Spoiler Into the Rose Garden/인투 더 로즈 가든 [BL]

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    Winterbaum's representative BL novel <Into the Rose Garden> webtoon adaptation! Arok, who was proud of being a prestigious nobleman, fell in love at first sight with Klop, a lower noble family he met by chance. Arok approached regardless of the difference in status, wealth, or even the taboo of being the same alpha, but Clough ignored him and married another omega. In the end, Arok, blinded by jealousy, commits a terrible sin. And after learning the truth, Klopp executes ruthless revenge. Arok struggles and resists, but slowly endures the cost of sin... "What you did was not love." "I don't know what to call this feeling if it's not love." If given a chance to turn everything around, would the relationship between the two be different? 'Can life be a blessing again? Can it lead us to the light again? Will I see him again someday under that cedar road?'
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    From what I know, the mc is an alpha and rich, respected man on which a experiment was done on which made him eligible to give birth.
    The black hair dude thinks that because of our mc his lover got r-ped and killed. So, he r-ped mc, got a child out of him and then threw him on the streets and where mc gets gang r-ped on daily basis; and has miscarriages all the time.

    (Also one thing apparently the black hair dude's lover looked like mc and he got a child who looks his past lover from mc).

    I got this much info/spoiler about it from bato and newtoki and I'll post more spoilers if I find them.



    This is really MIGHT be the typical shit route but I'm waiting for some revenge shit, like please!!! And it's kinda interesting.
     
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    NOVEL LINKS:
    Main Story; 7 Volumes
    Manhwa
    Spin-Off; 1 Volume


    The novel was a confusing since its DIVIDED INTO 3 PARTS. Each part are different. These spoilers are based on what i understand. It's not 100% accurate so feel free to correct me though.

    -Klopp/Clope (alpha seme)
    -Aelock/Arok (alpha/omega uke)

    !!TW: Some parts of the novel is brutal and depressing, please be careful!!
    • PART 1: MAINSTORY (Original arok & Original klopp)
    This volume seems like the first timeline. Count arok taywind met klopp in one of their tea parties. He fell inlove instantly, but klopp have a lover named rafiel westport. Later they got married. Arok tried to forget him, but later burned with jealousy. He ordered the killing of rafiel, who was pregnant and raped, died with the unborn child.

    Later on klopp suddenly disappeared and came back rich, while arok slowly fell from grace as his investments failed. Klopp unexpectedly helped him, eventually became a viscount and bought the mansion. He let arok stay in the mansion, but with his secret motive of revenge. He tricked arok into taking pills, and he was turned into omega. Klopp knew that arok ordered the death of his wife rafiel, and became crazed due to hatred and trauma. He raped arok, and said to pay back his sins. He took his wife and child so arok needs to pay back with a child. I believe its a twisted revenge on klopp side, a sign of conquest, of victory.

    They had their first child, omega son who has blonde and blue eyes, he was named after rafiel. Afterwards, arok was moved to a hut, and was surprised because he thought he would atleast be given the authority to raise the child. Klopp snickered as he said arok would not become his wife, if he don't like to stay in the hut, he should leave. Arok stayed, and later had his second child, an alpha son. However, a commotion erupted as he refused to be treated badly by the servants, he was then kicked out of the estate and thrown to the slums.

    There, it was hell. As he was raped repeatedly, in exchange for a bread. He had three miscarriages. Then one day, he saw klopp and rafiel child in a carriage, and had this fantasy of being with them. Or atleast hugging the child even once. Later he was running, he met klopp again, and klopp gave him a silver coin, a sign of belittling him. Arok bought second hand suit and went to the mansion again. He met klopp, and had a conversation where he discovered that klopp considers rafiel child as the child of his dead wife rafiel westport. Heartbroken, arok left and committed suicide to the river. He was saved by the attendant of klopp. Klopp was surprised that he commited suicide, as he thinks of aroks as a devil who does not even shed tears. (arok cannot cry no matter how har he tries, he once poked his eye to see if his tearducts are abnormal. It's because of his upbringing, as his father sees crying as not a acceptable trait of a noble count. Arok had the habit of smiling instead, masking his emotions deep in his bones, which provokes klopp as he sees arok happy and thinks he's still not hurt enough. Arok cannot change this no matter how hard he tries.)

    Arok was allowed to stay in the estate, in a hut, near the rose garden and cedar trees. There, he lived quietly. Sometimes klopp would come at night, checking on him. Klopp would sometimes see rafiel on arok (arok was a distant relative of rafiel westport. They had the same eyes and haircolor, just little difference such as rafiel had dull blond hair and gray bluish eyes, while arok had shiny gold like blond hair and bluish eyes. Due to the total fall from grace of arok, he suffered to continous abuse and poverty in the slums. He began having frizzy dull hair, his strong alpha body gone as his body turned into omega, and his arrogance slowly faded). Later they had an argument, as klopp kept on giving arok the clothes that rafiel used to wear (rafiel westport was an omega his body is small and arok was once an alpha still having a bigger frame than ordinary omega, so arok sometimes tore the clothes as they dont fit him) resulting to being beaten and raped. Then, arok had his third child, another omega son.

    He continued living quietly, content on small gestures and often visits of klopp. Soon he had another child, the fourth omega, a daughter. I believe this is where klopp starts to soften (? not really though) to arok. They usually have rough sex (its an omegaverse so, klopp usually have sex with arok). In this point, klopp had a "loving" vanilla sex with arok, though during it, klopp whispers cruelty and curses to arok, that arok hopefully dies the same way like rafiel westport, and how he hated him so much. Klopp later soften and thought of bringing arok to the mansion, because winter is harsh in the hut and he's already pregnant again on their 5th child. Maybe pity, guilt, and the feeling connection on having someone through lonely times, having a companion in their own created hell. That he have arok to suffer with. He hated him but also undeniably still have conscience and maybe twisted affections as he cared for him a little.

    Klopp in the first place is not a bad person. He is a scholarly guy, a baron countryside noble who became an economic bureaucrat viscount, who is educated and has talents. But because of his monstrous hatred, he became a crazed twisted person hungry for revenge. So even though he treated arok with such cruelty, there are times he shows care and restraint esp when arok was pregnant. (though he takes them from him after childbirth and never let arok see them or touch them. one time arok hugged rafiel child and was beaten by klopp when he saw him. in his crazed mind he thinks that arok will stain rafiel, his dead wife again with his hands.)

    However, as klopp thought of moving in with arok and spending this life with his enemy, arok disappeared in the hut. And sooner news was given that he escaped and was in the slums again. He found him indeed in the slums, currently blank out of his mind as he was being raped by 4 men (those who raped him before). Klopp murdered the men, as he covered the body of arok, who was brutally beaten, with broken ankle and shoulders, bruises, semen, and thick black blood under his lower body. He's spaced out, almost like dying. They quickly went back to mansion, where arok water bag broke in the carriage, he was having a sudden childbirth. He was about to be saved, however, the doctor discovered he is pregnant with twins, losing the small chance of survival.

    After the childbirth, arok in his deathbed, asked for forgiveness, unaware that he was finally crying, shedding tears. He told klopp that he was hurting too and if given a chance he would not touch rafiel westport again. That now, he knows what rafiel westport felt while dying. He asked a dying wish, even as a lie, for klopp to say an "i love you", but klopp was silently crying. Arok smiled bitterly and close his eyes. He survived three days and passed away at the 3rd morning. Those days he was crying, and klopp was always beside him, hugging and kissing him. Arok was crying happy tears, and was having happy dreams when he died. Klopp was beside him when he breath his last and klopp gave him a kiss. Later he was standing on arok's tombstone, he felt regret, but still wasn't able to say "i love you".

    Arok was in the hut, he saw a tall man in the garden, klopp with the 6 children laughing and walking in the garden. He also saw someone with dull blonde hair, an omega, rafiel westport. Arok cried, and laughed. Strangely, he did not felt jealousy. He looked at klopp, and klopp stared at him, and eventually turned his back going to his family who is calling for him. They looked so happy. Arok still smiled while shedding tears, like a gesture that he's now accepting this end while he's being swallowed and drowned by darkness.
    • PART 2: (Original arok regression & klopp) [Klopp pov]
    Klopp was lost in the cedar trees during the tea party of count arok taywind. They met and arok helped him to get back to the location. During the tea party, klopp observes the count and irritated that he has his fake smile and has this impression of him as a playboy. They bumped again, and klopp puts a sarcastic attitude towards the count. Arok strikes back and eventually turned into full of banters and sarcastic comebacks. He was invited again, sees it as an opportunity to widen his connection, he went. Though during those parties, klopp was slowly being attracted to arok, lowkey stealing glances, unconciously observing, searching for him, and was jealous of other people who is with arok.


    Klopp refuse to be attracted to another alpha he decided to pursue rafiel westport more, who looked like arok taywind, and stopped going to the invitations of count arok to distract himself. He wanted a stable life and he thinks that it should be with rafiel westport, instead of the arrogant count arok. But still, he cannot forget the count. He buried himself with work, as he was new in this industry and still building his reputation. His clients are growing, and his skills are being praised as he slowly starts the way to his success. But one night, count arok came uninvited in his office, asking for advice as his investment fails. Klopp wants to turn it down, but then accepted due to the recommendation letter arok have from klopp's viscount mentor. He was also distracted from the strong perfume smell that was left in his office as the count left.


    Klopp had dreams. He's with someone with dull blonde hair, big belly, and inside a hut. He has so much anger and hatred towards that skinny omega person. He finds it weird, as he seems to see count arok in that person, which is the opposite of the count arok right now. He did not take it seriously, but always disturbed with the brutal treatment and his behavior in those dreams. He did not see himself acting that way. These dreams continued on, with flashes of different scenes.


    Later on he become like a financial advisor of arok, dumbfounded how arok seems to not have any idea of fund management. Having him as a client, it is inevitable for them to meet. He became nervous and anxious pushing his engagement with rafiel quickly, because he felt like he will be defeated and deviate to the stable life that he wants. One time, after the date with rafiel, they spotted someone who looked like count arok in the slums, wearing a cloak and wary of the people around. Klopp shook it off, knowing how arrogant arok was, he won't even breathe the air in that area, they thought they were mistaken.


    During to a concert planned by the count arok, klopp also decided to propose that night to rafiel. The concert was grandioise, but he was a little unconfortable as him and rafiel were placed in the center, like star of the night although they were surrounded by higher people, count and marquis. Especially, a specific marquis wolflake who keeps on glaring on him that made him a little annoyed. Unexpectedly, count arok arranged a performance. He played a violin instrument, with a sad and tragic love melody that made the crowd tear. It is a heartbreaking melody, that also bewitch klopp. Why and who is making you sad? Klopp though as he stared at the guy who looked like a dream, gorgeous as he stands in the stage in his white suit and beauty that shines. Count arok had a melancholic aura, klopp cannot understand. Anxious of what he is feeling, he felt like he's standing on the cliff, he needs to act in urgency. He needs to propose now to rafiel. He must.


    When klopp decided, he led rafiel to a hidden area at rose garden to propose, he readied himself and pop the question when he was suddenly pushed by a couple who was doing something nasty. He became angry, not because the marriage proposal was interrupted, but because he felt like all the piled emotions needs to be vented, and his chance for a saving was now lost. He was hanging by a thread and now he lost control and fought with the guy even infront of rafiel westport. Rafiel ran and the ring was lost, the scene was a mess and count arok arrived, worried on his injuries. Arok ordered them to be let inside the mansion to calm the noise and avoid rumors. Later, the engagement between rafiel westport and was denied and they broke up. Count arok stormed in his office, asking why they broke up. Klopp began having his suspicions, and cornered the count. He thought that count arok liked rafiel, as he can't stop mentioning his ex and also connects his past behaviors. He can't restrain himself and they kissed. Wherein count arok woke up and pushed him then ran away.


    Later then klopp pursued arok, though he was being avoided by the count. He was taught by the butler, having a hint on his relationship with the count, he continued to learn noble ethics under the strict cold butler. Wanting to gather favors to the person closest to arok, he worked hard. One time he heard some gossip that an omega noble was buying suppressor in the slums. Klopp was curious, and then surprised when he saw count arok being cornered by men. He saved him, dragged him and ended up having sex at Klopp's house. He was angry as the count arok who is avoiding him smells like an omega, he thought arok was rolling around with an omega prostitute/lover in the slums. Klopp discovered that count arok who is a noble alpha became an omega. Turns out, he transformed into omega and it started when he met klopps. That is why he have the thick scent of omega on his body. Overjoyed, he considered arok as his omega already, and planned to spend arok's heat with him in the next month. They discussed about children, and klopp wanted to have 2 child, while count arok wants six children surprisingly (he maybe have this regret not being able to be with his six children in the past :'( )


    Soon arok had another party, klopp even spotted marquis wolflake with rafiel westport, who are now married, and angered as he wondered why rafiel is here again. He thought that arok's obsession with rafiel is still not finished. He dragged the count arok, who is nearing his heat and had sex. Later, arok was knotted and imprinted by klopp. It's the first time arok heard klopp saying an "i love you". He panicked, scared that this is a dream and he will wake up soon, as he believed that klopp would never love him. Klopp comforted him and whispered i love yous till he fell asleep.


    Afterward, count arko's belly was starting to grow, he said it will be an omega child, with blonde and blue eyes and will be named as rafiel. Klopp was angry and shouted, jealous, that he will never allow a rafiel name in his children. He insisted that it will be an alpha son. Klopp spoiled and cared so much for Arok during his pregnancy. Arok disliked raisins, and spits them out. They moved to someplace far from the people's eyes, as it will complicate the reputation of the count. Count arok is known to be an alpha, and if words came out that he become an omega, there will be rumors and disputes esp on him being a taywind heir. So they decided not to bring this up for a while as klopp will work on it later. He wanted to legally marry count arok but alpha to alpha marriage was not allowed yet, so they have no choice but to wait for the mean time. Klopp promised arok that he will make him his wife legally and will work for the documents.


    Arok birthed an alpha son, with features same as Klopp. Arok panicked, he cannot believe its his son and rejected it at first, but later calmed down and breastfed the baby. He whispered that things have changed. He keeps on having panic attacks where he begs klopp not to take the child, like he is confused if this life was like in the last life. In his hazy confused moments, arok told him a story. Klopp felt goosebumps and chills as arok told him a brutal story which is actually their first life. Klopp did not know that it is their first life, and thought that arok was still not on the right mind, but he still felt disturbed. Klopp rides on his story, still not considering it as the truth, he plays on and says that he forgives him, and he loves him, where arok reacted strongly while sobbing and told him if he can love klopp now. They exchanged i love yous and arok slept. Klopp thought that maybe that dream is what caused arok to behave like this, like how he loves to eat, how he don't like it when klopp leaves and why he only now said his affections and reciprocated his i love you. Klopp thought that arok had this emotional instability due to this imaginations and was probably the result of his strict upbringing in a noble house. He's determined to heal that by giving infinite love. He whispered to his baby son that arok was someone who lacked affections and they should love him. When he woke up, he saw arok with the child. Arok looked different, like he was finally happy and he looks better with a lighter atmosphere and look on his face.


    Arok was standing, still at the secluded garden again. He saw a tall man, klopp laughing, with several children with him. He tried to shout at him, grab the blurry scene, but he can't. He saw an omega, rafiel westport. Arok smiled and cried. Arok looked at them in his blurry vision a little longer as he knows he will be swallowed by darkness again soon. It was enough, it was a fleeting dream, but i am happy. Klopp looked at him and he stared back smiling but crying. But opposite of what he thought, Klopp did not turn back, instead shouted at him and ran towards him. He woke up to the shouting, and saw Klopp worried. They are in the rose garden, and two children came running to him calling him mother. Klopp and arok currently have 2 children, Lennok the alpha son who looked like klopp, and urea his omega daughter with blonde and blue eyes, and soon, as he is in his early pregnancy now, a baby son who have klopp's hair and blue eyes, Jester. Klopp comforted him and kissed him. Arok laughed, he hugged klopp back who in return wiped his tears.


    Now the darkness is gone and there is dazzling light.
    • PART 3: (Original klopp regression & arok) [Arok pov]
    They had an encounter again in the rose garden where they always met at the first time in each life. Klopp was angry and histerical when he met arok first. Like a madman he shouted and cursed the clueless count. Arok was surprised to his outbursts and was assaulted, arok screamed for help, luckily his servants helped him to kicked the madman.


    The second encounter was when he got lost after he went in a concert at the royal music hall. Distracted, he got lost in the streets. There, he met scammers. They attacked him and luckily he was safe, as he was helped by Klopp. Arok was wary of the madman, but Klop was calm. He asked if Arok cannot remember him, and arok was still clueless. Klopp, smiling, confirmed he came back in time. Arok felt goosebumps and creeped out, so he said his goodbyes and left.


    The third encounter was in the party of duchess clayton. He was surprised to see the madman in the party, and how people treat him with respect. In his mind, how did this mad swindler able to trick these people? Arok thought. To avoid klopp, arok went to the terrace, but he was found and cornered by klopp. (Klopp was shamelessly flirting with him lmao) He felt fear for the unpredictable madman klopp, and klopp seeing how arok paled infront of him, let go. He went on a rampage like a madman with rabies, and then was caught offguard with the sudden calm demeanor like a saint born under the star of reason, and now he's showing his desire like a dog in heat.


    Soon arok was in trouble, as how his life started to go down like the other life, his financial invesments are failing. He tried and asked for a trusted finance advisor, and resulted to all of them pointed to Klopp Bendyk. Left with no choice, he asked for klopp's presence. But Klopp did not want to be paid by money, instead he wanted arok. Arok who was desperate, agreed. They had a contract, where klopp will manage his debt and income, in exchange, they will have an "agreed relationship".The day of the agreed date of payment is due. Arok had a rough nightmare of him having sexual intercourse with klopp. Clueless he went to the room inside the mansion where they decided to do it. But instead, when Arok told klopp that all the neccessary equipments are ready, klopp laughed. He intended to court arok, not to force him into it.


    The meet ups continued. One time, after arok's visit in an art gallery, he found klopp waiting in the mansion. Arok was surprised to see his beloved books in the table, like they were picked up. He was curious how klopp knew his favorite books. When klopp's about to leave he leand to arok, he looks like he was about to kiss him, but instead kissed his forehead. When they had a conversation about the old cabin, Arok said he wanted to remove it, as the cabin dont match the beautiful rose garden but klopp asked him to leave it as it is. There also ended up about the topic of the "payment" as arok's joked that he's about to cry with how long klopp's taking it. Klopp said he wouldn't want him to cry, he will feel like dying on the spot. Later they kissed and had an agreement to do it the next time. At the agreed day, Klopp was having doubts, he asked arok, "Is it okay if we do this? To be honest, I am afraid that the days of hating each other will start again." Arok was confuse again, as Klopp keep on spouting different things each time. He keeps mentioning things that he cannot understand. They went on it but not all the way.


    Then there was a dinner incident where klopp said something offending to rafiel. Then arguments came where arok, wolflake, and klopp quarrelled. Rafiel cried and walked out and marquis wolflake followed to comfort him. In the carriage, klopp said to arok not to touch rafiel. Arok said he would as he dont have any ill intention to the innocent omega. Klopp said because of jealousy, because arok wanted to be an omega. Arok laughed and said he put pride in being an alpha. There he thought that klopp liked rafiel, and that he, arok, was just a substitute for klopp's desires for rafiel. They had an argument in the carriage and ended up arok firing klopp and left. Then arok went to the slums again to "vent" and find an omega to a brothel. However he met scammers again, where he found klopp again. His attackers were killed with klopp's sword. However, the back ups came and klopp was shot. They went to klopp's house to be treated. Few days he came and visited but klopp was unavailable as he was resting. One day, he invited klopp for an evening party. However what came is a letter of apology for not being absent. Arok decided to go to klopp's house.


    There he heard klopp cooing someone, speaking softly, and eventually saying rafiel. Angered, arok stormed out of klopp's house and went to marquis wolflake estate. He told the marquis that he was being cheated by rafiel, his fiance. But wolflake told him his fiance was upstairs, and rafiel indeed came down, still sleepy. Arok was dumbfounded. Who was that rafiel that klopp was talking to? (Klopp was hallucinating of baby rafiel in the first life, as its a symptom of his imprinting :'( ) He went back to the klopp's house and there he saw klopp in his crazed moment. He's like not himself and eventually, almost killed arok by strangling. Arok defended himself and injured him in the head. Klopp kept apologizing, paled. Turns out, he confessed he's imprinted, and it was his imprinted symptoms that made him go crazed. But it's not rafiel westport. It was someone else.


    Heartbroken and terrified, arok hid in his mansion for days. Letters of apology keep on coming from klopp and sometimes he cames in the mansion but arok did not meet him. Then arok decided to go out after few days. He went to the hat store, but surprised there was a reserved hats for him paid by klopp, he was angry but took it. Next he went to an art gallery, but discovered there was a canvass that klopp ordered, and he saw a painting, a skinny man inside a worn out cabin, blonde hair blue eyes, sitting in a chair beside the sack of potatoes and daffodils, playing chess with stones on a table. (It was the arok of the first life :'( ) He was angered again, as he consider it a shame as the painter told him the man is him. It was an embarrasment to the count, he is not a worn and skinny man but a noble count.


    Later klopp went again to the mansion, but then the angry arok threw him the hat and the paintings. Klopp was saddened and asked if he did not like it. Klopp said that he was indeed imprinted. And it was his last visit to the count as he will now meet that person and go with him. Arok asked if he looked like him, but klopp said he did not, and added that his soul only belongs to that person. Arok calmed, and they said their goodbyes. Later, a gunshot was heard.


    Klopp was saved thanks to wolflake who ticked his gun beforehand so it exploded in his hands instead. Though there are still impact and a wound on his head and fingers. Klopp claimed he have amnesia, and the relationship between them progressed. One time klopp spilled the name arok, an omega, so arok search for that person, but ther was no one. Later he discovered he is also turning into an omega. He asked klopp who did he imprinted to, but klopp kept saying it is arok taywind. It was him all along. Arok knew it did not make sense and only thought that he's still not in the right mind because of the imprinting symptom and amnesia. (I think later on when they had intercourse, the imprinted was indeed arok, but i believe that's actually impossible without intercourse so arok cannot believe it as its their first. Klopp imprinted with the past arok but i guess same dna so it worked with present arok.)


    In the last chapter, it was revealed that klopp did not have amnesia, but only wanted to hide his past life to the arok of present. Klopp wanted arok taywind. His mate. His imprinted omega. His devil. But in that life, he's not there. He realized his soul would never have a second chance to rest by his side. He was not allowed to be by his side. Instead, he whispered i love you to that beautiful present arok taywind. He hoped that these unfinished whispers of love will reach it's proper owner someday. He hoped that if he loved the person infront of him with all his might, one day, that battered man will come to meet him.

    *Please read the spoilers above to understand the spoilers below*
    • Explanations, Additional spoilers, & opinion
    It wasn't clearly said what klopp felt for arok. Is it affections, lust, anger, envy, insecurity, longing, or other crazy twisted emotions. I think klopp was really attracted to him though, be it physical attraction, or obsession. (Well our count arok was said to be gorgeous and beautiful. He had that noble aura and elegance, that even when he was worn and skinny, he is still beautiful and serene.) But i believed klopp did not forgive him, and also did not forgive himself. Both are guilty, having twisted relationship, and misunderstandings. An enemy to lover troupe with dark plot and bad ending.


    PS. The part 1 should be really a forbidden book hahaha. The part 2 is pov of klopp, where arok reborn. But only arok have his past life memories, while klopp had dreams of his past life.
    It was mentioned what happened to the family after arok's death. After arok died, they discovered that the two was imprinted. Later, the mansion slowly became quiet as his children one by one left to follow their loved ones. He was only left with the spacious mansion, with the beautiful rose garden and the small cabin. One time, he saw the desolate cabin had its dim light again, he rushed downstairs ans shouted that name, but all he saw was the abandoned cabin. Then he realized it. He glanced at the side, and saw the tombstone buried in stone. He stood there for a long time.

    It was also mentioned that rafiel, the first child, sooner known that rafiel westport is not his real mother, but was actually the count arok taywind. He was upset and left the estate, refusing to acknowledge what his father told him that his mother was the dead rafiel westport who was named after him. In anger, klopp cursed arok's tombstone and tried to destroy it with a hammer, where the second child, alpha son, interfered and was injured eventually. Seems like also klopp, now old with his silver hair, was unable to walk and mostly spend his time inside the mansion, in a room where the garden can be seen, sitting, staring blankly at the rose garden and the desolate cabin, from dawn to sunset. He was alone in the melancholic house.
    In my opinion i think he did love rafiel in part vol 1. Not that head over heels inlove that you will fight societal barriers or almost impossible love like with arok.

    If i would judge including the story on other volumes, I think it's more like choosing stability with rafiel instead pursuing an uncertain life with the arrogant and difficult count arok. And maybe, that's how it was too in their first life, too. Like, he refused this attraction to arok and instead dumped all his attention to rafiel to lose feelings, and eventually learned to love rafiel. The difference maybe is that in the part 1, klopp did not pursue what he felt to count arok, successfully being with rafiel in what supposed to be stable life, learning to love his spouse. Arok also tried to avoid him due to his jealousy before then. While in the part 2, because of their continued meeting and encounters that made Klopp's feelings stronger, he destroyed that barrier and restraint, chased the count arok and loved him infinitely. And in part 3, it was klopp first who showed motive, and eventually they both flirted. I believe it's also like a ripple effect, as oc count arok's and oc klopp's actions caused these events to change compared to the first life.
    i think he took revenge on arok because he did not see his repentance and he was angry because he still feels grief on the death of rafiel after many years, while the "killer", arok, was already moving on in his life. That is why he have mixed feelings towards arok. He treats him hot and cold, and because of his trauma and crazed mind, he torments him to see him beg for forgiveness. But he also treats him with little care, sometimes. He did mention that if only arok showed guilt, and beg at him while crying, he would have treated him better. We should also take the point to remember how arok behavior is as he is taught to be calm and mask his emotions. He feels teribble inside, but he keeps calm and smiles outside. It's like how he defends himself, acting like it doesn't matter, that it doesn't affect him, that he shouldn't show how hurt he is. It was how he was raised, and he cannot change that. Klopp taught he is provoking him more in these actions, and his hatred even grew. He became disgusted with arok but he was unaware of how arok responds pain. Also (credit to that person who posted) it was that maybe, klopp was disgusted to the thought that he fell in love with a devil, that kind of person and he probably felt angry to himself and to arok too.
    I am also confused but it seems like after their deaths in the main story, the souls of original mc & ml are separated and regressed to other parallel world/life (?) In part 2 & 3, they met their partners, and had the same events happening. But different plot as they took different actions. The partners are different too. Oc arok with his past memories of first life, & unmarried klopp who chased arok. Oc klopp with his past memories of first life & noble arok who didn't fell first and maintained his nobility. It's like meeting the new version of their partners. Learning who they really were without the tragic and brutal history. Both of the originals hid their past life in their partners in those worlds. Like how klopp considered oc arok's past memories as a dream or imaginations. And arok considers the memories of oc klopps as past hallucination from a mere symptom of his illness of imprinting and amnesia.
    Infront of him now was the arrogant, noble, and beautiful Arok taywind. The most brilliant creature in the world. But not the, arok taywind he longed for. He wanted to meet that past arok taywind, so much that he comitted suicide. But he will never be with him again. It doesn't mean that he do not love the arok infront of him. The arok in this life was how he knew past arok better. His brilliance, his wits, his cute, and funny side. He never knew that his past arok was this kind of person before the tragedy. But the person who made him feel guilt and deep affections was the past arok taywind. That longing and guilt, I believe its his punishment. He may grovel at the ground, kill himself, hurt himself. But time cannot be turned back. I think his regression, is not a second chance, but to make him feel the pain and guilt more, as he slowly know how good person arok was, that this brilliant present arok, was reduced to that worn skinny past arok, due to his sins. The also brilliant past arok that he ruined and cursed, will never come back to him no matter how he regret. It is his punishment..

    The unhappiness of being unreachable and unforgivable even when it's also Arok's by his side. It's a bittersweet ending fitting for Klopp of first life.
    The imprinting of alpha and omega is a forever bond. But in this life, most of the disadvantages will fall to the alpha. As how klopp's behavior changes in the part 3, it shows that his imprint in his first life still tied on him. He had hallucinations, intensified obsession, lust, longing, and physical symptoms like coughing up blood. This takes a toll on his mental health and everytime he would be rejected by his imprinted omega, he spits and coughs blood. But when he imprinted with the present arok when arok is slowly turning into an omega, i think it worked even though who he originally imprinted with is past arok, i guess the dna are the same and matched cuz basically its the same person.

    It was said that when an alpha imprints an omega, it is harder on the alpha side. In one of the side stories, it was like even said to be like a curse. The alpha will have difficult timesto live if his imprinted omega died. The klopp in the first volume was said to have suffered the extreme symptoms, and only had the motivation to survive for his children.
    In the volume 1, it was said that klopp tricked arok into taking pills that will transform him into an omega. The pills worked, but it hurted arok so much in the process.

    In volume 2, not much was mentioned on how he became an omega again. But arok said that he slowly turned into an omega when he met and started to keep on meeting klopp.

    In volume 3, he checked to the doctor and was told that he is not an alpha or an omega. The doctor gave arok a tester that will show blue if alpha, and red if omega. However, the tester showed purple instead. So he was either or neither an alpha and omega. Although he is probably can be fertile and get pregnant, as the doctor gave him suppressor and birth control pills. It is where klopp discovered those and that was when he knew that arok changed again.

    Overall, i think it was that in each lifetime, arok was supposed to actually change from alpha to omega. The doctor in volume 3 confirmed this. So that pills fed to him by klopp in the first life was probably triggered his dna to "awake" and have mutation, eventually his gender to changed. I believe that what triggered that change from volume 2 and 3 are him being exposed to klopp which stimulated the mutation.
    In the volume 1, he was raped and killed with the unborn baby. Though it wasn't mentioned if the baby was indeed klopp's child, i think rafiel isn't someone who will cheat, especially in that timeline where he is married with klopp. He is a fluffy scaredy cat innocent omega. And i don't think marquis wolflake is someone who steals someone's lover, as he is someone who puts respect in serious manner. Also, in vol 2, even though he looked like he's burning in jealousy, all he did was glare to klopp and back off. He know the definition of boundaries and relationships. Iirc, there was also no mention of marquis wolflake and rafiel interaction in this volume though.

    In volume 2, it was mentioned that marquis wolflake keeps on glaring at klopp whenever klopp is close and touchy with rafiel. Klopp and rafiel were lovers in that time, as they were arranged to be married. Later, it was mentioned that in one of the parties of arok, here the engagement of rafiel and klopp was already denied long ago, rafiel was seen to be with marquis wolflake. Soon, the two went to foreign country and got married.

    In volume 3, Rafiel and klopp never got together. Since there was a scene where klopp offended rafiel, it was an event that caused rafiel to hate klopp as he is rude and rough person. Marquis wolflake comforted rafiel that time and i think that is the turning point where they became close. Later the two became engaged as it there was a scene where rafiel was inside the household of the wolflake late at night, and wolflake calls him fiance. Soon it was said they got married, and traveled the world. Although rafiel miscarried their firstborn, he is pregnant again and was currently stable and safe to keep the baby.

    Marquis wolflake is known to be cold through and through, but whenever he is with rafiel, he becaomes soft and gentle. I am not sure but i think he is somewhat like a soldier (?). The people around him was also shocked to know that this person who is like gonna froze anyone he meets, was warm to rafiel only. He was said to be hard to get along with, as he looks snob, but it was mentioned that he is actually an easy going person, as long as he is respected. I think the pair is a cute match. A fluffy sunny omega and the snob sunny omega protector.
    This, i am not sure. Depending on the circumstances, there is a possibility that he did and did not. Maybe he did, but either way, j think the county was bound to fall from grace even without his influence. After reading all these volumes, Count arok was proven and tested, to not be inclined to financial management. He is unskilled in this subject, and can easily be tricked as he was repeatedly scammed on every life. He doesn't know the value of money, like how a silver coin can mean so little, and how big the funds of taywind lineage has that can even support a country. (Mind you, the count heritage was older than royal family, so you can only imagine how enourmous their fund treasury is, but he still manage in every life to get scammed and almost go bankrupt ) He is clueless on the basic chores and knowledge in life. So i believe whether klopp did dirty tricks for his investment to fail or not, the taywind treasury is bound to be reduced as how he cannot manage them. He doesn't even know to collect his receipts and to read the ledger. Anf he keeps on signing contracts without even reading into it and checking upon it. He thinks it's such a hassle to keep reading copies of contract so he just signed and signed. (lmao )
    No, he only wanted to scare him but the men he sent ended up raping Rafiel and killing him. Still this doesn't take away what ill intentions Arok did have. He still sent ppl to scare someone out of jealousy. Its still very much on his shoulders and has to deal with the consequences he setup in the first place
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    Updated to Pg.4 as of May 20, 2023
    Content of Pg.1 is not as updated as its only Pg.1 and can be easily looked through
     
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    Here is the English English manhwa link:


    Apparently, the mc is (uke) the black hair dude is (seme). And here are more spoilers; I don't know but based on these spoilers the mc MIGHT have killed the black hair dude's lover and if that's true then I'm highly disappointed and the mc deserves some karma but not being daily gang r-ped and go through various miscarriages. I have copied these spoilers from bato.
    trigger warning: r*pe, gangr*pe, prostituition
    uke is an alpa who was experimented to be able to give birth,
    well it was a revenge by seme coz uke is soo jealous because seme
    rejected him that he committed a great sin that cause the lover of the
    seme to be r*pe and miscarriage and died. Seme did everything for uke to
    fall from grace that's why he was selling himself in the street,repeated r*pe
    ugh he didn't deserve that and constant miscarriages
    just kill him if you want revenge semeat the end he died from from giving birth?
    and the child he saw was actually his child with the seme after the experiment
    and the seme told the child that his mother is the dead lover
    i'm soo heartbroken while reading the spoiler, i can't handle this kind of plot huhu
    idk if he rebirthed but i hope he is and mend his past.
    what he did to the former lover? I have heard that spoiler before but I wanna know what the great sin was- idk if I'm being dumb '-' did he like plan the rape and death of the lover orrrr?
    Answer: the Uke hire someone to killed seme’s lover, that’s why the seme take a revenge for that.

    If the mc killed the black hair dude's lover just because he was so much in love with him then shame on HIM.
     
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    whew chile the ghetto this some crazy shit
     
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    Uke loved Seme, but Seme was already engaged and his lover was already pregnant (uke hired someone to kill him) Seme finds her lover in an alley raped and dead, with a miscarriage.
    Seme begins to take revenge and ruins uke and gives him a pill to make uke become an omega. He becomes pregnant and the child is taken from him and thrown out uke into the street.Uke survives on the streets in the alleys where he is constantly raped and has miscarriages.
    But uke still loves Alpha and wants to meet his child and accidentally runs into Alpha in an alley where Alpha laughed at him and threw him one coin.
    On the cuff, he buys himself cheap clothes and shoes and goes to the alpha's house (which used to belong to uke), but the alpha is furious and says that this is his mistress's child, not his.
    He leaves and wants to sort of throw himself into the river, but he is caught and locked in a small wooden house behind the mansion, where the alpha constantly beats and brutally rapes him.
    Alpha believed that before that he had little retribution and he needed to sink even lower.
    Alpha chained him to the bed and fed him little bad food and in total uke became pregnant 5-6 times and all the children were taken away from him and not even shown.
    In the last pregnancy, he decides to leave the small house (he was pregnant), Alpha finds out that he left and goes to look for him and finds four people raping him in the alley .He kills rapists but the waters have already broken and he gives birth to twins.But due to frequent miscarriages and constant childbirth, he dies after 2 days.
    Their last conversation was that uke said that he loves him, but the alpha replies that what he did is not love. Uke says that if there is a 2nd life, he will never touch the alpha's lover.Uke slowly closes his eyes after the last words and the alpha looks at him and shakes him.
    So ended volume 1 of 6.

    I read on Korean sites and I can be wrong in the subtleties, so write if you know something)
    many spoilers:
    There's a lot I don't understand or it wasn't shown in spoilers. Alpha avenged his 1st child and wife in the most cruel way of all. So why would he have 6 children from the person who killed your love? Alpha's mistress was uke's cousin (and was very similar in appearance to uke)
    1 alpha named child Rafael in honor of his lover and said that his mother is a dead lover, not uke.Rafael collected in himself the best qualities of uke and was very looked like him when he grew up.
    I saw a post somewhere that Rafael was a substitute for uke and the alpha expressed warm feelings to his son because he could not express them to uke and said how Rafael looks like uke.
    As a result, the alpha has 6 children from a person whom you hate ... Maybe he imagines that these are children from his love that was killed? I do not think so……. So I want to say that after all this obsession with revenge in the next life, he falls in love with uke at first sight and the alpha's concern begins...….Why would an alpha like another alpha? But he had a feeling that he had known uke for a long time, and then he began to have dreams that uke needed to be trampled, lowered to the very bottom and he needed to be impregnated….

    If you loved your lover so much, then be with him even after the regression…why was all this suffering for uke necessary?

    Why were all these humiliations over uke? Why did he suffer so much more than he deserved?
    I do not think that after such a life you can forgive ...

    Answer me please..
    • Did Alpha love a lover in 1 life?
    • What did he feel for uke?
    • What did he achieve by this and how did he feel after that?
    • What did he do after uke died?
     
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    I read somewhere that raphel(the omega) seme's fiance wasn't actually pregnant with the seme's child.
    But with someone else's child
    In the ep 8 of the manhwa the seme looked like he was trying to make uke jealous by being to his fiance.

    I read somewhere that raphel(the omega) seme's fiance wasn't actually pregnant with the seme's child.
    But with someone else's child
    In the ep 8 of the manhwa the seme looked like he was try
    It was mentioned in the side stories that the alpha tha raphel gets together after with in the regression part his name was marquis wolf or something like that he was the actual father of raphels child marquis wolf noticed that the alpha(seme) didn't actually love raphel but was using him to make the uke jealous

    I read somewhere that raphel(the omega) seme's fiance wasn't actually pregnant with the seme's child.
    But with someone else's child
    In the ep 8 of the manhwa the seme looked like he was try
    It was mentioned in the side stories that the alpha tha raphel gets together after with in the regression part his name was marquis wolf or something like that he was the actual father of raphels child marquis wolf noticed that the alpha(seme) didn't actually love raphel but was using him to make the uke jea
    After seeing some reviews and all the stuff related to this and those who read the novel said/implied :
    the Alpha didn't actually love the his omega fiance I could be wrong but the comments said that he was in reality attracted to the uke.
    He was attracted to uke but I guess didn't want to admit it.
     
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    So the alpha is just a bastard?
    But in the manga, it is shown that he is very upset due to the death of his lover and his child. So why should he take revenge and throw him out into the street and tell his eldest son from uke that his mother is not uke but a dead lover ..... Uke will be thrown into the streets and raped many times ...
    I saw somewhere in the spoilers that uke attracted alpha, but he already had omega and alpha+alpha bride this is considered homosexual nowadays, but due to uke's actions and seme's lover's murder, he was determined to completely trample on uke and make him a nonentity…..

    So why does he act like this if he doesn't love his former lover?… ..
     
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    Really I don't understand seme , why would he do this :blobawkward:
    And also when will the regression occurs????
     
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    The novel was a confusing since its DIVIDED INTO 3 PARTS. Each part are different. But i can tell you WHAT HAPPENED ON PART 1 & 2 based on what i understand. I am currently reading the vol 3. I would explain the plot in a short manner. It's not 100% accurate so feel free to correct me though.

    -Klopp (alpha seme)

    -Alock/Arok (alpha uke)

    !!TW: Part 1 of the novel is brutal and depressing, please be careful.!!

    This volume seems like the first timeline. Count arok taywind met klopp in one of their tea parties. He fell inlove instantly, but klopp have a lover named rafiel westport. Later they got married. Arok tried to forget him, but later burned with jealousy. He ordered the killing of rafiel, who was pregnant and raped, died with the unborn child.

    Later on klopp suddenly disappeared and came back rich, while arok slowly fell from grace as his investments failed. Klopp unexpectedly helped him, eventually became a viscount and bought the mansion. He let arok stay in the mansion, but with his secret motive of revenge. He tricked arok into taking pills, and he was turned into omega. Klopp knew that arok ordered the death of his wife rafiel, and became crazed due to hatred and trauma. He raped arok, and said to pay back his sins. He took his wife and child so arok needs to pay back with a child. I believe its a twisted revenge on klopp side, a sign of conquest, of victory.

    They had their first child, omega son who has blonde and blue eyes, he was named after rafiel. Afterwards, arok was moved to a hut, and was surprised because he thought he would atleast be given the authority to raise the child. Klopp snickered as he said arok would not become his wife, if he don't like to stay in the hut, he should leave. Arok stayed, and later had his second child, an alpha son. However, a commotion erupted as he refused to be treated badly by the servants, he was then kicked out of the estate and thrown to the slums.

    There, it was hell. As he was raped repeatedly, in exchange for a bread. He had three miscarriages. Then one day, he saw klopp and rafiel child in a carriage, and had this fantasy of being with them. Or atleast hugging the child even once. Later he was running, he met klopp again, and klopp gave him a silver coin, a sign of belittling him. Arok bought second hand suit and went to the mansion again. He met klopp, and had a conversation where he discovered that klopp considers rafiel child as the child of his dead wife rafiel westport. Heartbroken, arok left and committed suicide to the river. He was saved by the attendant of klopp. Klopp was surprised that he commited suicide, as he thinks of aroks as a devil who does not even shed tears. (arok cannot cry no matter how har he tries, he once poked his eye to see if his tearducts are abnormal. It's because of his upbringing, as his father sees crying as not a acceptable trait of a noble count. Arok had the habit of smiling instead, masking his emotions deep in his bones, which provokes klopp as he sees arok happy and thinks he's still not hurt enough. Arok cannot change this no matter how hard he tries.)

    Arok was allowed to stay in the estate, in a hut, near the rose garden and cedar trees. There, he lived quietly. Sometimes klopp would come at night, checking on him. Klopp would sometimes see rafiel on arok (arok was a distant relative of rafiel westport. They had the same eyes and haircolor, just little difference such as rafiel had dull blond hair and gray bluish eyes, while arok had shiny gold like blond hair and bluish eyes. Due to the total fall from grace of arok, he suffered to continous abuse and poverty in the slums. He began having frizzy dull hair, his strong alpha body gone as his body turned into omega, and his arrogance slowly faded). Later they had an argument, as klopp kept on giving arok the clothes that rafiel used to wear (rafiel westport was an omega his body is small and arok was once an alpha still having a bigger frame than ordinary omega, so arok sometimes tore the clothes as they dont fit him) resulting to being beaten and raped. Then, arok had his third child, another omega son.

    He continued living quietly, content on small gestures and often visits of klopp. Soon he had another child, the fourth omega, a daughter. I believe this is where klopp starts to soften (? not really though) to arok. They usually have rough sex (its an omegaverse so, klopp usually have sex with arok). In this point, klopp had a "loving" vanilla sex with arok, though during it, klopp whispers cruelty and curses to arok, that arok hopefully dies the same way like rafiel westport, and how he hated him so much. Klopp later soften and thought of bringing arok to the mansion, because winter is harsh in the hut and he's already pregnant again on their 5th child. Maybe pity, guilt, and the feeling connection on having someone through lonely times, having a companion in their own created hell. That he have arok to suffer with. He hated him but also undeniably still have conscience and maybe twisted affections as he cared for him a little.

    Klopp in the first place is not a bad person. He is a scholarly guy, a baron countryside noble who became an economic bureaucrat viscount, who is educated and has talents. But because of his monstrous hatred, he became a crazed twisted person hungry for revenge. So even though he treated arok with such cruelty, there are times he shows care and restraint esp when arok was pregnant. (though he takes them from him after childbirth and never let arok see them or touch them. one time arok hugged rafiel child and was beaten by klopp when he saw him. in his crazed mind he thinks that arok will stain rafiel, his dead wife again with his hands.)

    However, as klopp thought of moving in with arok and spending this life with his enemy, arok disappeared in the hut. And sooner news was given that he escaped and was in the slums again. He found him indeed in the slums, currently blank out of his mind as he was being raped by 4 men (those who raped him before). Klopp murdered the men, as he covered the body of arok, who was brutally beaten, with broken ankle and shoulders, bruises, semen, and thick black blood under his lower body. He's spaced out, almost like dying. They quickly went back to mansion, where arok water bag broke in the carriage, he was having a sudden childbirth. He was about to be saved, however, the doctor discovered he is pregnant with twins, losing the small chance of survival.

    After the childbirth, arok in his deathbed, asked for forgiveness, unaware that he was finally crying, shedding tears. He told klopp that he was hurting too and if given a chance he would not touch rafiel westport again. That now, he knows what rafiel westport felt while dying. He asked a dying wish, even as a lie, for klopp to say an "i love you", but klopp was silently crying. Arok smiled bitterly and close his eyes. He survived three days and passed away at the 3rd morning. Those days he was crying, and klopp was always beside him, hugging and kissing him. Arok was crying happy tears, and was having happy dreams when he died. Klopp was beside him when he breath his last and klopp gave him a kiss. Later he was standing on arok's tombstone, he felt regret, but still wasn't able to say "i love you".

    Arok was in the hut, he saw a tall man in the garden, klopp with the 6 children laughing and walking in the garden. He also saw someone with dull blonde hair, an omega, rafiel westport. Arok cried, and laughed. Strangely, he did not felt jealousy. He looked at klopp, and klopp stared at him, and eventually turned his back going to his family who is calling for him. They looked so happy. Arok still smiled while shedding tears, like a gesture that he's now accepting this end while he's being swallowed and drowned by darkness.

    It wasn't clearly said what klopp felt for arok. Is it affections, obsession, anger, longing, lust, or other crazy twisted emotions. But i believed klopp did not forgive him, and also did not forgive himself. Both are guilty, having twisted relationship, and misunderstandings. An enemy to lover troupe with dark plot and bad ending.

    PS. The part 1 should be really a forbidden book hahaha. The part 2 is pov of klopp, where arok reborn. But only arok have his past life memories, while klopp had dreams of his past life.
     
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    So Alpha loved his 1st lover or was it more like family feelings? If he already saw Raphael in uke and gave him his ex's clothes ...
    He took revenge on uke only because he didn’t see his tears?
    ….Uke suffered only because of the murder of the alpha’s former lover and that’s it?….. It’s just that such suffering fell on his head that he seemed to cut the whole family of seme….
     
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    Now for the second part. Keep in mind in this plot, its klopp's pov, arok have his past memories, but some events are the same in the first part, like arok was given a chance to redo things in a different way, now that he have his past memories.

    Klopp was lost in the cedar trees during the tea party of count arok taywind. They met and arok helped him to get back to the location. During the tea party, klopp observes the count and irritated that he has his fake smile and has this impression of him as a playboy. They bumped again, and klopp puts a sarcastic attitude towards the count. Arok strikes back and eventually turned into full of banters and sarcastic comebacks. He was invited again, sees it as an opportunity to widen his connection, he went. Though during those parties, klopp was slowly being attracted to arok, lowkey stealing glances, unconciously observing, searching for him, and was jealous of other people who is with arok.

    Klopp refuse to be attracted to another alpha he decided to pursue rafiel westport more, who looked like arok taywind, and stopped going to the invitations of count arok to distract himself. He wanted a stable life and he thinks that it should be with rafiel westport, instead of the arrogant count arok. But still, he cannot forget the count. He buried himself with work, as he was new in this industry and still building his reputation. His clients are growing, and his skills are being praised as he slowly starts the way to his success. But one night, count arok came uninvited in his office, asking for advice as his investment fails. Klopp wants to turn it down, but then accepted due to the recommendation letter arok have from klopp's viscount mentor. He was also distracted from the strong perfume smell that was left in his office as the count left.

    Klopp had dreams. He's with someone with dull blonde hair, big belly, and inside a hut. He has so much anger and hatred towards that skinny omega person. He finds it weird, as he seems to see count arok in that person, which is the opposite of the count arok right now. He did not take it seriously, but always disturbed with the brutal treatment and his behavior in those dreams. He did not see himself acting that way. These dreams continued on, with flashes of different scenes.

    Later on he become like a financial advisor of arok, dumbfounded how arok seems to not have any idea of fund management. Having him as a client, it is inevitable for them to meet. He became nervous and anxious pushing his engagement with rafiel quickly, because he felt like he will be defeated and deviate to the stable life that he wants. One time, after the date with rafiel, they spotted someone who looked like count arok in the slums, wearing a cloak and wary of the people around. Klopp shook it off, knowing how arrogant arok was, he won't even breathe the air in that area, they thought they were mistaken.

    During to a concert planned by the count arok, klopp also decided to propose that night to rafiel. The concert was grandioise, but he was a little unconfortable as him and rafiel were placed in the center, like star of the night although they were surrounded by higher people, count and marquis. Especially, a specific marquis wolflake who keeps on glaring on him that made him a little annoyed. Unexpectedly, count arok arranged a performance. He played a violin instrument, with a sad and tragic love melody that made the crowd tear. It is a heartbreaking melody, that also bewitch klopp. Why and who is making you sad? Klopp though as he stared at the guy who looked like a dream, gorgeous as he stands in the stage in his white suit and beauty that shines. Count arok had a melancholic aura, klopp cannot understand. Anxious of what he is feeling, he felt like he's standing on the cliff, he needs to act in urgency. He needs to propose now to rafiel. He must.

    When klopp decided, he led rafiel to a hidden area at rose garden to propose, he readied himself and pop the question when he was suddenly pushed by a couple who was doing something nasty. He became angry, not because the marriage proposal was interrupted, but because he felt like all the piled emotions needs to be vented, and his chance for a saving was now lost. He was hanging by a thread and now he lost control and fought with the guy even infront of rafiel westport. Rafiel ran and the ring was lost, the scene was a mess and count arok arrived, worried on his injuries. Arok ordered them to be let inside the mansion to calm the noise and avoid rumors. Later, the engagement between rafiel westport and was denied and they broke up. Count arok stormed in his office, asking why they broke up. Klopp began having his suspicions, and cornered the count. He thought that count arok liked rafiel, as he can't stop mentioning his ex and also connects his past behaviors. He can't restrain himself and they kissed. Wherein count arok woke up and pushed him then ran away.

    Later then klopp pursued arok, though he was being avoided by the count. He was taught by the butler, having a hint on his relationship with the count, he continued to learn noble ethics under the strict cold butler. Wanting to gather favors to the person closest to arok, he worked hard. One time he heard some gossip that an omega noble was buying suppressor in the slums. Klopp was curious, and then surprised when he saw count arok being cornered by men. He saved him, dragged him and ended up having sex at Klopp's house. He was angry as the count arok who is avoiding him smells like an omega, he thought arok was rolling around with an omega prostitute/lover in the slums. Klopp discovered that count arok who is a noble alpha became an omega. Turns out, he transformed into omega and it started when he met klopps. That is why he have the thick scent of omega on his body. Overjoyed, he considered arok as his omega already, and planned to spend arok's heat with him in the next month. They discussed about children, and klopp wanted to have 2 child, while count arok wants six children surprisingly (he maybe have this regret not being able to be with his six children in the past :'( )

    Soon arok had another party, klopp even spotted marquis wolflake with rafiel westport, who are now married, and angered as he wondered why rafiel is here again. He thought that arok's obsession with rafiel is still not finished. He dragged the count arok, who is nearing his heat and had sex. Later, arok was knotted and imprinted by klopp. It's the first time arok heard klopp saying an "i love you". He panicked, scared that this is a dream and he will wake up soon, as he believed that klopp would never love him. Klopp comforted him and whispered i love yous till he fell asleep.

    Afterward, count arko's belly was starting to grow, he said it will be an omega child, with blonde and blue eyes and will be named as rafiel. Klopp was angry and shouted, jealous, that he will never allow a rafiel name in his children. He insisted that it will be an alpha son. Klopp spoiled and cared so much for Arok during his pregnancy. Arok disliked raisins, and spits them out. They moved to someplace far from the people's eyes, as it will complicate the reputation of the count. Count arok is known to be an alpha, and if words came out that he become an omega, there will be rumors and disputes esp on him being a taywind heir. So they decided not to bring this up for a while as klopp will work on it later. He wanted to legally marry count arok but alpha to alpha marriage was not allowed yet, so they have no choice but to wait for the mean time. Klopp promised arok that he will make him his wife legally and will work for the documents.

    Arok birthed an alpha son, with features same as Klopp. Arok panicked, he cannot believe its his son and rejected it at first, but later calmed down and breastfed the baby. He whispered that things have changed. He keeps on having panic attacks where he begs klopp not to take the child, like he is confused if this life was like in the last life. In his hazy confused moments, arok told him a story. Klopp felt goosebumps and chills as arok told him a brutal story which is actually their first life. Klopp did not know that it is their first life, and thought that arok was still not on the right mind, but he still felt disturbed. Klopp rides on his story, still not considering it as the truth, he plays on and says that he forgives him, and he loves him, where arok reacted strongly while sobbing and told him if he can love klopp now. They exchanged i love yous and arok slept. Klopp thought that maybe that dream is what caused arok to behave like this, like how he loves to eat, how he don't like it when klopp leaves and why he only now said his affections and reciprocated his i love you. Klopp thought that arok had this emotional instability due to this imaginations and was probably the result of his strict upbringing in a noble house. He's determined to heal that by giving infinite love. He whispered to his baby son that arok was someone who lacked affections and they should love him. When he woke up, he saw arok with the child. Arok looked different, like he was finally happy and he looks better with a lighter atmosphere and look on his face.

    Arok was standing, still at the secluded garden again. He saw a tall man, klopp laughing, with several children with him. He tried to shout at him, grab the blurry scene, but he can't. He saw an omega, rafiel westport. Arok smiled and cried. Arok looked at them in his blurry vision a little longer as he knows he will be swallowed by darkness again soon. It was enough, it was a fleeting dream, but i am happy. Klopp looked at him and he stared back smiling but crying. But opposite of what he thought, Klopp did not turn back, instead shouted at him and ran towards him. He woke up to the shouting, and saw Klopp worried. They are in the rose garden, and two children came running to him calling him mother. Klopp and arok currently have 2 children, Lennok the alpha son who looked like klopp, and urea his omega daughter with blonde and blue eyes, and soon, as he is in his early pregnancy now, a baby son who have klopp's hair and blue eyes, Jester. Klopp comforted him and kissed him. Arok laughed, he hugged klopp back who in return wiped his tears.

    Now the darkness is gone and there is dazzling light.

    It was mentioned what happened to the family after arok's death. After arok died, they discovered that the two was imprinted. Later, the mansion slowly became quiet as his children one by one left to follow their loved ones. He was only left with the spacious mansion, with the beautiful rose garden and the small cabin. One time, he saw the desolate cabin had its dim light again, he rushed downstairs ans shouted that name, but all he saw was the abandoned cabin. Then he realized it. He glanced at the side, and saw the tombstone buried in stone. He stood there for a long time.

    It was also mentioned that rafiel, the first child, sooner known that rafiel westport is not his real mother, but was actually the count arok taywind. He was upset and left the estate, refusing to acknowledge what his father told him that his mother was the dead rafiel westport who was named after him. In anger, klopp cursed arok's tombstone and tried to destroy it with a hammer, where the second child, alpha son, interfered and was injured eventually. Seems like also klopp, now old with his silver hair, was unable to walk and mostly spend his time inside the mansion, in a room where the garden can be seen, sitting, staring blankly at the rose garden and the desolate cabin, from dawn to sunset. He was alone in the melancholic house.

    I am reading vol 3 and will update after. I am looking forward to the manhwa. If you have questions i'll try to answer them.

    In my opinion i think he did love rafiel in part 1.

    But if i would judge including the story on the part 2, I think it's more like choosing stability with rafiel instead pursuing an uncertain life with the arrogant and difficult count arok. And maybe, that's how it was too in their first life, too. Like, he refused this attraction to arok and instead dumped all his attention to rafiel to lose feelings, and eventually learned to love rafiel. The difference maybe is that in the part 1, klopp did not pursue what he felt to count arok, successfully being with rafiel in what supposed to be stable life, learning to love his spouse. Arok also tried to avoid him due to his jealousy before then. While in the part 2, because of their continued meeting and encounters that made Klopp's feelings stronger, he destroyed that barrier and restraint, chased the count arok and loved him infinitely. I believe it's also like a ripple effect, as count arok's actions caused these events to change compared to the first life.

    And i think he took revenge on arok because he did not see his repentance and he was angry because he still feels grief on the death of rafiel after many years, while the "killer", arok, was already moving on in his life. That is why he have mixed feelings towards arok. He treats him hot and cold, and because of his trauma and crazed mind, he torments him to see him beg for forgiveness. But he also treats him with little care, sometimes. He did mention that if only arok showed guilt, and beg at him while crying, he would have treated him better. We should also take the point to remember how arok behavior is as he is taught to be calm and mask his emotions. He feels teribble inside, but he keeps calm and smiles outside. It's like how he defends himself, acting like it doesn't matter, that it doesn't affect him, that he shouldn't show how hurt he is. It was how he was raised, and he cannot change that. Klopp taught he is provoking him more in these actions, and his hatred even grew. He became disgusted with arok but he was unaware of how arok responds to pain.

    I think that arok's suffering was too much. He should have sue him or something instead of torturing him like that. Especially, klopp's a law student, he should know better than putting law into his own hands.

     
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    I read somewhere that raphel(the omega) seme's fiance wasn't actually pregnant with the seme's child.
    But with someone else's child
    In the ep 8 of the manhwa the seme looked like he was try
    It was mentioned in the side stories that the alpha tha raphel gets together after with in the regression part his name was marquis wolf or something like that he was the actual father of raphels child marquis wolf noticed that the alpha(seme) didn't actually love raphel but was using him to make the uke jea
    After seeing some reviews and all the stuff related to this and those who read the novel said/implied :
    the Alpha didn't actually love the his omega fiance I could be wrong but the comments said that he was in reality attracted to the uke.
    2.he was attracted to uke but I guess didn't want to admit it.
    after reading the first part it felt like the seme was suffering from inferiorty complex.
    he always seemed angry at how arok used to shine where ever he went, he was refined and always stood tall.
    he had this twisted obsession with the uke. What I felt about the seme and rapheil was that the seme was using rafeal as arok's replacement. at that time alpha x alpha was considered homo and maybe was looked down upon so he made himself believe that he loves rapheal
    now for rafeal I don't know whether he loved klop or not I'm not sure because in the side stories it is revealed that rapheal wasn't pregnant with klops's child but with marquis wolf's. Now it wasn't mentioned whether klop knew about it or not or maybe I missed something.

    seme wanted to get some reaction out of the uke hence the extreme methods of physical and phsyclogical torture
    he was surprised when he came to know that all the things he did to uke and the uke never shed a single drop of tear but what hurt uke the most was when seme denied that the first child between him and arok was not arok's and arok attempted sucide by jumping into the river.
     
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    I'm waiting for you to tell what happened after when the seme completely restored memories of 1 life.
    Alpha tried to smash uke's headstone……and why…? For the fact that his children learned the truth? ...

    He was drawn to uke even in his 1st life…but such revenge…..feelings for Raphael were stronger than feelings for uke of 1st life? Or were they perverted emotions mixed with everything else?
    Well, in terms of the fact that he was interested in uke, but because of his character and the murder of Rafael, he hated what he felt for such a demon who seemed to have no regrets about anything.

    I want to know everything down to the smallest detail.:blobtired:
     
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    Thanks for the spoilers. Anything more about their children in the 1st timeline? I feel really sorry for them for not knowing who their mother really is. :cry:
     
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    seme wanted to get some reaction out of the uke hence the extreme methods of physical and phsyclogical torture
    he was surprised when he came to know that all the things he did to uke and the uke never shed a single drop of tear but what hurt uke the most was when seme denied that the first child between him and arok was not arok's and arok attempte
    the first child got to know about who his birth mother really was and he got angry at his father (the seme) for treating his mother (arok) poorly and left home. he said he didn't want to live where his mother was treated so poorly and eventually died by his father's harsh treatment. he was named "rapheal" but he hated his name and asked his father not to call him by that name and told him he should've named him after his real mother that was "arok"
     
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    in the last chapter of the manhwa, seme beats uke because uke ripped the clothes that belonged to seme's ex-bride.... so why did he even give it...
     
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    Maybe to make uke feel like shit about his dead lover? I’m not sure.... but definitely to make him feel guilty.

    Is there ch 11 of the manhwa yet? I hear some people saying there is...
     
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    kind of confused is vol 1 the whole story until the uke's death and vol 2 is what happens after the uke death?
     
  19. Kemlsio

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    Nonsense ... if he loved his ex-fiance so much, then let him be with him in his 2nd life and don’t touch uke, he already suffered
    he hates uke but rapes him and forces him to bear him children….

    I only found 10
     
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    For everyone who wanted to know what happened to the regression of first life klopp, here it is. This life, it's now klopp with the memories of part 1 and it's now on Arok's pov. Looks like the original mc & ml souls are separated to different worlds/life, and also met different versions of their partners.

    !!TW: Be careful of reading.!!

    They had an encounter in the rose garden where they always met at the first time in each life. Klopp was angry and histerical when he met arok first. Like a madman he shouted and cursed the clueless count. Arok was surprised to his outbursts and was assaulted, arok screamed for help, luckily his servants helped him to kicked the madman.

    The second encounter was when he got lost after he went in a concert at the royal music hall. Distracted, he got lost in the streets. There, he met scammers. They attacked him and luckily he was safe, as he was helped by Klopp. Arok was wary of the madman, but Klop was calm. He asked if Arok cannot remember him, and arok was still clueless. Klopp, smiling, confirmed he came back in time. Arok felt goosebumps and creeped out, so he said his goodbyes and left.

    The third encounter was in the party of duchess clayton. He was surprised to see the madman in the party, and how people treat him with respect. In his mind, how did this mad swindler able to trick these people? Arok thought. To avoid klopp, arok went to the terrace, but he was found and cornered by klopp. (Klopp was shamelessly flirting with him lmao) He felt fear for the unpredictable madman klopp, and klopp seeing how arok paled infront of him, let go. He went on a rampage like a madman with rabies, and then was caught offguard with the sudden calm demeanor like a saint born under the star of reason, and now he's showing his desire like a dog in heat.

    Soon arok was in trouble, as how his life started to go down like the other life, his financial invesments are failing. He tried and asked for a trusted finance advisor, and resulted to all of them pointed to Klopp Bendyk. Left with no choice, he asked for klopp's presence. But Klopp did not want to be paid by money, instead he wanted arok. Arok who was desperate, agreed. They had a contract, where klopp will manage his debt and income, in exchange, they will have an "agreed relationship".The day of the agreed date of payment is due. Arok had a rough nightmare of him having sexual intercourse with klopp. Clueless he went to the room inside the mansion where they decided to do it. But instead, when Arok told klopp that all the neccessary equipments are ready, klopp laughed. He intended to court arok, not to force him into it.

    The meet ups continued. One time, after arok's visit in an art gallery, he found klopp waiting in the mansion. Arok was surprised to see his beloved books in the table, like they were picked up. He was curious how klopp knew his favorite books. When klopp's about to leave he leand to arok, he looks like he was about to kiss him, but instead kissed his forehead. When they had a conversation about the old cabin, Arok said he wanted to remove it, as the cabin dont match the beautiful rose garden but klopp asked him to leave it as it is. There also ended up about the topic of the "payment" as arok's joked that he's about to cry with how long klopp's taking it. Klopp said he wouldn't want him to cry, he will feel like dying on the spot. Later they kissed and had an agreement to do it the next time. At the agreed day, Klopp was having doubts, he asked arok, "Is it okay if we do this? To be honest, I am afraid that the days of hating each other will start again." Arok was confuse again, as Klopp keep on spouting different things each time. He keeps mentioning things that he cannot understand. They went on it but not all the way.

    Then there was a dinner incident where klopp said something offending to rafiel. Then arguments came where arok, wolflake, and klopp quarrelled. Rafiel cried and walked out and marquis wolflake followed to comfort him. In the carriage, klopp said to arok not to touch rafiel. Arok said he would as he dont have any ill intention to the innocent omega. Klopp said because of jealousy, because arok wanted to be an omega. Arok laughed and said he put pride in being an alpha. There he thought that klopp liked rafiel, and that he, arok, was just a substitute for klopp's desires for rafiel. They had an argument in the carriage and ended up arok firing klopp and left. Then arok went to the slums again to "vent" and find an omega to a brothel. However he met scammers again, where he found klopp again. His attackers were killed with klopp's sword. However, the back ups came and klopp was shot. They went to klopp's house to be treated. Few days he came and visited but klopp was unavailable as he was resting. One day, he invited klopp for an evening party. However what came is a letter of apology for not being absent. Arok decided to go to klopp's house.

    There he heard klopp cooing someone, speaking softly, and eventually saying rafiel. Angered, arok stormed out of klopp's house and went to marquis wolflake estate. He told the marquis that he was being cheated by rafiel, his fiance. But wolflake told him his fiance was upstairs, and rafiel indeed came down, still sleepy. Arok was dumbfounded. Who was that rafiel that klopp was talking to? (Klopp was hallucinating of baby rafiel in the first life, as its a symptom of his imprinting :'( ) He went back to the klopp's house and there he saw klopp in his crazed moment. He's like not himself and eventually, almost killed arok by strangling. Arok defended himself and injured him in the head. Klopp kept apologizing, paled. Turns out, he confessed he's imprinted, and it was his imprinted symptoms that made him go crazed. But it's not rafiel westport. It was someone else.

    Heartbroken and terrified, arok hid in his mansion for days. Letters of apology keep on coming from klopp and sometimes he cames in the mansion but arok did not meet him. Then arok decided to go out after few days. He went to the hat store, but surprised there was a reserved hats for him paid by klopp, he was angry but took it. Next he went to an art gallery, but discovered there was a canvass that klopp ordered, and he saw a painting, a skinny man inside a worn out cabin, blonde hair blue eyes, sitting in a chair beside the sack of potatoes and daffodils, playing chess with stones on a table. (It was the arok of the first life :'( ) He was angered again, as he consider it a shame as the painter told him the man is him. It was an embarrasment to the count, he is not a worn and skinny man but a noble count.

    Later klopp went again to the mansion, but then the angry arok threw him the hat and the paintings. Klopp was saddened and asked if he did not like it. Klopp said that he was indeed imprinted. And it was his last visit to the count as he will now meet that person and go with him. Arok asked if he looked like him, but klopp said he did not, and added that his soul only belongs to that person. Arok calmed, and they said their goodbyes. Later, a gunshot was heard.

    Klopp was saved thanks to wolflake who ticked his gun beforehand so it exploded in his hands instead. Though there are still impact and a wound on his head and fingers. Klopp claimed he have amnesia, and the relationship between them progressed. One time klopp spilled the name arok, an omega, so arok search for that person, but ther was no one. Later he discovered he is also turning into an omega. He asked klopp who did he imprinted to, but klopp kept saying it is arok taywind. It was him all along. Arok knew it did not make sense and only thought that he's still not in the right mind because of the imprinting symptom and amnesia. (I think later on when they had intercourse, the imprinted was indeed arok, but i believe that's actually impossible without intercourse so arok cannot believe it as its their first. Klopp imprinted with the past arok but i guess same dna so it worked with present arok.)

    In the last chapter, it was revealed that klopp did not have amnesia, but only wanted to hide his past life to the arok of present. Klopp wanted arok taywind. His mate. His imprinted omega. His devil. But in that life, he's not there. He realized his soul would never have a second chance to rest by his side. He was not allowed to be by his side. Instead, he whispered i love you to that beautiful present arok taywind. He hoped that these unfinished whispers of love will reach it's proper owner someday. He hoped that if he loved the person infront of him with all his might, one day, that battered man will come to meet him.

    Infront of him was the arrogant, noble, and beautiful Arok taywind. The most brilliant creature in the world. But not the, arok taywind he longed for. He wanted to meet that past arok taywind, so much that he comitted suicide. But he will never be with him again. It doesn't mean that he do not love the arok infront of him. The arok in this life was how he know past arok better. His brilliance, his wits, his cute, and funny side. He never knew that his past arok was this kind of person. But the person who made him feel guilt and deep affections was the past arok taywind. That longing and guilt, I believe its his punishment. He may grovel at the ground, kill himself, hurt himself. But time cannot be turned back. I think his regression, is not a second chance, but to make him feel the pain and guilt more, as he slowly know how good person arok was, that this brilliant present arok, was reduced to that worn skinny past arok, due to his sins. The brilliant arok he ruined. It is his punishment..

    The unhappiness of being unreachable and unforgivable even when it's Arok's by his side. It's a bittersweet ending fitting for Klopp of first life.

    because he slowly sees the shadow of rafiel in arok. maybe he wanted to see rafiel so much that he gave those clothes to him. or maybe, he wants to see arok suffer like how rafiel suffered because of poverty and like how he wanted arok to die the same death of rafiel. and when he saw that arok tore the clothes, it made him think that arok's belittling rafiel's things because rafiel's poor. iirc, arok that time said the clothes was "nasty" so klopp got angry because of that insult too.

    PART 1: MAINSTORY (Original arok & Original klopp)
    PART 2: (Original arok regression & klopp)
    PART 3: (Original klopp regression & arok)

    I am also confused but it seems like after their deaths in the main story, the souls are separated and regressed to other world/life (?) In part 2 & 3, they met their partners, and had the same events happening. It's like meeting the new version of their partners. Both of the originals hid their past life in their partners in those world. Like how klopp considered oc arok's memories as a dream or imaginations. And arok considers the nonsense and hallucinations of oc klopps as just a mere symptom of his illness of imprinting and amnesia.
     
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