Spoiler How to Get My Husband on My Side -남편을 내 편으로 만드는 방법

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  1. Arcrea

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    It's just a speculation. Really just a speculation. But if Freya was daredevil enough to tried to poison herself to place the blame on Rubeckia. Could it be possible that she was partly be the one behind it. As Rubeckia had told, no matter what, Cesare or her family wouldn't be so sloppy in their actions. Pertaining to Ellenia's poisoning, wouldn't it be natural to think that the one at fault would be Romagna even if they don't do anything. Besides it was once mentioned that their divorce was enough to become the driving force. Means that Romagna has no plan of being friendly to Britannia but just using Ruby as a pawn.

    It was just a what if story.
    When Izek realizes his feelings for Rubeckia, Freya would feel it wrong. Something that shouldn't occur happened. No matter how much she hides her hostility towards Rubeckia and slowly forming a wedge between the couple. The two still fell in love with each other. Still the divorce was in process as they never slept together. He had no way of stopping it and she also had no intention to. This makes their break up clean. On that time, Ellenia talk to Ruby. she wants to persuade her. It wasn't known just how deep the feelings are but Ellenia had actually like her sister in law. Just that she turns a blind eye on things she doesn't have a hold to. But Ruby let it go. The last bit of hope that her husband would love her and save her through that hell. She already gives up. It was already half a year but their love and hate only continues on. Adding the fact that no matter what she did, no one will believe her. She's tired. That was all. She couldn't hold on to her husband even if he loves her in the end.

    But just like anything else, despite the distance, his feelings for her was already deep. Freya finds it as a disturbance to Izek's future. But she can't find any reason for Izek to completely hate Ruby. Left with nothing, the news of Ellenia's marriage break out. Chances come. It wouldn't hurt, if it was just poisoned. So long as Ellenia didn't die. The blame will fall on Romagna. But, things get to worse. Ellenia died. Rubeckia heard the news. Other's misfortune could be someone else's happiness (sorry I forgot the qoute). The poisoning becomes Cesare's sloppy act. And the one who became the suspect was, none other than Ruby.

    Meanwhile, her last fiancee, felt sorry for her. He knew that her family was unusual. And that they are full of crafty people, but Ruby never been the reason of his reputation plummeting but her brother, Cesare. And so he went to Britannia, in the hope of at least clearing Ruby's name. That she was forced to do it.

    Izek knew Ruby wouldn't hurt his sister. He believes in her. But then till the end she made everything her fault. Their love ended ill-fated. In the end, Ruby let go and died in his arms.

    Still if God feel sorry for her, she let her live somewhere far from the pain. But she still ended with the same life. So if only she could know her past. Maybe, just maybe she'll end with happiness. And so the next timeline rolls.

    This is just a what if story. Made from adding the part she read in her past life and those weird dreams she had. Sorry for the sloppy story telling. I'm no good at it. I just find Freya as someone who was spoiled in her life that she at times thinks that what she wants, she has to have it. Even if that could hurt others. She knew her advantage and remind kind in the eye of others while hiding her sinister side.
     
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    Yeah, that's why I said "it's not as if".

    As I already said, she doesn't know everything that happened in that timeline. There's no point in reiterating what it says in the that novel she read when that novel doesn't necessarily show the full story and the actual behind the scenes.
    Idk how to explain what I mean. Hope this example helps: say, Ruby and Ellenia were having tea and Caesar had someone else poison Ellenia's tea during their tea time. So everyone would think Ruby did it and Ruby would also play along, 'cause no reason to deny (I already explained before). That novel painted Rudbeckia as the villain, whereas what we see from that dream is that she wasn't such a shit person. Unless that novel stated that Ruby poured the poison herself, the reader would still expect and understand that the villaness did it. That novel just presented certain sides of the story, it also didn't mention that Izek was in love with the "villainess of the novel" (opposite of what our mc knows from the novel) and says he killed her when it was more like she killed herself.
    Again, the fact that she didn't kill Elenia is just my opinion, as I've said. She could have killed her indeed or Cesar could have done it without Ruby. But the fact that our MC thinks Ruby did it from the novel she read is not proof that she actually did it. It was just blamed on her and she admitted to it, which could've happened regardless of if she did it or not.


    I meant flashback 'cause it shows what happened to her soul in the past.
    It wasn't a scene from the novel she read, nor what she thought of the original, bcz Ruby thought Izek had no interest in "the villainess" Ruby. Nor did she think so abt the present Izek and her. Our current mc never even aspired to have a relationship based on love with him, but just wanted to be on friendly enough terms so he wouldn't kill her.
    Moreover, there wouldn't have been any reason to show us, the readers, this dream if it wasn't what happened in the prev timeline, since Ruby didn't even remember the dream after she woke up. Literally no reason to show us sth that has no relation to the "real" story and the person who dreamt it doesn't even remember. There's no point. So I will definitely treat that dream as a flashback for us readers.

    Who knows, it's not completely impossible. But I did have suspicions abt Caesar being involved with Freya for her own poisoning.
    What we do know is that Freya's uncle, the priest was also Caesar's coon and even tried to curry favor with Ruby. I think he was in on Freya's poisoning incident as well, 'cause she needed someone in and how convenient is it that her uncle is a priest in the church the whole thing took place? Then wouldn't this plan also very probably have to do with Caesar? Who heard Ruby was getting along well with her husband and wanted to create a rift?

    Tbh, I'm baffled how anyone couldn't have realized that this poisoning incident was just for show btw. I mean, you'd have to be the stupidest assassin ever to try to kill someone in a church where there are usually priests with divine power and especially at the moment they're all gathered for an event. As if the plan wasn't to kill her, but just to create a scene and have the priests heal her immediately. What kind of assassination is this where you'd use the worst place, worst time and worst way to kill sbdy...this is obviously not an assassination attempt at all.

    Plus the fact that Ruby had no reason. Freya was neither Izek's old love or ex-lover, nor was he currently interested in her. If anyhthing, it is Freya who clearly showed intentions for Izek before that'd be jealous of his current wife. Love or not, Ruby has a connection to Izek by marriage, whereas she's merely a friend. Tho I don't get where her delusions that Izek will eventually end up with her come from. After all, if anything was to happen between them, it would've happened even before Ruby came along. But they never got involved romantically all this time and Izek wasn't even ever interested in any woman before Ruby.
     
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    I think it was implied in the recent translated chapter of the novel that Ruby realized Freya poisoned herself during that banquet.

    I kinda agree with it because if i recall correctly, the poison Freya consumed is said to be only a small dose so it's not that life threatening. Although it does lures some monsters in because of her blood.

    Ruby did asked Cesare about the poisoning incident and Cesare was clueless about it (i dunno if he's acting or not though). I think he said something about there's no benefit to poison the Marquis daughter (and at that point, Cesare still have no idea that Ruby and Izek relationship is getting better so he have no motive to do it). That's how Ruby come to the conclusion that Freya poisoned herself.

    So unless there's new chapter that gives a better explanation about the poisoning incident, I also have to agree with Ruby's speculation. After all, Freya almost indirectly try to kill Ruby during the riding event so we can see that she is a person who would not hesitate to hurt others (or even kill others) just for her plan to succeed. With that kind of personality, she would probably not feel remorse putting others in danger by luring the monster in (plus the whole squadron of paladins is in there so she probably calculated that part too)

    As for how nobody realized, i'd say it's partly because people choose what story they want to believe in. Isn't it easier to believe that the evil daughter of the pope is jealous of the woman who is known to be the childhood sweetheart of her husband? Most people already hold prejudice againts Ruby anyway so anything Freya do would just be fanning those prejudices no matter how illogical it is.
     
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    thank you so much @Le_Tired for your hard work translating this chapter ♥️

    Translator: Le_Tired
    Korean raws & mtl provider: ltsanchai

    Chapter 118 - The Omerta family’s paranoid conspiracy theories about the ice dragon



    The relaxing atmosphere made breakfast time pass quickly and it was soon followed by dessert.



    Rich, sweet cocoa with floating marshmallows along with a snow-white cream cake were desserts perfect for a snowy morning.



    But it seemed that I was the only one who thought so.



    Even Elenia seemed to be distracted by something.



    "Are these desserts father’s taste?"



    "What are you suddenly unhappy about? The daughter-in-law likes it."



    "Since when did you start liking them..."



    "Didn't I like them back then as well?"



    "What are you talking about when you say ‘back then’?"



    "I had the same taste back then but there are some desserts that I only recently started liking."



    The Duke, who responded slowly, sipped a glass of wine and gracefully gestured towards the attendants.



    The pale faced attendants that had been actively moving about left their positions.



    I was a little worried that Izek, who was staring at my cup of hot cocoa as if it was poisoned, might overturn the table as it is, but fortunately that didn't happen.



    However, the veins bulging from his forehead were unsettling.



    "Are you enjoying this...?" (Izek)



    "Am I the only one? Besides that, tell me why your superior has been making such a commotion since this morning." (Duke)



    "Do I need to report it to my father?" (Izek)



    "Who told you not to do it?” (Duke)



    What is this?



    My eyes widened at the sight of the pair of siblings’ cold eyes and quietly took a bite of my cake.



    "What happened?" (Duke)



    "Rather than something happening...damn it. I was going to bring it up myself so why are you pestering me about this now?” (Izek)



    "I don't want to be involved but you have to tell me in detail so that I can relay the information to his majesty". (Duke)



    "You can find out from Sir Barons (knight commander). Actually, you probably already know about it." (Izek)



    "Your superior has a tendency to exaggerate since long ago so his words are unreliable. Fu... Lately, I've been hearing peculiar noises coming from the direction of Rom’s cave since last night, Ruby." (Duke)



    If it's Rom's cave, isn't that where our dragon cub's hiding place is?



    (T/N: ‘Rom’ is supposed to be a place but I am not sure what it is since I don’t remember a location sounding similar to it when the novel talks about Erendil or the North and I’m sure it’s not referring to Romagna)



    Izek rubbed his temples in annoyance then glanced at me with an imperturbable expression.



    "I've been monitoring the area since the attack on the palace and I heard someone whining all of a sudden last night. Should I say that it sounds more like wailing? The commander is arguing that it clearly sounds more like wailing.” (Izek)



    "Could the dragon be in ill health?" (Ruby)



    "It could be the case but the timing of when they started wailing doesn’t coincide with when they sustained injuries from the incident····Anyway, the first thing to do is to figure out the next steps. I will first do a sweep of the area today and then escort you to the location. They’ve been acting out and you're the only one who has entered their dwelling. (Izek)



    "Isn't there a possibility that they’re purposely pretending to be unwell? Maybe they’re trying to make Ruby come to them." (Elenia)



    (T/N: I don’t think the novel has ever clearly specified the gender of the dragon since Korean just frivolously switches between he/she whenever it’s MTL’d, so I’m using gender neutral pronouns from now on to refer to them)



    I gaped at Elenia for a moment.



    Elenia rolled her eyes in exasperation.



    "Ruby, they're much smarter than they seem. Don’t let this go so easily" (Elenia)



    "I also share the same sentiment. No matter how I look at it, it's clear that he's feigning, but Sir Barons is concerned...What are your thoughts about this father?" (Izek)



    "Your rationale makes sense. If you consider the circumstances, that bast*rd could just be putting on an act·····." (Duke)



    Should I feel comforted by the scene of a family simply nodding their heads together?



    Since when did they get along so well?



    What if that ill tempered rascal is genuinely sick?!



    Well, it's not unreasonable to be one of the few people concerned, after all, dragons are quite rare right?



    To make matters worse, my beautiful sister-in-law took it further.



    "If the knights are struggling to watch over them and the dragon cub is indeed sick, why don't the knights just release them outside?" (Elenia)



    "I want to do that too, but it's also difficult because they’re rare. There are concerns that they will rampage again under the pretext of being sick." (Izek)



    "That's a good point. But what the hell was the commander complaining about?" (Duke)



    “I don’t know what they’re doing there, but two young, golden beasts from somewhere are guarding the entrance closely so it’s impossible to get near the dragon. In other words, they are preventing other beasts from looting the dragon’s vast pile of riches while they’re still out of commission. It’s suspicious and that’s why I’m questioning whether that dragon is actually sick or not.” (Izek)



    (T/N: the location of where the “two young, golden beasts” came from is specified as ‘somewhere’ in the TL as the raws are unclear about the location)



    "They were guarding the entrance? It didn't seem like that." (Duke)



    "I’m not entirely sure, maybe the three of them are conspiring with one another. I was going to give them a chance to make contact on their own even if I wasn’t monitoring the situation, but this is my plan now.…." (Izek)



    "You know." (Ruby)



    They were strangely interested in the bizarre conversation, but when I openly sighed, it ended in an instant.



    Then, not only was my smug, arrogant husband smiling at me, but my poker-faced sister-in-law and stern father-in-law were also doing that as well.



    At least, it seemed like they were.



    "...Oh, of course I'm kidding. Wasn’t I?" (Izek)



    "Of course it was just a joke. Wasn’t it, father? (Elenia)



    "Yea, I was just saying that because I was a bit troubled about the damage caused by the dragon." (Duke)



    They didn’t seem like they were being honest, but I pretended to not have noticed anything.



    Instead, I smiled at Izek, who appeared to have been somewhat clenching his cup.



    "Then are we going there today? Are you going to Rom's cave with me?" (Ruby)



    "Huh? Yeah, of course I am. It might be dangerous so I don’t want you to meet them by yourself." (Izek)



    (T/N: A reminder to myself that I’m still using they/them pronouns to refer to the dragon or any beast/monsters)



    "That's nice, it's like a married couple's joint operation. I was internally worried that you would be going alone. Isn’t it likely that they’re on high alert at the moment?" (Duke)



    Izek’s eyes flickered for a moment and then he looked at me, but he didn't say anything.



    I thought, 'Who cares about that?' Isn’t it similar to a child moaning from having a high fever?



    But what's with this atmosphere?



    I was at a loss for words.



    My father-in-law clicked his tongue and shook his head while Izek, whose blood sugar had risen sharply, pounded his head on the table.



    "You haven't said anything yet?" (Duke)



    "...... [Cough]! Oh, damn it...." (Izek)



    "So noisy, noisy, [cough]! Great... It’s just great...!" (Izek)



    "Iz, are you okay?" (Ruby)



    Instead of answering my question, Izek’s sullen figure suddenly jerked out of his seat.



    Then, covering his face with his large hands, he averted his eyes and groaned as he spat out.



    "Anyway, I'm going to go and clean up first.…." (Izek)



    "I should go to the palace now. I hope that thoughtless, stupid bast*rd is faking their illness. If that's the case, approach with caution for the moment..." (Duke)



    "Didn't you say you'd go now?" (Izek)



    "Why aren't you leaving? Did you want to eat more food?” (Duke)



    Elenia and I stared at each other for a while and at the same time opened our mouths at the attractive, wide backs of the bickering father and son.



    "Have a safe trip. See you later".



    "Have a safe trip."



    The father and son duo looked back at us for the last time with similar expressions, but right afterwards, in the process of leaving, they caused a disturbance and coughed up a storm, leaving us wondering what else was wrong with their heads.



    "...Ruby, would you like to eat mine too?"



    "What about you Ellen?"



    "I'll ask him to bring me some other desserts."



    Just like that, the first breakfast the family had gathered for ended peacefully.



    ***



    "You need to get new winter clothes." (Elenia)



    "Let's do it gradually. By the way, does winter come this early for Erendil?" (Ruby)



    "This year it came particularly fast. Come to think of it, how is winter in Romagna?" (Elenia)



    "It hardly snows, I guess. I lived in the northern part, so I thought it snowed too early compared to the rest of Romagna." (Ruby)



    "It seems that we have to get used to donning cold weather attire soon. I don't know if the ice dragon has anything to do with the weather, but..." (Elenia)



    I really don't know either.



    Among the dragons that inhabit the North, weren't the ice dragons the most prominent and rarest of its kind?



    Ronya, dressed in her cold weather attire, had been holding on to me tightly before taking her leave at our request.



    I smiled at Elenia without looking in the mirror.



    "Ellen, am I not strange?"



    "What are you talking about...?"



    "I'm probably the first one who can interact with beasts without trouble. Admittedly, I am a little scared of being misunderstood even though I can’t help it. It wouldn’t be weird if I was mistaken as a witch."



    Elenia bowed her head for a moment and looked at her hands that had been resting on her lap. She got up from the armchair she had been sitting in and came closer.



    "Well, first of all, I’m an Omerta and I can’t help but accept it as is. If my father or brother can calmly accept it, then I'm no different. Reality is too tiring for people to have time to believe in the superstition of witches."



    "·······"



    "Of course, I was really surprised at the time, but oddly enough, I didn’t find the situation to be all that ridiculous."



    "Why?"



    "I don't know either. Maybe it's because anything beyond common sense is possible in this domain.”



    “Furthermore, it seems that I felt that the impossible was somehow possible with Ruby. I’ve felt like that all along."



    “Have the things I’ve done been so absurd?“



    "Didn't you know? If you looked at it this morning, you’d realize it too.”



    My charming sister-in-law tied the laces of my hooded cloak into the shape of a ribbon.



    I silently smiled during this brief moment in time.



    Unexpectedly, the sound of someone knocking on the door could be heard.



    "Madam, Lady, are you there?" (Madam - Ruby, Lady - Elenia)



    (T/N: Lady is used when referring to women who hold certain titles - marchioness, countess, viscountess, or baroness; it can also be used for the wife of a lower ranking noble. Lady is also the courtesy title for daughters of higher ranking nobles - duke, marquis, or earl.)



    Isn't this voice the butler? I wondered if something was urgent...



    "What's going on?"



    "My apologies, Miss. Actually, Lady Furiana has made a visit."



    Somehow, he sounded hesitant.



    No, I think he's flustered. I don't know why he is.



    After a moment of silence, Elenia looked at me once and coolly announced.



    "Tell her we're busy and send her back. I’m sure I previously informed you of this."



    "I apologize. With all due respect, I have to report this since you didn’t meet with her last time.."



    "What?"



    "Lady Furiana asked to see Madam (Ruby)."



    What does she want?



    Elenia and I stared at each other with vacant expressions.



    To be honest, I haven’t thought of Freya at all as of recently.



    I didn’t avoid it on purpose, my mind was just distracted with other things. If I thought about her, it would’ve just made me feel upset.



    The problems with Freya and the Temple were topics I wanted to avoid making judgments on my own.



    But why did Freya suddenly visit me at this specific time of day?



    ***
    A sneak peek of Ruby and Freya’s scene in chapter 119...

    Freya blamed Ruby for what she had experienced (being abuse and miserable) , saying that she doesn't understand Ruby at all. Freya was like " Why the hell did you live your life that way?"


    After Freya’s preaching. Ruby poured tea to Freya, she was so shocked. Ruby says "Why? Wasn't it your hobby to cover yourself with tea?..."


    And the most amazing part is when Ruby held Freya's head and smashed it into the pure white cake. They end up pulling each other's hair.
     
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    I hope Ellen and Izek tell her off too. She needs to be pushed off her high horse. Blaming a victim of abuse is the worse.
     
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    Ohhh!!! I can't wait for the next chapter! :blobrofl:
     
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    Oh my❤❤thankyou so much!!
    Cant wait until next chapter!Ruby finally will do what we all say we would do in her place haha
     
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    Thank you, can't wait for the next chapter
     
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    I can't do it. I need more Roxannes and Cassius.

    Extremely abusive family, no personality ml , and one dimensional villains. And No communication. The same formula

    These villainess stories are a joke they're not villains they're victims.
     
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    Exactly true...:blobunamused:
     
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    Thanks for the spoilers. It's really satisfying.

    To me, aside from the pope fam, the ones who deserve curses are F and her brother (sorry, I can't bring myself to type her name lol), while the rest are very understandable. In fact, communication sometimes isn't something easy for even people who don't have psychological issue. So, why must we be so judgmental toward ML and his sister who, clearly, have that issue and that's not the light one? It's really good of him to mend everything despite his own state, though it's kinda like the blind leads the blind. But they finally make it after the tough process and you know what? People with psychological issues are tend to hard to believe in themselves, let alone others. Guys, they are tortured. Btw, this is realistic. The author didn't try to "pamper" the main chacarters with so much face slapping scenes. Things are still reasonable and satisfying... well, except for that villainess' ending lol.
     
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    I know some people dropped this novel cuz it's like the usual hotheaded ml who doesn't communicate, but!

    I think this time it works; the dynamic of an fl who was abused who doesn't trust anyone x ml who is a wall of ice initially.

    They had to learn to trust each other to learn more about each other. Ofc it could work with abused fl x sensible nice ml, but I don't think Ruby's trust issue would've let herself believe that sensible!ml loves her. She'll probably think he's being suspiciously nice to her. Broken people don't trust shiny things so easily. But they will try to understand other things that are broken like them, and in this case, Izek.

    (let's take a deep breath and remember that I'm talking about two fictional characters with the 'all's well that ends well' here. Not real people.)

    Besides, Izek is constantly learning to be nicer to Ruby and he's apologized several times about what he used to say to her when he was still confused about his feelings. It works both ways, see?

    Sometimes people expect so much from the other character that they forget that fictions set up a background in which you're supposed to learn why some people acts a certain way.

    Ruby learns to trust Izek because of the brick wall that he is. He means what he says and does. They're both equally learning to trust and change for the better. He's learning to open up, say things and be nicer to the person he loves after years of not giving a shxt after his mum's death.

    So, in conclusion, it's a dynamics that works imo. Just came here to say that
     
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    I, too, think that OG Ruby is our Ruby.
    If she s tole a Grail (what is supposed to be OP item) to "gift" it to Izek while Izek didnt want to kill Ruby... couldnt he use it to reverse time while helping Ruby keep some memories? Ruby could lose her divine core or something because of this too

    (Btw what if Ellen's death wasnt the only reason why Izek killed Pope's family? If he loved Ruby her being forced return to Romagna would make him angry. So Ellen's death is a final straw)

    The reason why Ruby lived in Korea is her wish to have similar life even if she would reborn. And Grail fulfilled this wish.
    I think at some point of our timeline Ruby thought if she is going to die she will drag others too. Isnt it what happened in OG timeline in the end?
     
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    **DISCUSSION**

    I think I should address Izek's behavior for a second (aka acting like a general a-hole b/c he's immature and unaware Ruby was going / had gone through verbal, physical, emotional abuse, etc.) b/c I don't think it's understood that what happened to him can absolutely happen to anyone (it might have already even happened) so I will bring some painful, real life examples.

    :')

    Oh god, to be honest, I cringe a little whenever I think about Ex #1. Is Izek still in his early-ish 20s right now? I'm not sure, correct me if I'm wrong. I don't remember his age (I read thoroughly and didn't get a number but I could have missed something) but my impression is that he doesn't have a big age gap with Ruby.

    #1 was in my early 20s

    I found a friend of a friend to be kind of annoying. He was very uptight, weighed people based on their academic achievements, and extremely judgmental about a person's outward appearance.

    Being the petty person I was back then, I ragged on him every chance I got to my closest friends b/c they felt the same way as me. He's not a bad person but he was...not pleasant. He wasn't intentionally malicious nor did he publicly really talk sh*t about others, but it was glaringly apparent when he looked down on someone. I was not comfortable when I was around him because I did not meet his "standards" for what he thought made a person worthy of recognition and such blah blah. He tried to conceal his thoughts but everyone could sense it....Another annoying thing about him, he had a tendency to one up people in conversations or bring up useless facts just to remind people of his intelligence.

    SO, one day, it came out that he was raised by a father who liked to torture small animals. It was a crazy revelation on par with the plot twist of a tragic Korean drama. No one saw it coming. His father is a genius professor with multiple post grad degrees and was very strict with him (unrelenting with doling out corporal punishment). His parents didn't allow him to make friends outside of the people they approved of and controlled every aspect of his life until he graduated and went to college. However, by then, the psychological damage had already been done. (American Psycho but make Christian Bale an old immigrant, Chinese father)

    I felt kind of...sort of....bad for gossiping about him with my close friends (well, we only kept this between 4 people total including me, since we were the ones who had to keep him company, so I tried to justify my guilty conscience with this fact). It was eye opening and made sense when his personality was put into perspective. His past doesn't excuse his current behavior (he makes no attempt to fix it) but it does make you think twice about judging people, even if they are little sh*ts.

    Anyways, I let things slide a bit more now. If anything, I think I'm a little too forgiving or lenient sometimes with some people and should put my foot down earlier (lol). I still think he sucks but I sympathize with why he sucks. This experience kind of haunts me from time to time, especially when I meet people who share similar characteristics to him.

    #2 was in my early teens

    One of my closest friends at the time acted out of character whenever we were in a mixed group of boys and girls. She was especially flirty and already pretty promiscuous at this time (keep in mind we were in our early teens). I found it to be annoying and mildly upsetting because she's a special existence in my life yet the way she interacted with the opposite gender made it hard for me to be around her whenever boys were present. I was also growing concerned with how she treated physical intimacy in her relationships. In addition, there were times when I thought it was annoying to listen to an endless stream of relationship problems, despite her being one of my bffs. And sadly, some of our mutual "friends" talked about her behind her back.

    SO, one day, I finally confronted her and told her how I felt about her behavior. I was honest with how I was quite worried about her based on some instances she had disclosed to me happening in 2 of her prior relationships. She drops this massive bomb and confesses that she was sexually abused by a close relative of hers, that still lives near her parent's house to this day, when she was ~7-10 yrs old (I don't remember what age specifically but it was very young). I wasn't able to process this (b/c I was in my early teens!!) and frankly, I didn't know how to react. It's just absolutely heartbreaking to learn that this happened to someone you hold dear. I found out later as I grew up that it's very common for some (not all) victims of sexual abuse to be sexually promiscuous as part of their coping mechanism, to take back control of their life.

    :/

    These are only 2 LOL. A big smh for all the times something similar has occurred. I have also seen Izek events happen to other friends in real time and it's one of those things people will inevitably come across as they grow in life. This post is not to jinx anyone, but you know, fair warning it will happen at some point. I didn't actually remember these events when I read HTGMHOMS, but as the discussion started to get more serious and crossed the lines of reality, a dam burst open recently and I felt it could be a somewhat beneficial read.

    That's all. Back to HTGMHOMS, I'm still in the process of editing CH 119 but I had to stop because I was so pis*ed of at some points. It will be up by tomorrow and then I'll start working on 120 right after. It was pretty cringe to read Freya have zero remorse and have lived a life of privilege where she never had to confront Ruby's struggles. she's fictional but my blood pressure still rises. ugh w/e
     
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    Thank but not at all actually, that enzo d worded, really he deserves a good end because im giving freya a big fat NO as a wife candidate

    Also what happened to the queen? Bad end?
     
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    Ikrrrr I'm so upset Enzo dies like why author whyyyyyyyy
     
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    TL: @Le_Tired

    I promised myself my T/Ns will only be used to explain 1) context of a situation or 2) give a background of a character, establishment, etc. for the sake of clarity, and NOT for reactions, which was so hard for this chapter.

    Chapter 119 - Ruby vs. Freya

    Chapter 119



    "It’s bad timing. Let's just refuse her request and tell her to go home······." (Elenia)


    "No!" (Ruby)


    I hastily interrupted Elenia's words as she slowly opened her mouth.


    Her red eyes widened.


    "Ruby, you don't have to force yourself to meet her. I will separately·····." (Elenia)


    "I'm not forcing myself. There’s something else I want to talk to her about." (Ruby)


    "I don't think it's a good idea. Besides, you have to leave soon." (Elenia)


    “We don’t know when I’ll have to leave yet, isn’t there a bit of time to spare for some tea? (Ruby)


    "But Ruby·····." (Elenia)


    "It's okay, Ellen. Really. After all, she's Ellen's old friend." (Ruby)


    Whether it’s for me or something else, Elenia had already sent out her nanny, who looked after her from an early age, and she shouldn’t have to be involved in these matters anymore.


    Moreover, I was wondering why Freya wanted to see me.


    "...Are you sure you're okay?" (Elenia)


    "Of course, did you forget what kind of person I am?" (Ruby)


    ***


    On a snowy, winter afternoon, I unexpectedly sat down for tea at a table situated in the garden of the greenhouse, surrounded by a sumptuous spring landscape.


    I was also facing Freya.


    My last memory of Freya was of her appearance in the mirror room of Angvan Palace.


    She was frozen and solely staring at me while everyone else was distracted by the roar of the dragon.


    Indeed, Freya, who I haven't seen in a long time, was as neat and elegant as ever.


    She seemed to be at ease, yet a little less relaxed, but overall, nothing seemed to have changed much.


    However, after asking to see me, she seemed unwilling to open her mouth.


    Freya wasn’t the only one, we also showed no signs of initiating a dialogue.


    The air in the greenhouse was warm, but it felt like a cold wind was blowing through.


    It wasn't because of me though, it was probably because of Elenia, who was sitting upright and staring at her childhood friend with a cold expression on her face.


    I don't know what happened between the two.


    However, considering Elenia's attitude, I can only guess that a decisive moment must have taken place.


    Freya was evidently neither talking to nor looking at Elenia.


    She just sat with rigid shoulders and her head bowed, looking at the teacup.


    The situation was like this, but it shouldn't be like this.


    "Ellen, would it be okay if you left us alone for a while?"


    In fact, Elenia was scheduled to leave soon anyway, but I asked cautiously because she was anxious.


    Freya's hand, holding the glass, twitched slightly.


    "······· Call me if anything happens."


    Elenia, who had directed her words toward me, turned her gaze to Freya and stood up coyly.


    Consequently, it was finally just the two of us in question that remained.


    The clear, winter sun shone through the glass ceiling and illuminated the table.


    Instead of conversing with the silent visitor, I sipped tea and savored the vibrant refreshments from the serving tray.


    There were fresh lemon tarts, crisp cookies, colorful cupcakes, and, of course, chocolate pudding.


    The huge white cake that I ate this morning was present as well.


    I could feel Freya, who was still giving off a scornful air, eventually lifting her eyes slowly and looking at me.


    Regardless of whether she was or was not looking at me, I still went about like normal and dipped the almond cookie into the creamy pudding, pushed it into my mouth, and sipped the plain, black tea.


    "...Madam."


    "What is it, Lady?"


    "... First of all, I'm glad you're well."


    "Thank you. The tea has a pleasant smell, so do and go try it."


    Silence resumed once more.


    For whatever reason, Freya came to see me yet she was in no hurry to bring up the topic of discussion and instead, just stared at me as I ate.


    Are you going to pick a fight again?


    She looked a bit tired though.….


    "I'm not going to apologize to Madam."


    ······just as expected. At her convenience, she continued to spit out utter garbage.


    It's pretty much the same as before.


    "So please don't expect an apology."


    "········."


    "Anyway, I just did what I thought was best according to my own beliefs. I still feel the same way now."


    "Even if mistakes were made, my actions are based on a set of values accumulated through various experiences from the time I was born. And after having lived with these values in mind ······. I just can't understand Madam at all."


    I stood up with a cookie still in my mouth.


    "·······."


    As the scene unfolded, I strode across a diverse array of colorful flowers and bushes and headed towards the door.


    Then, after beckoning the escorts standing outside the entrance to retreat, they closed and locked the door.


    When I came back to the table, Freyja was frozen with a bewildered expression, assuming that I must have just left.


    I sat back in my seat and folded my arms while chewing whatever was left of the cookie.


    "Go on."


    The sound of the vigorous stream of water circulating in the fountain could be heard.


    Freya stared at me as her face paled and continued to talk.


    “If people don’t try to help themselves, no one else will.”


    That's a wonderful thing to say. Which book is this from?


    "I don't know why a woman like Madam has been neglecting herself like that for so long, but it seems like an addiction. Because they said that misery and self-pity are addictive."


    So that’s what this was about······.


    “Of course, I feel sympathy and pity, but nonetheless, I can't help that my need to lament comes first. Why······ why the hell did you live your life that way?"


    "······."


    “You can overcome any difficulty with strong will and good words alone. If you can put your mind to it and take action, heaven will surely be on your side. You could have asked for anyone’s help at any time in your current position, but why didn’t you do anything until things got so bad? Why did you not think about taking a more active approach on life and let not only yourself, but also everyone else to be so miserable······?“


    Misery, self-compassion, alienation, solitude, rejection, death, pain, violence, fear, coercion and shame …….


    A sheltered woman who had never personally experienced any of this was now arguing with me.


    The issue wasn’t about whether she knew or didn’t know anything about my life.


    She was just more or less curious about the moment she witnessed at that time and wanted to argue with how I lived.


    Why did you ignore the values of nobility by living so pathetically and passively, making others needlessly worry? (T/N: This is still internal monologue, from the POV of what Ruby is thinking Freya is asking of her)


    Strangely enough, I felt amused rather than angry.


    It may just be a natural course of action for a person to react like her, when they were born and raised in an entirely different environment and never experienced what the other person went through.


    A verbal attack by someone who has never been or will never be abandoned.


    Nevertheless, there were also people who said it was not my fault when they looked at me, despite never having experienced my struggles, instead of blaming me or saying empty words of compassion.


    "Are you listening? Fu...."


    Something was burning inside me.


    It had already happened here once the other day.


    The elegantly combed platinum hair, the smooth white face, the front of the luxurious dress, and the fine accessories were soaked in tea water.


    Only, it was a different person this time around who had poured the teacup.


    I could guarantee that Freya's current expression was the same exact one I had last time when I was in her position.


    The look of someone cracking and completely losing their composure.


    It was astounding to see her face tinted in blue because of the color of the tea.


    "What are you doing right now..."


    “Why? Wasn’t it your hobby to douse yourself with tea? I’m proud of my ability to be straightforward because I don’t think it’s a healthy and dignified way to live by childishly blaming others when things do not go my way, just like you have done so far.”


    “You, do you think you’ll still be safe after you do this? I····."


    I picked up a handful of assorted sweets and shoved them into her mouth, which had been extremely energetic in blathering on continuously.


    Suffer a diabetic shock, you rude ass b*tch.


    "Wow! Whoa, whoa! What kind of vulgar behavior is this?"


    ”It’s because I feel sorry for your shallow existence. Why? Like you said, let’s say I have lived a pathetic life, but what does that make you, someone who finds it difficult to win against me in any case? You couldn’t face me properly and ended up resorting to petty, underhanded schemes. What the hell does that make you?”


    "Hey, I'm·····."


    ”Will the heavens help you if you act like that? Do you think it’s okay to do childish things just because the heavens tell you to? Say you envy me if you envy me that much. You must have had a hard time pretending to be noble while burning to death with resentment. Do you know that you’re so unsightly and pathetic? I feel bad for you for going crazy over a pathetic person such as myself!”


    The purple eyes had been shaking as if an earthquake had occurred and then burst into flames.


    I didn't know I would see such a brutal and poisonous expression on Freya's face, so I have to live and enjoy it for a long time.


    ”If you hadn’t appeared, my position wouldn’t have been taken away from me! How the hell is someone like you ruining my world? A dirty Borgian woman who’s not even the Pope’s biological child, but a tattered prostitute’s daughter who’s been sold off here and there.”


    puck. (퍽. ) (sfx)


    My hands gripped her head and plunged it into the pure white cake.


    Her beautiful face was instantly covered with cream, then she stretched out her floundering arms and grabbed my hair.


    Tears welled up from the pain of having my hair pulled by the roots.


    See what this woman is doing?


    "The North would have remained the same if it wasn’t for you! Why did everything change so much after you appeared...!"


    “Go be a martyr for your burning loyalty to the North, you wicked woman!”


    "It's all because of you...! Why do I have to feel so inferior because of someone like you...!"


    “Your feelings are not my problem.”


    “Why should I be deprived of the things I deserve because of a woman of unclear bloodline, a woman who is not worth comparing to, merely a foolish doll who only knows how to smile and dance?”


    ”That’s just life, you b*tch! Be mindful of the person you’re picking a fight with!”

    **EDIT**: I keep forgetting to write this, but i recommend checking out the TOC on the first page if anyone hasn’t done so. It contains external links to raws / translations, a character list, MTL/summary links, etc. I keep it up to date pretty regularly and will add the link directing to Ch 119 in a few hours. Looking through threads is always fun but it will save you time if you’re in a hurry :)
     
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  18. Aron Dare

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    OMG LORD PLS HELP ME I'M DYING-
    ASHSGDHDHDHSJSJSB :sick::ROFLMAO:
    This bitch slapping is so realistic lol. Never have I related to a high society, noble lady, more than this time.
    GO RUBY F*CK HER UP :blobpitch:
     
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    The ending of this chapter is so refreshing! Thanks so much for posting this!
     
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    Freya's words are exactly like some readers who says "why is she so weak?! Why is she letting them treat her like that!? Why doesn't she run away?!" :facepalm: like if you tell your abusers to not abuse you they will stop or if you asking for help against the most powerful family in the whole continent after so many betrayals, people will just help you or believe your claims about getting abused by the POPE or his son or if you ran away, well your powerful family who has so many connections won't be able to find you:blobexpressionless::facepalm:
     
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