually.

Carlyle, who had been silent, made eye contact with Ash. The whispers outside the door had now subsided. Only Ash and my breath rang quietly in the room.

"I……."

He raised his hand to cover the snow, and swept it down. With tired eyes Carlyle said to Ash. There was nowhere to run. The weak body was exhausted. The mind, the body, all exhausted.

Instead of silence and escape, Carlyle finally decided to tell Ash a little truth. It was a judgment based on necessity. Indeed, that was all.

"I'm not in a position to go out with someone easily."

Sadly, it was.

"Today, I've decided to choose my fiance. If I were to...….”

I managed to remove my lips from the moonlight.

"If I accept your confession, I must forsake my duty and my life."

I know. Ordinary people only socialize, but they don't assume these things. I'll just act, meet, and break up as I please. But Carlisle was not an ordinary person. I didn't even become such a person.

"Even in doing so...… to the extent that I accept you..”

That's the reality. As he spoke, Carlisle could not imagine himself free from duty. There is still a rope hanging around his neck, but Carlyle will not run away if he releases it. Because he's been raised like that all his life. It was pathetic.

"Mr. Jones's heart towards me...…I don't think it's that heavy."

And it didn't feel like Carlisle was worth it to do that. I was so tired that I was swayed by his life. Being a sex partner for Kyle and Carlyle...… you must have suffered a lot. It was new to me how selfish his actions were to connect with Ash. Even if it continues, my grandfather...….

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"That's not true."

But Ash didn't back down again this time. The unshakable voice was still caring and lovely. Carlisle ended up laughing low with a non-smiling face.

"Is that so?"

"Yes, I know today is an important day. I'm late. I'm bothering Carlyle. But Carlisle...….”

Ash asked, drooping her eyebrows.

"Are you happy?"

Carlisle was silent.

"I'm not. I'm not happy without Carlisle. If I miss Carlisle like this, if I'm any later, I'll regret it for the rest of my life."

But people can't always be happy. So was happiness, just as you couldn't have everything.

"A man cannot have everything."

"But I think we have to do our best to get the most precious thing."

Ash said firmly. The man shone even at these moments. Carlisle realized anew why he was bound to be loved. Ash was a beautiful person.

"Do you think I'll be your most precious person in years?"

Ash doesn't know how lacking and lacking Carlisle is. Ash doesn't know him just as he doesn't know much about Ash. As we got to know each other and saw Carlyle's lack of skills, we thought Ash would be sick of it. I'm still not sure. I'm sure Ash will be there for the rest of his life.

I know how ridiculous this is. You didn't even promise to get married, but you assumed that you'd live your whole life before dating. It's something that gives me goosebumps. I know. I know.…, for the life of me, I couldn't accept Ash without this conviction.

"Yes, Carlisle."

Again, Carlisle shook his head with a firm voice. Slowly, I got up on the sofa and avoided my eyes.

"It's hard to believe.”

"How can I get you to trust me?"

I wish I knew the answer.

"I don't know."

Carlisle admitted. My heart was so hard. I just hated myself for not being able to simply say "no" and "no" if I liked it. I was tired.

"There are people waiting for me. I've been away for a long time, so I think I'll have to go back now. What you helped me with is...….”

After a brief hesitation, Carlisle thanked.

"Thank you."

"Carlyle."

Carlisle shook his head to Ash calling him back.

"I want to stop talking today.”

"Then is the next time all right?"

Carlisle pulled himself up from the sofa. Looking down at Ash, Carlyle caught him for a long time.

"I don't think you'll have a chance.”

Now he will return to the banquet hall. I can't ask any more questions when I finish my engagement story. If that happens, Ash can't see anymore. I had to block the opportunity to meet again at all costs. It's going through a rough patch now, but a year later, two years later, I'll probably forget Ash before you die.

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Can I ask where to read the novel?? IM DYING TO READ IT IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND IT

buttonssyu · Jun 14, 2022

catsforz said: ↑

Hello, if you were able to get the novel, please share with me

Chapter 12 of the novel corresponds to chapters 14-15 of the manhwa
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I didn’t get it

HPrince96 · Jun 19, 2022

mj209 said: ↑

thank you
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Can I have it too? TT

SanityisOverrated · Jun 19, 2022

kieranfortier said: ↑

What?? So unfair that Lyle only get pregnant in the AU extra.

I mean, Omegaverse always confuse me, because I’ve read quite a few where alphas can get pregnant (just rare to happen) and many others where alphas can’t get pregnant at all. Im never sure which is the case.

anyway, someone knows the novel x manhwa equivalent? Season 1 ends where in the novel (before the break up?)

and what about Ash knotting :O?
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Ok, so for people who are curious ABO world's come in at least 3 flavors/settings.
Setting 1: Only females and omega can get pregnant.

Setting 2: Everyone can have babies it is more of a fertility rate issue (alphas being most likely to impregnate but least likely to get impregnated)

Setting 3: There are so few omega now that "evolution" occurs. Basically if you weren't an omega before but were on the receiving end of alpha pheromones (boning and biting) you will your body will change into an omega body.

How can you tell what flavor the ABO is?.....Good effin question let me know if you figure it out. All we have is context clues or someone blatantly getting knocked up.
The original story is setting 1 and the AU is setting 2 I think.

Momoiro · Jun 20, 2022

If anyone has the novel, please share it with me.

Pra · Jun 20, 2022

Hello if you have the novel can you please send it to me I wanna read it so bad <\3

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Desperate · Jun 28, 2022

I'm disappointed that Lyle forgave ash that quickly... He should've let himself move on and keep himself busy. Idk, I just don't like ask.

ElisSeatOfDreams · Jul 15, 2022

Can someone also share to me a copy of the mtl of this. I really want to read this so much.

akera93 · Jul 16, 2022

Does anyone know where I can read the novel? Thank you in advance

seea · Jul 16, 2022

mj209 said: ↑

thank you
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Please can I ask for a copy too? I discovered this forum too late and I really would loved to read it

isekai girl boss · Jul 19, 2022

mj209 said: ↑

thank you
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i want to read it too plss

kiruhope · Jul 23, 2022

Pra said: ↑

Hello if you have the novel can you please send it to me I wanna read it so bad <\3
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If possible can you please send it to me? I want to read it

wasabisazzdafirst said: ↑

No problem! If you want to know anything else, feel free to ask im having way too much fun with this haha
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Do you have the link to the MTL ?

xiao Yi · Jul 23, 2022

wasabisazzdafirst said: ↑

btw this happened at the engagement party when lyle was engaged to an elite omega after their break up

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First, I wanted to ask after you. Ever since I heard that I cried, I've been worried about that face. I also wanted to ask if he had eaten properly or if he was very upset. And he said he wanted to define a relationship that had been twisted from the beginning.….

……Carlyle?

With so many thoughts rushing up, Ash found a familiar face. I could see the sharp profile at a glance. The shoes stopped in place. My eyes opened wide. The heart that had stopped for a moment, soon began to beat at a frightening speed.

Carlisle was clear.

Blood circulated throughout the body with the heart that started beating painfully fast. The shoes scratched the floor. Carlyle turned her head as she took a step to move.

Calm gray eyes stared straight at Ash. Eyes are crossed. Carlyle's face was seen at a glance even though it was quite a long distance. I felt nauseous as if something I had pressed down on was exploding. Sad longing and unbearable joy were mixed at the same time.

"Carl……."

My lips are open. The name, which was wandering around without finding its owner, met the other person. Laughter permeated without even knowing if he was laughing. But Ash couldn't call Carlyle's name to the end.

This is because the eyes that I had encountered were cut off.

Carlisle, who looked at Ash with a dull, cold eye, turned away. Like you didn't see anything. There was no change in facial expression, as there was in the air.

Carlyle, who turned her head, turned her body just as it was. He continued to talk to the woman he was talking to and started walking outside the party hall. Perhaps a party planner.

Not understanding for a moment what happened in front of her eyes, Ash blinked.

Oh…….

My hair is white. I didn't think of this reaction. More painful than finding Carlisle's empty mansion, it was burning inside.

With a smiling face, Ash raised her hand. The hand that was smoothing his lips swept down his neck.

"Ash?"

Nick, who came from the phone, called him from behind. But I couldn't hear it properly. Ash, who managed to come up with something to say, said Nick without looking back.

"Nick, excuse me."

Before hearing the answer, Ash began to walk. The slow-moving bridge soon increased its speed.

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My thighs are tense. His long legs widened the stride by clenching and loosening his fists.

At once across the banquet hall, Ash walked like a leap in the direction Carlyle disappeared. He chased the man in a hasty and nervous move. Otherwise, I thought I'd lose it.

Carlisle didn't go far. The woman next to him came back and passed by Ash. The glance at his face was also not caught by Ash's eyes. Only Carlisle was seen.

The whole body, unconscious, missed Carlisle.

The new look on Carlyle's back made it obvious. Carlyle's image was engraved on his mind without even realizing it. He missed the neat back of walking while texting him. I missed the past when I could approach him casually and hug him. I didn't know how much of a privilege it was to be able to reach a man like that.

Now, I wish I could do that.

Feeling about to cry, Ash stopped. Then he opened his mouth.

"Carlyle."

Ash's voice rang in the only long hallway. Without looking back, the man walking quietly stopped.

The sound of shoes that used to ring at regular intervals also stopped. The last few seconds passed. In a stifling silence, Carlisle turned slowly.

No different than before, I could see a blank face.

"Carlyle."

I called his name again. My throat is clogged. My throat ached and suffocated as if I had stuck something dry in my throat. Words that I thought were nothing but white volatilized.

It was hard to say a word, contrary to expectations. It didn't fit in with Ash Jones at all. It was hard to see him as a man who was always skilled and relaxed.

"Long time no see."

Carlyle's eyes stared indifferently at him at the slowly leaking horse. It's only three steps. Even though it was only that distance, Carlyle looked very far away.

Once again, there was a heavy silence. I couldn't even hear my breath. Inorganic gray eyes, unknown to what he was thinking, stared straight at Ash. After a long silence, Carlisle finally opened his mouth.

"Long time no see, Mr. Jones."

It was a hard and cold voice. The title, which indicates a clear distance from formal words, was painfully embedded in my ear. Ash laughed.

When I was asked to call my name, I remembered a voice that was awkward but finally corrected the name. I barely finished two months before I called your name.

It hurt.

"How have you been?”

In a soft voice, Ash asked. I took a step towards Carlisle, who was not moving. Carlyle's gaze stopped at his shoes and returned to its original place.

"What brings you here?"

Carlyle did not reply to a question of regards. The expression was still the same. It seemed to be blocked by a wall. With a businesslike tone, Ash chose a horse for a momentarily. I'm heartbroken.

There's no way to know what Carlyle was like. But if that's Carlisle's attitude toward others, it's clear that Ash has been receiving special treatment. I didn't know it was so precious.

"I'm here to tell you something."

Ash said calmly. With a sad smile on his face, he took another step toward Carlyle. Now the distance between the two is one step away. Carlisle lowered his gaze again. Carlyle, who was looking at the distance just before he reached, struck Ash with a dry voice.

"I'm sorry."

Words ensued.

"I don't think I'll have time to listen.”

In an apparent voice, Carlisle backed down. One step, and one step again. The sound of hard heels rang. Carlyle, who stepped back as much as Ash had walked, spoke to end the conversation.

"Then, get home safely."

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Carlyle turned around without asking any more questions. Looking at his cold back, Ash unwittingly reached out. Just like when running, mistaking the back of someone who didn't even know his name for Carlisle, his hand reached out urgently.

My fingers touched my wrist, which was shaking quietly. Weakly, but desperately grasped the wrist. The cool heat that was coming from it spread throughout the body. I even felt that my thirst, which was drying up, was relieved.

"Just a few seconds."

I could see Carlisle's eyes pausing. Still expressionless, Ash went straight on.

"That day, what were you going to say?”

Without giving him time to answer, Ash said again.

"I've been thinking about it. You said you wanted to tell me something. That's what he wanted to say when he came to pick me up."

I looked straight in the eye. Smiling hidden beneath a blank face, Ash spoke in a calm yet convincing voice.

"I don't think that was meant to end the meeting. I think it's the other way around."

With painful eyes, Ash laughed. He whispered apologistically, feeling sorry, guilt and affection.

"Did I make a mistake that day?”

What I said, did it hurt you? Then how many times have I hurt you?

"So……."

"Mr. Jones."

Carlisle, who seemed to leave him alone, slowly opened his mouth. The voice was still the same. With a cold voice, Ash's hand touched the back of his cold voice.

Slowly reaching out, one by one, took Ash's fingers off. The fingers that held my wrist slowly came off. After removing the index finger that had reached the end, Carlyle lowered her hand. Ash's hand, which held his wrist, fell into the air.

"You're wasting my time."

As if it was not worth listening to anymore, it was a firm voice. This horse hurt a little more painful. It was hard to do smiling eyes.

I couldn't see Carlyle's innermost thoughts. Then I felt distant. I felt as if there was no answer as if there was a wall everywhere. Has it ever been this difficult? Have you ever had such a hard time understanding someone's feelings?

But Ash soon recalled a painting in Kyle's hand. I remembered a blindingly dark blue and purple, and a smiling figure hidden by shadows. It also occurred to me that it was Carlisle who saved the painting.

I don't think anyone who has been looking for my mother's relics with such sincerity would have forgotten me so easily.

There will be people like that. Sometimes some love burns like fire, burns the soul, quickly ashes and runs out. Ash has also done so.

But for those who don't even date, the man in front of him who spent so much time searching for the painting, opened his mind very slowly. It took me two months to see a smile. It took a long time to be named. So I wanted to believe it.

The man still cares about Ash Jones.

With his sinking eyes, Ash shook his head. I erased my laughter.

"I'm sorry to disturb you."

It doesn't matter what mistakes either made to each other, or whether Ash tried to be considerate of him, it doesn'

"But I can't help it.”

The important thing was one emotion that he became convinced of.

"A person in love, often becomes a fool."

Because Ash Jones loves Carlisle,

"Don't you remember? There's only one time left, we'll meet."

Any wounds Carlyle would give, I'm ready to take.

"A contract is a contract. I don't think Carlisle is the one who doesn't do that for sure, do you?"

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sorry for the shitty spoiler titles, i literally dk how else to title them

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He was the eldest son of the countess who chose him for his engagement. Omega Joel Stewart was three years younger than Carlisle.

The Stuart family, who have been producing politicians and working for the munitions industry for generations, was determined to help his family, which had relatively few politicians.

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My eyelashes trembled. A breath torn into thousands of branches squeezed through the cracks in his lips. My head was tingling. I felt dizzy. I couldn't understand what was happening before my eyes. A series of things that happened in a matter of minutes was all in question.

Why is Ash Jones here?

Carlisle kept his mouth shut at the spilling sentences without giving him time to list them properly. The wrist that was caught was burning like an invisible fire. It was like boiling oil, not blood, flowing through the veins. It hurt that much.

Are you sure…… is it real?

Carlisle laughed inwardly at the first eye contact. Too much delusion has developed into a pathogen and you're hallucinating. It was clear that the image of the man on the retina under the eyelids was now drawn in a different way.

Carlisle turned his eyes and tried to continue the conversation again. But I couldn't hear a single party planner recalling the last order of today's banquet.

Moving from place to place, Carlisle tried to forget the frightening vivid hallucinations he had just witnessed. But I couldn't. Hallucination was soon followed him by the auditory hallucinations. The name was called. With such a vivid voice, Carlisle ended up looking back. Pathetically.

Ash in the delusion was both very real and false. Carlyle once again reacted pitifully when asked how he was doing. It was obvious that others would treat him strangely if they saw him. Talking to the air.

But the conversation really continued. Ash replied to Carlyle's words. Furthermore, he continued to talk to Carlisle, who was not answering. My face gradually got closer. Ash's scent, which will never be forgotten in death, has grown. The cool and friendly scent that he had missed even in his dream gently wrapped around him.

Why?

Why is Ash looking for him now? The man who said he wasn't in any relationship didn't catch him. He didn't answer the phone. I haven't seen him in a month. It did not follow or ask why. And now I ask him again about the day.

My heart quickly collapsed. The support piled up with sand repeatedly broke down and broke down as if it were collapsing. I felt like my feet were turning off. All kinds of emotions swirled and shook Carlisle vigorously.

With a first look on his face, Carlyle even felt the urge to kneel when he saw Ash asking if he had made a mistake. I just wanted to hold Ash and collapse. But I had to put up with it.

It's a day for the engagement. His fate was set anyway. Carlyle's head came up with numerous reasons to reject Ash.

I don't know why or how a man came to visit him, but he probably doesn't feel the same way as Carlisle. If so, I wouldn't have left Carlisle this long.

Carlyle was a far cry from Ash in the first place. But in fact, there was something else that scared Carlisle the most.

Carlyle never had the power to endure this terrible pain again.

What if you accept Ash and meet him, and break up? What if Ash gets sick of him again? What if you get tired of my boring, blunt self and leave me?

How much will it hurt then?

I couldn't even guess. It was a pain that I couldn' You may want to die then. It was such a deep and foolish love. I didn't feel like I could love anyone other than Ash in my life.

If you look around him, he's always been the only one around him. Kyle, his mother, loved only one person in her life. To the extent that it feels like a curse to the name Frost, his family has only one person.

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I loved you.

And Carlyle foolishly chose Ash Jones as the object of love that would only exist once.

Ash would have had many loved ones. But Carlisle wasn't like that. Carlyle was certain to be unable to bear Ash's loss twice if she tried to release her pent-up emotions again and let it occupy her soul. I had such a hunch.

So I had to refuse. Ash may not be Carlisle, but Carlisle was not. There was tension all over the body.

With a little carelessness, it's clear that longing and affection will run away, and Carlisle pressed himself hard and hardened his face. I said something hurtful.

Carlyle felt the pain of dying when he told Ash that he was wasting his time.

Looking at his sorely bent eyes and smiling face, Carlisle felt that he had become the most ruthless man in the world.

But Ash didn't back off.

"We didn't spend the last weekend together, Carlisle."

I felt awkward when I didn't smile. His desperate voice was unfamiliar. Carlisle blankly remembered that one of Ash's earlier words was the word "love." What does it mean to say that a person in love often becomes a fool?

"What Carlisle wanted to say, you don't have to say it if you don't want to."

Ash narrowed the streets again. He walked three steps beyond two steps back. I could see eyes looking down at him right in front of me. There was some emotion in the sunken gray eyes and blue eyes.

Ash has never seen Carlisle like that before. My heart started beating as if it would stop because I didn't understand the situation. I wanted to raise my hand and press down on my ribs.

"I'll tell you. I want to say something."

A ridiculous assumption came to mind. Ash, maybe...….

"Carlyle, you...….”

Carlisle shook his head. He raised his hand and pushed Ash's shoulder away. He intercepted the words with a determined expression that he would not listen. You can't take that horse in. I almost misunderstood again. What was the end of the illusion? Wasn't it woefully empty?

"I don't know if you know."

I don't want to let Ash talk. Foolishly enough, Ash's words will leave him unable to fulfill his duty. I'll give you my heart again without a plan for the future that I'm going to break up.

"Today, I'm meeting someone who's going to be my soulmate."

He stood straight up with strength on his leg that almost stumbled. Straightened up to the point of arrogance and looked at Ash. He looked up slightly, but continued with a cold look.

"So I don't want you to embarrass me anymore."

You shouldn't be here. Looking at Ash's hurtful eyes, Carlisle felt like he had ruined everything.

"Go back, Mr. Jones."

There is no turning back. Carlisle gave up, creating his own worst. He was an idiot who didn't know how to build a relationship, and he wasn't as resistant to overcoming pain and wounds as others. After listening to Ash, I chose to push him away because I was not confident of enduring future pain rather than finding happiness right away.

I don't know why you're looking for Carlisle now, but I don't know what he's thinking...….

Ash will be fine. There will be many people who will love him.

Carlisle turned around without giving Ash a chance to hold on. I squeezed my lips, urging my wrist not to get stuck. Carlyle left, stinging and ignoring the pain rising.

poor lyle my heart hurts so much for him. give this baby a break already

Carlyle reached out her hand as she made eye contact with Joel Stewart, who followed.

I felt a fragrant and sweet smell. It was the scent of Omega that seduced Alpha. Perhaps his scent feels similar to Joel's.

However, Carlyle felt unbearable pain as soon as she smelled the scent. The future has been drawn. His future is to caress Joel with all his heart, mix up to satisfy him, give birth to children and belong faithfully to the family to connect generations.

Something that supported reason and thought was mixed randomly in my head. Panic is here. The pressure and inflammation that I felt every time I hugged Omega dug my brain like a piece of cake.

I wasn't confident of hugging Joel. I didn't have the confidence to mix with someone I didn't love. Can't do it.

Carlyle managed to guide them to the banquet hall, keeping a smiling face. You can't show yourself in front of a guest. It'll be fine if you buy time somehow.

Carlyle asked for understanding that she would leave her seat for a while, pressing down on the pressure that soared to her throat. I didn't even notice Alice and Jonathan's eyes touching my back.

The complexion turned white. The whole body became cold as if the blood were not circulating. Carlyle crossed the corridor, covering her mouth with her hands. My body trembled and soon I broke out in a cold sweat.

My stomach ached like a squeeze. Carlyle eventually stopped walking due to the pain of digging in the gut, which is different from breaking bones or wounding wounds.

I groped with my trembling hands and pressed down under my ribs. Carlyle bent over, swallowing what almost leaked. I felt dizzy. My legs are weak.

Wait a minute, if I take a break...….

Carlyle reached to the side to find something to supportive. The hand stirred in the air. The shaky body soon collapsed.

At the same time, someone called Carlisle from behind. Something solid supported him from behind. At the same time as several voices were heard, Carlyle felt her vision turning. My eyes are closed.

The view blinked as if light were coming into the light bulb. The memory of being cut off flooded in at once. I managed to open my heavy eyelids. The bitterness came from the inside, but it wasn't unbearable.

Carlisle turned his eyes for a moment to figure out the situation. Slowly exhaled and turned his head. He was in the room. It was a drawing room. I turned around and found myself lying on the sofa.

"Carlyle."

A friendly voice called out the name. A shadow cast over the body. In the midst of dizziness, Carlyle noticed who the opponent was at once. It was Ash. It was hard to grasp the situation at once. I felt unbearable pain. Unbelievably, he seemed to have fainted.

Carlyle, as reticent as he was, was quite gifted at persevering. I was ashamed that I lost my mind because I couldn't manage my stress properly, which was not a serious illness.

But the blame didn't last long. The fact that Ash was in this room embarrassed him. I remember someone supporting him. Is it Ash? Then I should have thanked you. Even if I tried to push him away at a distance.

I heard the sound of shoes. I saw a long leg, and Ash reached out and pulled the chair. Ash sat on the chair in a calm motion. I blinked.

The view became a little clearer. Admitting that it was a vague situation to avoid the position immediately gave rise to faint greed. I wanted to keep Ash's face in my eyes, which I couldn't even look at because I was in a hurry. Before I let him go.

"Do you come to your senses?”

Ash asked quietly. I could see a subdued expression. The eyes that didn't smile looked sad somehow. Come to think of it, Ash was wearing a suit.

I've never seen such a costume before. The black suit was as elegant as it was made for Ash, and the one wearing it was very beautiful. However, my hair was a little messy.

The subtle pheromone soothed the stomach. Apart from the complexity in my head, my body gradually began to calm down. His long-lost body welcomed his opponent regardless of being Alpha's pheromone.

As his senses slowly returned, Carlyle heard a whisper outside the door. I could hear my mother's voice and Luther's voice.

How long has it been? Gradually, the mind returned to reality. What's going on with the banquet, what's going on with the Stuart family, who's seen it fall...….

Then my stomach hurt again. Carlisle frowned faintly. Ash did it.

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I noticed it quickly.

"Are you sick?"

He sounded embarrassed and at a loss. My heart sank. The heart beat before reason could control it. The nape of my neck tickled.

"…That's fine."

In a subdued voice, Carlisle replied. Ash breathed out a small sigh at the first return answer. The look on the cheek was so sweet that Carlyle closed her mouth.

As soon as the tension was unintentionally relieved, everything Carlyle achieved craved Ash. Carlyle forced reality to take hold of his weakness.

"Can you tell me how unconscious I am?"

"Half an hour."

Ash said without taking his eyes off Carlyle's face. I could see the fingers on my knees flinching. Before Carlyle could speak again, Ash brought it up first.

"Does it happen often?"

Carlisle was silent. There is no obligation to answer Ash. But being hard on Ash caused him a lot of pain, which immediately led to physical pain. Carlisle answered briefly because his stomach tightened again.

"No, I'm sorry.”

Ash was still sweet. It was as usual. It was Carlisle who was always lacking, even though he made a harsh remark earlier. A sense of despondency and shame poured in. I was tired. I didn't want to think about anything.

"In my absence...…Don't get sick."

But then, at Ash's words, it became impossible to think nothing. My head went blank for a moment. The word "a person in love acts foolish" came to mind again. Ash, who said he wanted to say something, and Ash, who opened his mouth as if to confess to him.

"I just hope it doesn't hurt. It really breaks my heart."

Ash's hand, which had been on his lap, reached out to him. His hand that stopped in front of his face flinched as if he would bite his cheek. Ash asked Carlyle with tearful eyes.

"Can I touch you?”

Carlisle felt like something was going up in the air at the voice asking for permission. I felt like I was going to cry. It was a desperate voice. My eyes hurt.

"Just once, let me touch you."

Why is he doing this?

Why, now... The airway tightened. My throat is clogged. What I wanted to reach was Carlisle. Ash's hand missed touching his waist. Cheeks, hands touching the face, arms tightening the upper body, soft lips...….

Carlyle's face, unanswered, drew closer. Carlyle was bitten back in the street just before she reached it. I thought I'd rather be at ease on the crazy side. Resisting the bitter temptation, Carlisle shook his head. It was clear that Ash would collapse the moment he touched it.

Ash raised his hand with a painful smile. Carlyle asked, suppressing the urge to kiss her neat, rounded nails and long fingers.

"Why are you doing this?”

He asked, barely calming his face. Instead of not being able to reach Carlisle, Ash quietly raised his hand on the sofa where he lay still saw him.

"Are you going to listen?”

His voice was very deep. Yeah, I admit it. Maybe Ash...….

"That's, I...….”

Maybe…….

"Because I love Carlisle.”

I breathed in steeply. The expression collapsed. Carlyle crumpled her eyes and bit her lips like a prickly prick. It wasn't an illusion. Believe it or not Ash was saying he loved him.

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As soon as I understood it, all sorts of emotions sprang up. The first thing that struck Carlisle was joy. For some, the word "I love you" was just a greeting, and for Carlyle it was a precious word that would never be again.

But soon there was sadness. The situation made him sad. Carlisle expressed his intention to proceed with the engagement. I had no shame to bother my family and do things for his love only. That wasn't the only one. A faint resentment sprang up. Why now?

Without knowing anything, Carlisle would have laughed at Ash's confession if it had been a month ago when he had foolishly swelled up in his sweet dreams of love. I couldn't hide my overwhelming and bursting joy, and I would have laughed like I did then.

But now Carlisle knows the pain of loss. I haven't changed my mind. His love was too variable. Ash is a popular person and is actually too much for him. Breakups always come at unexpected moments. The weight of the pain that didn't even come was already felt far away.

I needed to be certain. Whether Ash loves him, just as he loves Ash. I know. He just heard a confession. And just like Ash's behavior...I could see.

The same goes for Carlyle's eyes, who don't know much about love. Of course you don't know. In the first place, Carlyle had a myriad of misconceptions about Ash's small favor. So he may have misjudged.

But even though Ash was telling the truth, Carlyle didn't feel that Ash loved me the way he loved him.

Ash's behavior to him was disturbing. I wondered why you didn't answer the phone. There was a lot of questions about why they said they were not on a relationship, and why they were suddenly doing this a month later.

"If you need someone to enjoy for a while…….”

It's a ridiculous guess, but maybe it's because you slept with him well. It's a possibility. Ash seemed incredibly ambitious about Carlisle.

"I'll tell you, I'm not the right person."

"Carlyle is not that kind of person."

Ash said with hurtful eyes. Carlisle flinched and shut up with a sick voice. I put up with the fact that I almost said I'm sorry. With desperation from the man who ruined everything, Carlyle hoped Ash would rather have fallen out of love with him.

"I think it can be hard to believe. But, Carlisle."

But Ash didn't leave his seat.

"I love Carlisle with all my heart."

Carlisle closed his eyes. It was pathetic that I just couldn't accept this answer. For the first time, resentment for my life soared. I envied a life where I could accept Ash's love casually.

Carlyle, who had been silent, made eye contact with Ash. The whispers outside the door had now subsided. Only Ash and my breath rang quietly in the room.

"I……."

He raised his hand to cover the snow, and swept it down. With tired eyes Carlyle said to Ash. There was nowhere to run. The weak body was exhausted. The mind, the body, all exhausted.

Instead of silence and escape, Carlyle finally decided to tell Ash a little truth. It was a judgment based on necessity. Indeed, that was all.

"I'm not in a position to go out with someone easily."

Sadly, it was.

"Today, I've decided to choose my fiance. If I were to...….”

I managed to remove my lips from the moonlight.

"If I accept your confession, I must forsake my duty and my life."

I know. Ordinary people only socialize, but they don't assume these things. I'll just act, meet, and break up as I please. But Carlisle was not an ordinary person. I didn't even become such a person.

"Even in doing so...… to the extent that I accept you..”

That's the reality. As he spoke, Carlisle could not imagine himself free from duty. There is still a rope hanging around his neck, but Carlyle will not run away if he releases it. Because he's been raised like that all his life. It was pathetic.

"Mr. Jones's heart towards me...…I don't think it's that heavy."

And it didn't feel like Carlisle was worth it to do that. I was so tired that I was swayed by his life. Being a sex partner for Kyle and Carlyle...… you must have suffered a lot. It was new to me how selfish his actions were to connect with Ash. Even if it continues, my grandfather...….

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"That's not true."

But Ash didn't back down again this time. The unshakable voice was still caring and lovely. Carlisle ended up laughing low with a non-smiling face.

"Is that so?"

"Yes, I know today is an important day. I'm late. I'm bothering Carlyle. But Carlisle...….”

Ash asked, drooping her eyebrows.

"Are you happy?"

Carlisle was silent.

"I'm not. I'm not happy without Carlisle. If I miss Carlisle like this, if I'm any later, I'll regret it for the rest of my life."

But people can't always be happy. So was happiness, just as you couldn't have everything.

"A man cannot have everything."

"But I think we have to do our best to get the most precious thing."

Ash said firmly. The man shone even at these moments. Carlisle realized anew why he was bound to be loved. Ash was a beautiful person.

"Do you think I'll be your most precious person in years?"

Ash doesn't know how lacking and lacking Carlisle is. Ash doesn't know him just as he doesn't know much about Ash. As we got to know each other and saw Carlyle's lack of skills, we thought Ash would be sick of it. I'm still not sure. I'm sure Ash will be there for the rest of his life.

I know how ridiculous this is. You didn't even promise to get married, but you assumed that you'd live your whole life before dating. It's something that gives me goosebumps. I know. I know.…, for the life of me, I couldn't accept Ash without this conviction.

"Yes, Carlisle."

Again, Carlisle shook his head with a firm voice. Slowly, I got up on the sofa and avoided my eyes.

"It's hard to believe.”

"How can I get you to trust me?"

I wish I knew the answer.

"I don't know."

Carlisle admitted. My heart was so hard. I just hated myself for not being able to simply say "no" and "no" if I liked it. I was tired.

"There are people waiting for me. I've been away for a long time, so I think I'll have to go back now. What you helped me with is...….”

After a brief hesitation, Carlisle thanked.

"Thank you."

"Carlyle."

Carlisle shook his head to Ash calling him back.

"I want to stop talking today.”

"Then is the next time all right?"

Carlisle pulled himself up from the sofa. Looking down at Ash, Carlyle caught him for a long time.

"I don't think you'll have a chance.”

Now he will return to the banquet hall. I can't ask any more questions when I finish my engagement story. If that happens, Ash can't see anymore. I had to block the opportunity to meet again at all costs. It's going through a rough patch now, but a year later, two years later, I'll probably forget Ash before you die.

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kmy · Jul 24, 2022

somehow the manhwa just feels really intense/sensual!

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kiruhope said: ↑

If possible can you please send it to me? I want to read it

Do you have the link to the MTL ?
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If anyone has the novel, please share it with me.
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If anyone has the novel, please share it with me.
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Hi there! Sorry for troubling you, can I have the l whole novel Define the Relationship? i really want known the novel story can send me kindly plz.

Can I please ask for a copy, as well. I really want to read the full novel.can send me kindly plz.
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